..:: 313. The One With A Fun Week ::..

well, today is saturday, one of the rare occasions i get to book out on friday. Well, seriously ever since i am in the army, there is nothing much happening in my civilian life. Everytime i get to book out, its definitely less than 24 hrs. I still need to sleep, wash my stuff, stock up what i need, lastly if got time then catch a movie or what.

I need to keep a journal for my days in ocs too, hence by doing it online, i do not need to do a double entry onto a book. Isnt it good sometimes to hear something that is new? rather than blogging about my trip to town, movie reviews... these things everyone having civilian life can do. Secondly, i also do not have much contact with my friends, so many things to do in such a short time. Moreover, i now need more time to travel to SAFTI MI. Thirdly, isnt my blog supposed to be about my daily activities, thoughts, reflections rather than blogging to please people? or to blog certain stuff to interest people? Think about it.

Nevertheless, when i look at the schedule, i was kinda disheartened. Physical training every evening after combat trainings. However, thanks to the rain, a few had been cut down. Interesting stuff would be the initiation ceremony. We had a turn-out on tue morning at 430am, meaning they will wake us up suddenly by shouting, asking us to fall in in a particular attire in 3 mins. rationale behind it was crap but still we had to do it. Then we went for a run (arghz), ran up a SAFTI tower which has 265 steps that signify 265 days in OCS. Magnificant view at the top. Next we had to take a cool dip, went to do a confidence jump at 5m platform at the swimming pool. Luckily the rest of the day was signal test, lots of waiting time so we found chance to sleep.

Must comment on the food at SAFTI, damn nice. Even the soup got lots of varieties. tou suan, bo bo cha cha, white fungus with papaya, etc.

Just had a IPPT trial test, yeah got a gold... damn happy, still cant believe i manage a 10 chin-ups and a < 9:45 min for my 2.4km after a shack day. if i get a gold in the real test, i can get 200 bucks!

fri morning was the real initiation ceremony where i got to step into this solemn place, ceremonial hall. The $40k and $60k sword and torch were a sight to behold.

After breakfast, we went for a paintball practice. It was damn fun!!! We get to shoot at each other, really train us to take cover properly. Once you get hit, you not only feel the pain but also you will have a coloured stain. I shot a guy at his neck region while he was loading his weapon. *ouch. Many of us got bruises after the practice but still it was fun. especially headshots!

gotta book in sat evening at 5! cos sun got live firing and we can only sleep like after 3am. die!

mmm... lets keep a minute of silence for our late former People's President, Dr Wee Kim Wee...

-end of blog-

P.S: I need to get the officer creed into my head badly. whole platoon been screwed for not being able to recite fully...

I am an officer cadet of OCS
To inspire us onwards as officers to be
I now state with reverance and respect
The officers creed:

I am an officer of the Singapore Armed Forces
My duty is to lead, to excel and to overcome
I lead my man by example
I answer for their training, morale and discipline
I must excel in everything i do
I serve with pride, honour and integrity
I will overcome adversity with courage fortitude and determination
I dedicate my life! to Singapore!

mmm... hopefully i memorised correctly...

..:: 312. The One With Survey ::..

Your Birthdate: February 20

Your birth on the 20th day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your reading. The 2 energy provided here is very social, allowing you to make friends easily and quickly. Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group. You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection. You are very prone to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil. It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in. When things are going well, you can go just as far the other way and become extremely affectionate.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

..:: 311. The One With My Dream Came True ::..

290405, Friday

I decided to meet up with my best friend for a karaoke session... been a long time since i last hear her sing. While waiting for the bus, i realised i got a missed call. When it was an unknown number, my heart skipped a beat. Was it the COS calling me that i'm going to cross over?

When i called back, i was super excited... Then i heard a familiar voice asking for my name.

Sgt Ahmad: You are to report to the SFT by 1845...

the rest of the conversation was a blur. Nothing else could contain my excitement. I finally can have training on mainland.

So happy that i crazily msg lots of people... Glad that all of them sent me their wishes. Thank you guys...

Shannen: Hey congrats! Haha.. You wanted to get in very much rite.. :-) haha must come out celebrate!

Weiming: Good. Congrats! I'm nowhere in NS =D

Melvin: Wa...congrats sir... haha so early receive call liao ah. all the best.

Wei Hao: Sob... u'll be gewtting like 800 a mth, double my pay. u better treat me to dinner next time!

Yunfei: haha congrats! i always knew you had it in you man. wanna club on sunday?

raphael: hjey john... that's great! congrats! look forward to u becoming an officer. can be my sir. haha. all the best!

Also must thank andy sir and weishan for their msges. hee...

i was pretty shocked when i received my commando PC's (2WO Chew Kim Leng) msg:

Congratulation guys for being selected 4 OCS! Work HARD as it's jus e STARTING of another learning stage... DO LEAD BY EXAMPLE and display a very POSITIVE attitude and approach 2 all tasks assigned and put in practice e 12 attributes of a leader- ISPASSFORCDF.It's all UP in yr MIND 2 MAKE IT HAPPEN. May all my eagles SOARED 2 GREATEST heights. Meantime, take care and u r WELCOME 2 visit our eagle 1 nest anytime. Yr CDO PC - e RED PATCH. Hooah!

went back to tekong on fri night to pack my stuff... my company of 153, only 17 got to cross over. Actually the cross-over was not based on performance in SISPEC, rather the list was already decided based on BMT. The 100 SISPEC cross overs were actually part of the trial batch... meaning they are testing the system whereby everyone going to OCS has to go through SISPEC.

However, looking back my experience in SISPEC had been an enjoyable one. Apart from negative thoughts, i had a very gd PC that inspired and impressed me the most... a section commander who never fails to make us laugh and make trainings (aka chiong sua) enjoyable.

Sat morning we had our last meal in SISPEC then we were brought all the way to SAFTI Military Institute (homeland of the OCS). My first impression of the place was that it looked like a chalet resort. The design of the buildings... one grateful thing was that i see less rovers, less tonners, more cars! From the parade square i could see HDB flats! i missed them a lot. At tekong i could only see a row of lights and the airport runway.

The dining hall (much better name than cookhouse) was kinda jap-style. Very spacious. No need to squeeze like in BMT or SISPEC. The food so much better even though its from SFI? Really pleasing to the eyes, the whole place. Got nice garden, mini water fall, koi pond, paintings, dim lights, the settings exactly like spa resort.

We got lots of cool gadgets like a business bag look-alike with lots of writing materials. Collar pin which we had to wear when we book out. The book out attire was pretty cool. white long sleeve shirt, black pants, black socks and leather shoes and belt. you can imagine how we look. impressive eh.

but the thing i like most was the rank. pretty cool two white stripes for now. Dunno whether am i lucky or what, i got chosen to be the CPC (cadet platoon commander) on the first day and i have to hold the rank (2 white bars plus a ribbon) for like 2 weeks! ... i knew the sir gonna call my name (fuck the instinct) and i was right.

Another thing nice about OCS is every instructor tries to live up to the symbol of a gentleman. I havent heard vulgarities yet unlike in SISPEC. In OCS, they also rarely pump people, they just give extras (guard duties or COS duties). Had a hard time adjusting to see so many commissioned officers. Now my PC is a LTA (2 bars) and my OC is a major *gulps*. Have to salute every now and then.

Booking out can be a chore since each wing will decide when they book out. If the programme drags, then you know what happen. Last time have to catch fast craft so they will release us no matter what. Now just have to march super far to the main entrance, by then all our shirts soaking wet and transparent.

My bunk kinda nice. got computer too. heh. each platoon got a mini kitchen and the toilet and shower room damn big. no need to queue but area cleaning sure die. the shirts and shorts they issued were nice too... actually i'm happy with everything about OCS now. The pay! The environment! The food! the cadet mess!



Foxtrot Wing.

..:: 310. The One With End of Term 1 ::..

yeah term 1 ended! had quite severe rope burn during rope obstacles. can even see flesh... yucks... still hurts after 3 days liao.

oh forgot to add that last week i did my SOC test and i got 8:15! haha so happy... the wall was higher, had to reach higher for the rope and higher swinging bridge, higher ramp, but still did not deter me frm slicing off 1:15 off my previous timing in BMT.

Echo coy had a happy hour on wed night where we had bbq and beer! my friend drank until he puked... cos we were playing 5:10:15:20 finger guessing game. the instructor was so gd that we trainees had to have a tag team. from tiger to stout to red wine... strangely no one had hangover the next day. perhaps only liquor can haf that effect.

thur was basically slack time. only thing to do was the survey at 3pm. then book out at 630pm. watched full metal jacket in the lecture room while waiting... oh ya, think i'm going to get band of brothers... really nice when i first saw it play during happy hour.

oh went to red cross hq wanting to pay a surprise visit but no one was there... angeline also took off till tue. only saw annie, the scary receptionist who was in gd mood today. lol.

my next pay i'm going to buy a camera! been missing out fun memories...

till next time...

..:: 309. The One With 5th Week in SISPEC ::..

This week had been a torment to my face. It's the camo-on week. Had to apply camo cream for almost the whole week. The week started with 2 days of outfield training, followed by a 4-day fieldcamp. During the camp, we had Ex Catwalk, Nightowl and Summex, all the mission exercises. Shan't go into details cos its kinda mundane and boring...

Good thing is that i got to book out on Friday for NIE interview. The expected questions like 'What would be your first choice? Business or Teaching?' Was kinda embarrased when they asked me to explain my maths result.

Next week only 4 days. having lectures and doing outdoor obstacles and repelling stuff... cool. hopefully they will call me, actually three parties. NTU business, NIE and the company orderly sergeant (for crossing over to OCS). mmm... Sat going clubbing, Mon going to sing!

..::308. The One With 3rd & 4th Week In SISPEC ::..

Basically the most fun thing was the navigation exercise. Ex Gypsy 1 was with the section and instructor. Couldnt find the legendary checkpoint IRIS and we were 'holland' (ho-lan) for quite some time. Gypsy 2 without instructor, still we came back like the last few, no time to plan for the navigation data sheet for the night one. Ex Wanderer was the actual test where details in four went to hunt for 4 day check points and 2 night check points. We managed to find IRIS this time and still completed the day one by 3.30pm which was a big feat. For the night one, we came back by 9pm, a challenge set by the warrant officers.

sian also dun feel like writing army stuff le. pretty boring. Just that week by week, the training gets more draining, by sat, we are all tired out.

this week sat, i got to book out for NTU interview. was kinda happy and wanted to arrange to get my off-pass from my platoon sergeant. In the end, when we came back from section training on fri, i was called to do guard duty. At first i thought i had to do because i would not be doing SOC the next day unlike the rest of the platoon. Only when i came back the next morning, my friend told me my PC was angry with the sergeants as they needed to rush the guard duty list so they just anyhow pick one name and sent to HQ. How lucky i am right? but then i was kinda repaid when i was told that i do not need to book in after my interview.

i was supposed to take 8am fast craft. in the end the tonner fetching us to theferry terminal was late, so i could only take the 9am one. I was almost late for the interview. Luckily the one before me was still inside the room. I took a cab down and it was 18 bucks! that pretty confirm that if i get into NTU, i would stay in hostel.

awaiting 29 apr...

..:: 307. The One With 2nd Week In SISPEC ::..

haiz - is the word to sum up this entire long week. so much so for 'working' a 5.5 day week. i really need to muster some motivation before i suffer from depression.

couldnt sleep for the first two days as i havent settle my university admission stuff... but thanks to a few people, they set my mind at ease... Andy sir, Vincent sir, Shannen, Jorin and my sis!

Got to book in on monday morning as i had a water course at changi naval base that morning. It was not a good thing to book in on monday at all. firstly, sun i went for a volleyball game and got hit right in my face. Slept like around 1am and had to wake up like 5am. The sleep was good but not enough.

Well at least there was some consolation this week as we spent like three days (tue-thur) having lectures. tue we had an NE discussion forum on whether spore can be defended. yawns... i was caught by the officer for dozing off... luckily he was in a gd mood. well almost half the cohort was sleeping, i was at the 2nd row so suay is the word.

wed, we had an early lights off at 8PM!!! Never slept so early before in my entire 4 months. I had like 9 hrs of sleep and super on-form for lectures and even SOC... arghz. training for SOC was such a waste of time. they could have given us one test and those who fail should go for training. Having to go through four sessions of SOC and a trial test is simply wasting 'soldier time'. Ya, its for combat fitness but the training for SOC is not even scheduled properly... we had 2 consective sessions while poor foxtrot had four trainings in a week!

In army... had to do things for the sake of doing... so thats why they often scold us for follwing the motion only. well what to do... once things become routine for me, i will feel 'sian'. So much for my instructors for saying 'do it once, do it good'.

We almost got to play 'musical chair'. It is a term for switching of bunks. Our commando PC made us pack every stuff we had and wanted to switch our bunks as we didnt do our area cleaning properly... i was eager to change bunk so i can get another cupboard which has an intact lock. my current one was spoilt so i could not lock my valuables. very frustrating... In the end, he just told us to put back our stuff...

the stand-by bed arrangement was even more 'do for the sake of doing'. We had to lay a soap box, toothbrush, toothpaste, shaver (all SAF issued items) when in fact none of us used them. I mean if we were to just make sure our stuff are neatly arranged, that would be the standard for stand-by bed. Not like now, where we had to put admin, shorts, white socks on the left, green socks on the right. Hang only three sets of clothes, civilian, then long 4, then smart 4. thats so stupid... Well, thats BMT Sch 1 way of stand-by bed. luckily mohawk was not like that.

next definitely have to talk about my section... my friend said i was stupid enough to be such a nice guy and help my section get stuff... which is true to a certain extent. I had a vad experience the last time so i would think twice next time. this time i asked one of my section to help me get the stuff... i was pretty anxious at this moment cos he didnt confirm whether he will be buying for me. If not i have to get it myself or find someone. I called and called but no one picked up the phone. ARGHZ.

my buddy is a garang (very-on) sikh, at least not a turban kind. i really dunno whether to appreciate him or to hate him. certain things he say, never goes through his mind. he could be mocking at his own section mate who was short and could not get through the low wall in SOC. but then again, it may be his way of motivating that guy. maybe i am still being racist or wat cos i came from an all-chinese bunk in my BMT. Now the tension in the section is quite intense. there are people trying to impress so they can go to OCS by 6th week, some haven come out from their comfort zone. It's very hard to sense sincerity in the conversations now. What's more, one of my section mate got OOC (out of course) so easily... he didnt want to stay in sispec so he brought up his medical history... so he would be waiting for his new 8-5 posting most probably... Now that's depressing for me. So many times, i wanted to give up, not because it's tough, but because there's nothing for me to look forward to in SISPEC. i will excel if there's something that i am aiming for. but now, there's none. I'm just fighting hard to keep myself going and telling myself, time will pass quickly. That's not the way i want. I want to enjoy training...

its the first time that i actually cant stand a person because of his vulgarities. our CSM (coy sergeant major) is one aging ah beng you can find in spore. he dont address people by their names, if he's unhappy, u will be known as 'ccb' (not difficult to decipher that, i guess). That word has been so common that i can actually feel that there is such a person in the company. he rarely uses english as i feel that his cultural roots must be super deep and strong. dialect (hokkien) all day long. when he uses his phone, its always hokkien that i hear. F*** has lost its meaning to me... cos he loves to f*** everyone. he could just walk up to you and point his middle finger at your face and say 'FU' for the simplest reason. he even does it to the toilet bowls during inspection. maybe not the pointing part.
i wonder whether he believes in any religion... he loves to say 'g**-damn f***ing' at least once a day. i also feel that he may have some kind of fetish for the male organ... cos he kept using 'simi LJ', of course there are many kinds but i know for sure he's jealous of us as he maybe having problems keeping up. lol. whats worse, he thinks he's funny. he loves to make fun of ang-mo and our coy has two unfortunately. he also confessed he has a fetish for braces... maybe not guys in braces... now that's one weird man.

well kinda surprised when my buddy now in OCS told me he felt like crying... well i guess training to be a commander ain't easy. i know its hard for me cos i am a very emotional person and many times, my emotions will take control of me, that's why i am trying to keep myself to think positively.

Well, all is not lost.i should make a list to remind myself to stay happy...

1. Learning new weapons is interesting and so far i have done pretty well for the tests.

2. my section commander is super cool and affable, 2 weeks of miserable section movement should be fun now.

3. i'm on my 3rd week now... awaiting for 6th week.

4. Look forward to Labour day and Vesak day... long weekends.

5. Make more friends. Maybe get to know one person each day.

haha cant believe i'm doing this but it kinda helped me... a form of therapy?

today sunday, had to send my clothes for laundry service. so waited and began to observe people... couples with children kinda interesting... if they got one child, the child would most probably walking beside his/her dad while the mum will walk behind them (quite a big gap). 2 kids. one with each parent. son with mum, daughter with dad. Those without children would walk side by side. holding of hands would be for either very young couples or very old couples.

oh well, that's just some minority stuff i see, may not actually make sense. just feeling the sunday blues. a few hours more have to book in le. next 2 weeks, i wil be booking out on sunday morning and booking in on sunday night. hows that sound?


Confucianism:

"Tse-kung asked, 'Is there one word that can serve as a principle of conduct for life?' Confucius replied, 'It is the word 'shu' -- reciprocity. Do not impose on others what you yourself do not desire.'" Doctrine of the Mean 13.3

..:: 306. The One With NTU Admission ::..

Hey guys, if you are reading this, i hope you can do me a small favour by filling up this appraisal for my university admission.

http://www.ntu.edu.sg/oad2/pdfs/appraisal_cata.pdf

Important details:

Application number: A00008098
Name of applicant: Chen Xing Tian John
NRIC: S8604887F
Contact Number: 97629132
Applying for: discretionary criteria only

As i will be in camp so i couldnt post all your appraisals, i feel bad having u guys posting the appraisals...

thanks a lot. owe u guys a treat.

..:: 305. The One With 1st Week in SISPEC ::..

21 March, i reported to pasir ris interchange on a sunny monday morning, waiting for the similar SMRT bus that would bring me to the dreaded ferry terminal. The night before, i went to ask my senior to find out more about SISPEC to put my mind at ease.

In the fast craft, i was praying fervently that i wont get into Echo or Foxtrot, two of the most siong company in SISPEC. The more relax ones are bravo, delta (super welfare!) and golf (got female officer).

When we reached the stadium, we were told to search for our names on the list and our corresponding company... one of my unpopular platoon mates got into bravo and the moment i saw him clenching his fist and mouthing 'yes!', i knew he was not in E or F coy. i scanned my name... deep inside i thot, this yr has been quite screwed up for me, got into siong Mohawk coy, then horrible detail for sitest and now in SISPEC, what could be worse?

I saw 'E' beside my name, i almost fainted.

Before we left, we were reminded by the instructors,
'those who got E or F, you are ensured of really fresh air and you will be very fit after BSLC (basic section leader course)...'

No prize for guessing what is installed for us.

Echo has been renowned for their top discipline level and for the recent years, they have been producing the school best student. We got there within the first hour, we got screwed already, hearing more vulgarities than in BMT.

The first person that impressed me and got my attention was my platoon commander (PC) who is a 2WO. He didnt have his beret with him so i thought he maybe from infantry. Hell no, until i saw him with his maroon beret, i was pleasantly surprised. A commando. Before the training started, everyone has laid their expectations and rules. from section commanders to platoon sergeant to PC to CSM and even Officer Commanding (OC)who was another commando too...

talk about our CSM coy sergeant major, i think he can rap using vulgarities. one sentence, the vulgarities more than the noun, verb or even article.

make everyone cut the same hairstyle called 3 by 1 which is actually a patch of hair on top of the head, the rest shave. we look exactly like him, cock face.

One good thing was that we do not need to sing while we march. yes we still have to march just like recruits in BMTC, no difference.

Everything was such a rush. We learnt a new weapon (cannot be disclosed) in the morning and had a theory and practical test in the afternoon. The next day, another weapon. Today we just sat for an impromptu test, though open book, we had to search through 200+ pages to get answers.

My idiotic friend had to msg me at night that he was at home slacking, nothing to do. he got a 8-5 vocation. Now, he is teasing me about going SISPEC to suffer when he actually hope to be a commander but now a man.

we had peer appraisal by the 3rd day! how crazy is that? We havent got to know our section mates well enough...

Awaiting for 6th week...

..:: 304. The One With A No-Go ::..

oh well, kinda expected my sentosa trip is cancelled. Sian.

..:: 303. The One With My fucked-up MSN ::..

kena some kind of virus, so if u guys receive some weird files from me, sorry about that. i cant control it, the window just keeps popping up and send viruses to every contact of mine. but strangely if i delete my history folder, it doesnt happen...

anyway just heard from my senior, camo cream will be my buddy... camo all day long.

haiz. to think i'm already fugly... need to equip myself with facial stuff.BAH!

..:: 302. The One With Music To Suit Your Mood ::..

If you are heartbroken from a relationship, brace up to:
Since You've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson

If you met your ex and still have feelings for that person, listen to:
Truth Is by Fantasia Barrino

If two people fall in love with the same person, hear this out:
Yuan Dian by Stephanie Sun and Tanya Chua

If you want more attention from your other half, play this:
Ta Hai Shi Bu Dong by S.H.E

If you dont feel like going home, go with:
Nobody's Home by Avril Lavigne

If you are feeling high, go crazy with:
Do Somethin' by Britney Spears

If you are feeling lame, chant this:
Sweat (A la la la la long) by Inner Circle

If you are angry at someone who did something to you, hum to:
Karma by Alicia Keys

If you are feeling what i am feeling, drown yourself in:
Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day

..:: 301. The One With Posting ::..

here goes...

Comd SAF BMTC congratulates you for your successful completion of the BMT.

Your Posting Order is listed below:

1. You are posted to SISPEC.
2. Your vocation is INFANTRY LEADER.
3. Your are to report to: Pasir Ris Bus Interchange.
Reporting Date/Time: 21/03/2005 at 0830 hrs.
Person to report to: Chief Clerk
Contact Number: 65467067
You are required to report in smart no.4 uniform (PES E recruits to be in No 3 uniform), except for those assigned to Police Force.
4. Special Instruction: Bring complete SAF issued items. Take SMRT Bus at Pasir Ris at 0830, Fast Craft at SFT at 0845


Oh well, Infantry leader sounds nice... at least i think a lot of pple going SISPEC so wont be that sian. i hope i get a really fun platoon and buddy. At least next time i can book-in in civilian attire. haiz, 2005 is definitely not my year. Firstly results, then this. mmm... i need to be more at peace with myself.

hopefully sentosa tml with my platoon mates better be an enjoyable one...

..:: 300. The One With Random Thots ::..

tried logging in miw website for my posting but failed several times... damn fed up tried for like 2 hrs liao. kept receiving my friends' smses, quite a lot got into MAN and interesting vocations like naval combat system operator, technician, military police, office hrs job. thinking back, ocs seems far for me, wasnt garang enuff. worse, i got chance to perform after peer appraisal. aiya, shld stop grumbling and accept the fact i going back to tekong for a wonderful vocation called SISPEC. i still feel its low class, yucks. back to that later...

watched mtv: ask yesterday and found that alicia keys is actually a very nice person. always thought she is the 'dao' kind like faye wong. Instead she gave her most honest, personal and detailed answers to her fans' questions unlike avril lavigne who gave like a less-than-10-word answer to every question.

Health Bytes: eat more curry guys! the curcumin in tumeric can prevent Alzheimer's Disease. curcumin is the part of tumeric (a spice) its distinct yellow colour.

TV Bytes: Have you watch the recent Amazing Race? Its the 7th season and this promises to be the best season. Why? Survivor couple Rob and Amber is in the house. They have (actually is just Rob) so many tatics under their sleeves. Some may be so scheming that you wanna shout fuck u but yet you'll still love em' for their smart moves.

1. They always do research. Instead of taking the earliest bus available, they went to search for an express bus which leaves later but arrives earlier due to lesser stops.

2. They bribed the security officer not to reveal the information to other teams.

3. When they are at the front part of the bus, they paid the driver to open only the front door of the bus. This is crucial for catching a cab.

4. They get even with teams that found fault wif them. They stole a taxi from one of the team when they were in the hotel asking for directions.

5. When Rob cant finish eating 4 pounds of cow parts and had to suffer a 4hr handicap, he was smart enough to persuade other teams that they couldnt do it so in the end they too gave up and had to wait for 4 hrs. By that time, he was assured that he wont be eliminated. [best trick ever]

6. more to come...

back to my posting... still couldnt log in and my friend helped me check and told me its SISPEC... mmm... totally agree with

Suffer
In
Silence
Plus
Extra
Confinement

5 reasons why i should hate going SISPEC:

1. Angry with my performance
2. will be getting same rank as my commander who obviously cant give clear instructions
3. will be getting lower rank as my buddy who is 'louder' than me. does more chin ups. thats it. [ok, i sound like a sore loser]
4. vocation as a MAN is definitely more interesting
5. going back TEKONG... arghz!!!

5 reasons why i should like going SISPEC:

1. Its still a command school
2. Like my commander said, i still may cross over to OCS after 10 weeks
3. I cant think of any
4. I really cant think of any
5. I give up

now i feel like playing vball and whacking the ball... any1?

..:: 299. The One With Lion's Trail ::..

oh man. the trail ard changi was so... boring and waste of time. the tour guide was just repeating whatever i had learnt about japanese occupation...

2 take-aways from the trip:
Changi Village food is damn gd... nasi lemak, mutton soup, ipoh hor fun...
Selarang Camp... i got story to tell to my cadets next time i teach RCK...

oh, i got tempted to join the prisons career... firstly, its part of civil service. secondly, i get to work with people which is my type of work. thirdly, its a fulfilling career... mmm... thats provided i cant be a teacher first.

ok off to watch the repeat telecast of amazing race le...
tml busy day man. morning ktv, afternoon gym, night vball...
drink more water guys! i just got throat infection... sobs...

..:: 298. The One With Home Alone ::..

well, i was forced to stay at home now... so my chiong-ing days are almost over.

anyway, sat went to bendemeer sec for some red cross workshops, apparently the volunteers there were more than enough. Me being there only could eye-power even though i tried to help whenever i could. oh btw the new batch of instructors was pretty disciplined. i was shocked when they greeted me sir. i was just one rank higher only :(

then went for my platoon bbq at my platoon sergeant's condo. Saw a few of my platoon mates drove to the condo, i was so jealous... at the same time envied their cars. All the instructors came and prepared some food, there were liquor and lots of fruits courtesy of our health-conscious sgt peter. we had fun calling them juz by their names though, cos no confinement for calling that:]

then my section mates played dare-or-dare. had to pinch my officer and my PS's butt! kinda childish la but seeing the instructors smiling, i bet they must have enjoyed it. lol.

Sentosa was more packed than any other sundays cos today they had some 'family day' activities. Wanted to go ntu but no one wanted to accompany me...

oh was surfing ard and saw photographs of my sk red cross cadets. I must say they have grown up so much... cant wait to go back one day to see them. from being blur cadets to what they are now, i'm so proud of them. even though they dont have much guidance, they still remained united.

..:: 297. The One With Piazza ::..

mmm... realised quite a lot of people so must be careful of what i bitch...

oh must thank shannen, ee ling and angeline for giving me a shirt for my birthday

as usual, bitch a lot during dinner but today got special guest! OMG. i was dumbfounded... shannen has found her match! at some point i was already -_- but it was interesting to see people argue.

My appetite is back!

i'm back to my normal life le... red cross on sat and bbq at night.
mmm... i think my parents gonna throw my bed out. soon.

..:: 296. The One With POP ::..

yeah finally POP... now for the flashback...

dreaded going back to camp cos everyone will be talking about nothing except results. my bunk only 3 guys didnt get As but the more i hear from other platoons the lesser the chance i am going into university. well heck. ok ya, one of my infamous bunk mate got A1 for his GP. He was commenting how bad my english was when reading my autobiography. Anyway i meant it to be a casual writing just like in blog or msn. So if any of you guys reading my blog now, please beware.

the final SOC evaluation was on monday and i thought i would fail my low rope obstacle. but alas, i passed it with a pretty good timing of 9:31. fastest in my section and second fastest in my platoon. surprisingly i did better than my other 2 section mates who were, wah, damn fit. My buddy said i could do better because i can run and he's not good in running. Conclusion: Talk so much in the end i still win him in SOC no matter what.

Then came the most dreaded event: 24km route march. We started at 1500 and ended at 2356. Had to wear my parade boots which were not seasoned cos i left my other boots at home. Same old abrasions at the thighs but still i cant believe i had done it.

Packing to go home was hard. I didnt bring any stuff home during the last book out so i got lots to carry. threw away a lot of stuff though :(

9th March. My mum put on my jockey cap for me and some of my army friends drooled at my sis which i thought they might be blind. :P

Felt elated that i do not need to go back to tekong for any re-test. whole company only about 30 do not need to come back cos many have to re-do their SOC.

was pretty angry the day before POP... had a debrief session with my section commander. He was evaluating each of us in the section and he said i probably go SISPEC!!! arghz. whats worse, 'you still can have the chance to go OCS even if you get posted to SISPEC'. though i find it hard to accept but if i cant make it to OCS, i guess it must be my peer appraisal. The peer appraisal was done before i was made the platoon IC so didnt have much chance to perform. somemore i not the kind who wayang so not many took notice. Well, but my platoon sergeant said i got the chance to go OCS so i still keep my fingers crossed. My buddy, bloody hell, while queuing for dinner, was telling me 'aiya, dun be so mad. I'll may see you here when u come back as a specialist'. wah i was fuming, deep inside i was thinking, 'you think you confirm can go OCS big deal ar? ' Actually leadership skills, i dare say he havent proved that he is better than me. His relationship with platoon definitely better than me cos i have this habit of being selective with people i talk to. Thats my biggest drawback. IPPT i think i can only win in 2.4km and definitely SOC. Running is no doubt most important thing in army. i hope they focus more on running and endurance :] and those military skills, like technical handling, first aid, marksmanship, camouflage, drawing of range card, i am slightly better.

anyway the criteria to go OCS are getting so incoherent just like choosing the platoon best. my platoon best cant work with his own platoon and almost the whole platoon hated him. Seeing a few who are confirmed going OCS, i wondered what they are looking for in OCS. Someone who got screwed by an officer for not being able to account for his men? Someone who leads passively? Someone who is well-liked by his platoon?

Anyway, i am just happy that i had done my best in BMT. Especially when a few of the sergeants had given me their trust and support. I was given the right to pump recruits... :P

oh yeah, i got my ipod shuffle. its really cool but apple really know how to earn money. i had to buy the usb charger for 54 bucks... arghz. ipod shuffle had an internal battery that is non-replaceable. but still its sleek and cool :] quality gd. i can shuffle or un-shuffle the songs. :]

..:: 295. The One With Results ::..

Oh well, the day i dreaded came. i was fully prepared... totally didnt think of it at all as you can see from my last few entries. I was hoping i pass my maths and i am happy.

things werent that simple after all...

i got the luxury to rot my time off cos results are out at 230pm. so i have to trouble poor joan, smsing her cos i was idling ard. Waiting for my friend so we can go lunch.

Our batch did better than the previous and whats more, the previous batch had the best results like in 20 yrs... what more to say? mickey mouse was grinning all the way (if u noe who i'm talking abt)

Looking at the list of distinctions, i realised dun haf any names from my class... i began to worry and panic...

my pd tutor had to 'dao' me before i get my results... some students from other class had to cut in and thank him for his guidance and blah blah blah. i had to freeze and wait in horror.

when i saw my result slip, i saw the first grade and it was maths. mmm... something i wish to see but definitely something not i hoped for. confusing huh? nvm. i saw my GP grade i almost jumped for joy. i got B3. u may say 'chey' but to a person who failed GP most of the time and with comments from my pd-cum-gp tutor 'what the hell have you been doing for the past 2 yrs?' 'i think you seriously need to buck up if not you will fail A lvl'... With that dont u think getting b3 is like a feat to me?

But overall, i didnt do as well. kinda expected cos my prelim was trashy... got E8 for GP somemore failed overall. ugliest report ever. i did what i could savage and i improved for all my subjects. My testimonial was kinda well written.

my plan: apply for uni courses and also retake as private.

If my admission is successful, i can always redraw and get refund for my A lvls.
I know myself i definitely can do better cos i wasted my J1 dreading on my wrong choice to change JC and wasted lots of time crying over spilled milk.

i have planned what i wanna do but somehow somewhere there are bound to have people who will ask me my results. i mean if they are concerned about me, i dont mind. But not all.

'hows your results?'
'har? how? what you gonna do next?'

insensitive tone. so what if i tell u what i'm gonna do? only invite more questions.

'hows your results?'
'what happened?'

so tempted to ans 'like dat lo'. 2 ways to ans. 1st is to say u screwed up. 2nd is to say you didnt put in enough effort. but whatever the reason, they can only feel bad for you.

for my case, it was a sad one. when i told my uncle the 2nd reason, he mocked at me. 'see i told you to put in effort, now i think you can go study chinese medicine'
*ouch* i am back in spore so i cant curse and swear. with that i broke down... had to call my closest friend and find some comfort.

Its not easy to find peace with yourself, telling yourself to take things postively. i wasnt that sad about my results and its not the end of the world. but irritating people have to come along and either make me feel worse or make me feel that i have disappointed them.

Why must people dwell about what had happened? For me, i know which areas i am weak in cos right before i went for my exams i knew i did not have time to fully comprehend them.

Finding a space to reflect on where to improve is definitely very hard especially these few days when everybody is so interested in how each other is doing.

Plus my pillar of support is not here, i hope i can last the 24km route march...

strange thing is that whats occupying my mind now is more of my posting after bmt.

oh must thank my sweet red cross senior cynthia who offered to tutor me maths cos she got like all As? lol.

..:: 294. The One With Platoon Best ::..

Friday morning went to whitesands to wait for my army buddies to book out cos i need to get the parade tickets and some stuff from my buddy. Saw a few of them face as dark as charcoal. i wondered what happened...

In the end, the sergeants announced the platoon best and platoon top 10 names. Some feel that the platoon best was not deserving cos the platoon cant work with him. Some find him wayang.(talk a lot action very little)

My buddy was platoon 2nd. Parents of platoon best get to sit at the grand stand so my buddy was a bit pissed cos it was one of the rare chance he could make his parents proud and i can fully understand.

One of my other friend was pissed cos not only he's not in the top 10 but a person who didnt perform much got into top 10. the more angry he was, the more amusing i found. i mean, IMO, you should know your own performance, how good your leadership and stuff... there's no need for such useless ranking to demean yourself. Just by looking at the top 10, i can comfortably say i can only look up to a few, those who really have leadership qualities and great personality, well liked by peers.

pple in top 10, there are those who got screwed by officers for not able to account for their men properly. those with muscles but lack of brain power, not spontaneous enough. those who are popular and well-liked (in limelight) but got no substance. those who only know how to shout at others, but not showing standard themselves.

Disclaimer: 'those' may be an overstatement. I may be referring to only one particular person.

With that, do u still think the top 10 stands? Not trying to console myself or what, but if you still have the logic and eyes to see, you will know it yourself, why let such lame ranking bother you?

There are also some blur cocks living in their own world, they would vote for people whom they see or hear a lot. In the end, they sure vote for those 'wayang' pple. I realised this when i chatted with a few of them and they are seriously so innocent that they dunno what is actually happening behind the scene.

Not being arrogant or what, but for those who know me well, based on my own leadership, those i can look up to with real leadership, i can count with one hand. :]

[ 293. The One With arghz.. fuck it. ]

its been such a long time... had a great time during my birthday book out. i was so glad i could hold back my confinement for one more week.

i think my BMT i haf experienced quite a lot. perhaps no guard duty... got confined because of stupid IMT misfiring. quite unfair, computers may not be 100% correct but no chance to argue. quite a few of us experienced rifle probs but heck it, at least 7 other pple confining wif me.

Range

oh, super sian when u are waiting for ur turn to shoot. initially thot live rounds were scary but after the first few, my ears got quite numb and its a lot easier to shoot compared to the 'arcade shooting'. first day shooting ended around 1230am.

2nd day even later... cos got night shooting test. we ended ard 1am +

wat made me angrier was that some M2 guys misfired during live range and they got only 1 confinement like us. live range VS arcade shooting.. how can they be equal...


Another thing that pissed me off was that they told us we were confined and not allowed to book out on fri night. so last minute but hey cant blame SAF... they have their own SOPs...

sat got some remedial training for those who failed IPPT.... thats the reason why we cant book out, cos we need to clock more than 22 hrs...

i wasnt tt sad cos tt week i was the platoon IC and i received feedback that i did a great job :] i think i might have surprised some and even the instructors... tt week very lucky for me... even though we were the last platoon to fall in but somehow i managed to make the platoon fall in the place the activity was going to be conducted and frm there i conducted water parade... sometimes have to OTOT drink up so pple wont noe we are the last... we came down last but in the end get to send arms first... aww.. i love myself. last time instructors have to rush the ICs... but for me, i kept going to the office and calling them. Caught a few of my sgts eating, sleeping in the office sia.I still think that red cross trained me well... compared to others who were from NPCC or NCC... no nid to say la. :] i'm now more motivated to train my cadets to be as polished.

280205, Mon

After getting confined, i had IPPT in the morning... i dreaded it cos i nvr passed. i trained hard on sat and slept thru'out sun to rest my muscles. The IPPT was kinda cool cos all were computerised... all with sensors and stuff... sit up u have a voice counting for u... and when i reached the chin up station i froze...

but when i pulled once, i got that feeling i could do it, wif my buddy cheering for me, i managed a 7. but had to minus one cos the instructor said i kicked. oh well i still passed! when i came down, i was elated cos i knew i had a chance to go command school... IPPT was my only hurdle. lucky me, i only decided to change my grip: from overgrasp to undergrasp... if not i think i still cant pull...

oh well... nuting much, had a very last min drill competition prelim round, only practised for 2 hrs and dun think got chance. today is games day. i spent the day at sick bay cos of sore eyes. the doc gave me and the rest of the 7 guys who got sore eyes attend C.

tml getting results and obviously i'm scared... watever it is, i will remain optimistic cos i have pple who support me :]

POP soon in like 5 days time?
hopefully i get posted to OCS...

[ 292. The One With My 8th Book Out ]

oh well. sun is coming, my holiday is ending, back to training.

today went for lunch with red cross friends. they said i look funny. mmm... maybe without my hair, my head looks smaller? went to china square the village. didnt know got such a place so similar to marche...

then finally went shopping spree... at wisma atria and taka. dunno what to buy so walk abt and see watever fancies me then i buy. saw quite a lot of pple and a few maggot recruits like me. bought a chain for my army buddy for his birthday. bought something for vdae too...

went to UK fun fair at woodlands. damn fun but ex.

haiz. sunday's gonna be boring... for the first time. mmm...

[ 291. The One With KBox Madness ]

.The Eve.

had a great dinner... lots of GOOD food like abalone, lobster, crab, scallop, sea cucumber, etc. even better than wat buddha jumps over the wall. forced to play mahjong wif my parents and my sis. absolutely no luck, never won once.

.Day 1.

just cant help but feel that CNY has lost its meaning... maybe long ago. today i went to visit my paternal relatives. maybe its the dialect. maybe its the generation gap. i find my sisters and i nothing to say to our relatives. as for the children of our relatives, we had nothing to say to each other. firstly they were either too young. If not, there were this two girls who were super hiao. You can see them touching up their make up or look into their cosmetic mirror every 5 mins. i think they kinda overdo their make-up. so thick that if i slap them, the powder would come off.

strangely all my relatives are 'strategically located'. i just need to travel from pasir ris to tampines. my maternal relatives are located at amk/bishan area.

after that, my sisters and i went to kbox. sang from 3-7pm. the bill came up to be 81 bucks!

haha. some1 so sweet accompany for dinner. orchard road was haunted that night. you can cross the roads without having to wait for the green light. it was a wonderful night. i wont beg for anything less! lol.

.Day 2.

this time i get to talk to my relatives cos i meet them often and they at least speak mandarin. managed to convince my stingy mum that a taxi ride is worth it from amk to bishan. end the day wif singing again. i'm addicted. enuff said.

it was a good night sleep. partly because of a $50 hongbao. partly shant disclosed.

.Day 3.

today the streets are empty again cos pple are either schooling or working. left NS guys like us wandering aimlessly.

high tea at some place wif my vball frenz.

vball game at night.

for now. adieu.

[ 290. The One With My 7th Book Out: An eventful week ]

so many happenings this week.

Sitest (situation test)
Live Grenade Throw
SOC (standard obstacle course)

Had to march 12km to the sitest, first time my feet felt numb. first day of the 3-day sitest, we had to learn basic knots and pick two skills that we want to learn.

there are:
medic (most shiong)
signaller (i chose this, cos its just radio comm)
navigator (another slack one)
demo
claymore
lawgunner
mine

i had the list of stations that we went through for the sitest. hee... i was IC for one of the mission and it was a success... first day i wasnt IC of any mission... we only succeed 2/6 missions. the second day we all 6 missions were successes :]
lucky there was a change in assessors...

as for hand grenade, it was once-in-a-lifetime experience... taking cover at the bay and hear the explosion and the vibration. shiok-ful.


safety ring twist
safety ring pull
safety pin out

grenade prepared and ready to throw, sir

hee... i'll never forget this :]

after the HG throw, came back for arms drill... sun is bloody hot and i almost fainted, so dehydrated... 10 mins break for a 2 hr footdrill session? all thanks to our sgt major. it was an interesting sight to see him shout at the sgts...

SOC... mmm... its like a military playground. not much problem... but its entertaining to watch others ...

[ 289. The One With My 6th Book Out: Fieldcamp Experience ]

had my 7 days of fieldcamp... only a few things i felt uncomfortable.

1. carry rifle, wear helmet and webbing for almost the whole day
2. dig a hole and shit (super unbearable when u are on the verge of letting go)
3. eating combat rations that smell like dog food
4. doing push ups and hold on to the position on a slope (blood rush to brain)
5. put on camo cream for 7 days (having break out)
6. Not changing clothes for 2-3 days
7. Not bathing for like 5 days! Only powder bath

oh ya, my range card drawing got a 'mohawk' grade which means very gd :] just like my camouflage. learnt quite a few stuff like:

1. fire movement (fire control order)
2. locating enemy fire
3. I.A Drill
4. Sniper Drill
5. Artillery Drill
6. Aircraft Drill
7. Leopard Crawl, Back Crawl, Baby Crawl
8. Battle Innoculation Course

mistakes:
1. fell into the drain cos too dark cant see... pai seh sia.
2. not bringing gloves. proning and digging of trench... my hands are badly damaged...

greatest luxury item:
wet tissue!

[ 288. The One With My Desired MP3 Player ]

haha... i wan my ipod shuffle!!! dying to get my hands on it... arghz. wont be in spore anytime now. :(

178 bucks for 512MB. if i'm not wrong.

[ 287. The One With My 5th Book Out]

booked out on thursday 1845. went to look for ipod shuffle but the taxi trip to orchard was in vain.

whole week training had been fun and slack. cos most of the time had to learn IFC (individual field craft) so not much PT. BCCT was shiong for the first time only. but seems like the instructor that we complained no longer teaching us. so nvr really did a lot of pumping... We learnt how to pitch basha tents and make barricades. a lot of pple got their magazine stolen... so we got wise and took it out and put in our webbing.

we had a camouflage test. and mine was the best! haha... they used code words like mohawk, leopard and delta. kinda obvious that mohawk was the best and delta meant cannot make it just by looking at the extent of the camouflage.

fieldcamp starting on sat. haiz. shiong 7 days, we have been pre-warned. powder bath for at least 5 days. disgusting combat rations for 5 days. goona have pimple outbreak soon, we have to put on camo cream for 7 days. washing off is damn hard.

my cough and flu finally ok le. ready for fieldcamp! bring it on. be back on fri :]

[ 286. The One With My 4th Book Out ]

i always dread the feeling when i have to book in. mon i having mood swing. It was the start of BMT. now anything they unhappy with us, they just have to ask us to knock it down or 'whole lot of you half left turn'. when there's nothing to do (muz get used to army's style of 'rush to wait, wait to rush', our PC (platoon commander) would ask us whether we want to do push-ups. not really a choice cos in the end still have to do. i being bunk IC also have to pump more during stand-by area.

but during our first BCCT (basic close combat training), we get to pump like crazy, do lots of jumping jacks like more than 100 same for gym training. the instructor got screwed, i think, for scolding us and misusing his authority. he was like asking 'are you all fuckers?' when nobody answered, he said, 'i tell u all, u all are.' but anyway we got all that because some didnt surrender hard objects in their uniforms. we have to shout at the top of our voice when we do the stunts or answering the instructor... plus all the singing at the route march, i have no more voice left. why all the shouting? cos we have to bne aggressive during close combat... mmm...

we had weapon presentation on tue... so i got my rifle. it can be a bad thing cos now almost everyday we have to draw arms and at night send arms. now every night we had very little admin time. by the time everything finished, we only had like 30 mins to bathe and do stuff.

we had our first aid test... was actually more fun if they accepted my way of doing stuff like CPR, evacuation. cos some of the methods they used not very correct. i used the recovery position, firstly they dunno wat it is, next they say i used wrong method. then for evacuation of injured soldiers, the casualty was too heavy so i used human stretcher, cos its the easiest when all the aiders had their full battle order on, where got strength to do fireman's lift. i realised something... after u haf done fireman's lift then how do we lower the casualty, the same way as we lift up? cos i had a bit of difficulty.

hee... sat came out when to have a great meal... having meals with loved ones.. especially good food... i could die for that man. :] well next book out is thur... fieldcamp coming... arghz...

[ 285. The One With My 3rd Book Out ]

okay i spent my wed-sat at sick bay... haiz. because of sore eyes. and its not because of my contacts... its due to sweat getting into my eyes... sick bay sucks only because of the meals. everyday porridge. (lucky i brought in my muesli bars) but the people there were very nice. listened to a lot of stories... pple from sispec, ocs and many other units. this year's white horse company is hawk. lol. interested to know more? hehe... medics at sick bay were cool.

i saw some of my friends at leopard coy.. haha neighbours... whats best? joel frm my class same coy as me... saw him at PT this evening... haha he's having his 'confinement' for 14 days while i'm out...

so many things to do... guys can start making black frame specs cos u nid it during bmt for those hu wear specs la. nid to cut hair cos i missed the $2 haircut session... sian. wanted to change fone but my pay coming on mon. *sticks out middle finger*

[ 284. The One With An Email ]

hee... pretty surprised to receive an email wif well-wishings from my ULP cadet... haha... if u are reading this, thx, i feel honoured to be your mentor too :] lets strive in 2005! cheers.

will be gg to beach road wif my army buddies... getting back my money.. cool... then later will be special programme... haha... this is my first few hours home... but i kept my promise that i spent more time wif my parents...

my next book out sadly is sat evening...

[ 283. The One With New Year, 2005 ]

after wed book out, my mum dragged me to go buy clothes... she's more enthu than i am to get new clothes... perhaps my aching neck and shoulder tts why i dun feel like gg out. then went to get my fone fixed at toa payoh... wah waited for more than 2.5 hrs... had to take a cab to rush down to play vball...

Thur. Went to get my neck and shoulder rubbed... only took 3 mins and 3 days of suffering were gone instantly. i broke out in cold sweat the moment the uncle lay his hands on me. then went to watch Kung Fu Hustle with my sis and mum... the show pretty lame but it was funny :] but definitely a wrong choice to watch wif my mum... then went for a red cross gathering... mmm... after that went to meet my friend :] fun.

today had wonderful breakfast and went to funny places... nice nap but was interrupted cos nid to go haf a spicy steamboat wif a few friends... hee... i wld never want to spend my first day of 2005 wif anyone else except ... lol...

more activities coming up ...

[ 282. The One With Second Book Out ]

Hee... i'm out sooner than expected... cos i reported sick. haiz. got sore eyes and aching neck and shoulders... got Attend C which is equals to MC and can book out earlier. Spent last nite at sick bay which happened to be one of the nicest place in tekong... made friends with the medics there. pretty cool i muz say for a medic's life.

be back soon...

mohawk warriors marching in as smart as they can be
we are from mohawk 1 mohawk company
the boys will shout the girls will scream as loud as they can be
we are from mohawk 1 mohawk company

mohawk 1, mohawk 1
we are from mohawk company...(x2)

the sun will rise the birds will sing for us for u and me
we are from mohawk 1 mohawk company
to lead, excel to overcome until we ORD
we are from mohawk 1 mohawk company

mohawk 1, mohawk 1
we are from mohawk company...(x2)

we pump, we run, we jump, we sing as loud as we can be
we are from mohawk 1 mohawk company
although we make a lot more noise than other companies
but in the end, we're proud to be in mohawk company

[ 281. The One With My First Book Out ]


Training to be soldiers
Fight for our land
Once in our life
Two years of our time

Have you ever wondered
Why must we serve
Because we love our land
And we want it to be free, to be free

Stand up
Be on your guard
Come on everybody
Do your part
Come on everybody
Give your soul and heart
Do it for our nation
Do it for our Singapore

Looking all around us
People everywhere
Children having fun
while we are holding guns

Have you ever wondered
Why must we serve
Because we love our land
And we want it to be free, to be free


More army stories coming up... for now let this botak boy enjoy civilian life :]

[ 280. The One With My Last Civilian Day b4 Enlistment ]

today was a 'rush-hour' day for me... as usual had to go pray early in the morning. got nagged by my aunt who brought me there cos she couldnt contact me as i have lost my fone. i lost it after supper after vball game. talk abt the game, first time playing no4 position. fun!

after praying had to rush to lavender to buy army stuff... spent abt 35 bucks. got discount from the auntie cos i always buy red cross camp stuff there. :]

then rushed to have lunch with my friend at jack's place. wanted to treat me but we had a friendly money fight. lol. it was a memorable lunch and ate like 2 hours. if only every meal like dat, i would have been the happiest guy and a fat one! btw the brownie sucked. to my friend: i dun bare grudges ok! lol

then rushed to the karaoke centre at bishan, joined weishan, shu hui, yuhui, yingsheng to sing like mad. first time singing karaoke, feels gd... but bad to hog the mike. hope i didnt spoil their ear drums.

then tried to rush to pasir ris cos my grandmother wanted to pass me something and money. then i remembered i need to get my SIM card cos if not even with new phone, i cant make a call. so i dropped at tampines and to my horror, no m1 shop so i had to take a cab and rush down to sengkang. it was already 9.15pm. i was so scared the shop might close. then when i finally got the card, i took cab again to pasir ris. and after that i was too tired so i took cab back home again. :(

altogether abt 15 bucks on cab. but gd thing is lots of pple gave me money...

ok now the i-miss-you list...


you

Red Cross... from senior instructors to VIP 04 to cadets...to angeline to ex staff like shannen and ee ling

My NatCamp cadets

vball frenz like andy, fukang, mike, warren, dennis, james and many others

to all who will be missing me.

i LOVE u guyS!!!!

Catch me botak soon

and Hello to TEKONG...

[ 279. The One With South District Camp ]

woke up early juz to make it for 12pm briefing but then in the end dun haf. felt so giddy maybe didnt sleep well. but lucky got Kat's febs tablets.

then in the afternoon awaiting the cadets, law sir shared wif me and the others abt his army days and gave me valuable survival tips and stuff to bring. it was indeed time well spent.

then managed to do abseiling, first time trying to climb down 3 stories at the campsite... revised my bowline knot.

so long nvr had a gd chat wif yu ching . glad that we are still at da same frequency. poor him... feel as lost as me.

america's next top model was yoanna... final 2 shld be shandi and yoanna. mercedes eeks.

then tue morning, woke up late as expected no time to take bus so i took a cab down to east coast park. wah $16.40. haha someone has to wake up alone.

the sch i was with had no motivation to win. lack of communication. no one was leading. simple map of popular locations like dhoby ghaut, city hall, bugis also dunno how to read. walked even slower than when i was doing recce. anyhow hum-tum the answer cos they nvr go briefing for the Quest. told them to manage their money wisely, in the end, $2 for lunch, they used 80 cents for cup noodles and $1.20 for Big Gulp at 7-11. some even ate into their transport fee... *faints*

i had to eat the same wif them except i nvr bought the drink cos every1 supposed to carry a water bottle with them. juz drink plain water la.

More stuff to buy: hangers of same colour. masking tape. wet tissue. ziplock bags.

so happy got pple buy dinner for me.

and i am finally 60KG!!!

[ 278. The One With A Blast ]

today woke up had to tell my mum i going for south district camp, she was like 'wat? u no nid to rest before going to army?'

haiz. i dun like to laze ard. so this morning went for the contact session of the volunteer instructor programme...

haiz i guess i was a bit edgy abt the white pants yesterday... oops talking abt it, i forgot to return edwin's pants!

talking to the new batch of trainees abt my experiences is pretty fun i guess... they looked excited :]

and one of the trainees also called john... mmm... next time when the instructors scolded that john, haha wonder if they would laugh...

then went to SPANS for vball matches... pretty exciting. too bad they didnt give out the oscars best acting awards sia... its damn tough to try to lose a game. especially when pple love to laugh after they supposedly missed a shot.

marina steamboat super fun too... lots and lots of photo taking... then went into arcade and play too... super crappy mood. oh muz thank a group of you guys who bought the wind breaker for me... thanks a lot.. so touched... :]

i miss u today...

[ 277. The One With 10Q ]

lol muz thank a few pple who listen to my woes and gave me advice...

my bitch partner, shanZ !
shannen
you

talking to myself. so happy to know the status question. hee... :]

[ 276. The One With Fed-Up ]

weird pple part 2. shanZ and yingsheng! i think i was right about something...

i waited whole night for a sms cos i nid to get back my white pants from a cadet for tml's event! now dun haf... arghz. tml is white top white bottom. i haf no choice but to appear in jeans. serves me right for asking so late and assuming efficiency

oh ya back to weird pple, yest at orchard i saw a guy who's a drag... eww... he got at least 2m with the high-heel shoes... plain gay.

oh well. tml besides popping by volunteer instructor programme in an obviously wrong attire, i'm going for vball competition! haiz, know abt dinner @ marina wif my fellow frenz but hopefully the matches end early. wonder if i have the appetite.

does it take longer to type an sms or blog?
i chose the latter, but it seems i am stupid to choose that.

[ 275. The One With Mad World by Alex Parks ]

lol. the song is nice but more imptly, there are weird pple ard! there's this 13yo girl from jurong pri added me in msn... and she wanted me to gif her my number???

speechless

[ 274. The One With Home Alone ]

oh wells, finally home. feels kinda weird. past week been a blast. after 3 hrs of tan on fri, i finally have tann-lines. lol. somemore no sun burn. :]

Now busy trying to get tips from seniors what other stuff i shld be bringing other than the standard pack list... so far, cd player, black permanent marker, black insulation tape... mmm... what else?

juz received letters from navy and air force... pretty interested in navy but heard from those who signed on with the army in general... most haf negative comments and advised me not to sign on... i wonder the bond last for how long... getting $1900 per mth and study allowances sounds good...

went for recce for South Quest, am i getting old? cos the rest of the guys walked so fast... oh yeah cant wait for South District Camp, dunno who else i would see... busy week again :]

late . i hope its a gd thing... but i feel bad.

[ 273. The One With Feeling High ]

oh, yesterday was pretty high and hyped up because of campfire and other stuff :]

memorable

i think its been so long since i attended a campfire so felt kinda weird at first... feeling a bit sian seeing them setting up campfire... cos everytime set up campfire, so might feel a bit sian, nothing new...

yesterday before campfire, went to watch Without A Paddle with my some of my Nat Camp cadets. Supposed to be a comedy but dun think i even laugh... mmm... lucky its 6.50.

saw a lot of familiar faces at PS...

had a very gd nice sleep... finally a deep one...

morning woke up late... lol. had nice breakfast... saw my sec sch friend with another girl too... mmm...

on my way home... first a crazy man asking for $ to go home... early in the morning? i was thinking u got all the time now to walk to wherever u want in singapore lo... then there was a woman with big bottom (sorry) who sat beside me in the bus... gosh she took up more than half of the seat. i couldnt get up cos she kinda pressed on my hip bone and if i stood up i'm like a bit mean. so just kept quiet, hopefully she would alight early.

sun is good, gym sounds exciting and i have to hunt for my PS game... arghz... awaiting 6pm... a week has passed... a week later i'll be in tekong! muahaha...

[ 272. The One With Piazza & Singapore Idol ]

oh we went to this restaurant at orchard atrium... cos there got TV showing Singapore Idol... reached there super early and stood outside waited for like 45 mins... lol. then when we reached we had to ask the waiter whether they will be showing singapore idol and whether if we seat inside will we be able to hear.

ordered fish and chips and brownie with ice cream. and in the end they served the brownie first... a bit shocked la cos i thought that was supposed to be dessert. but apparently, i forgot to ask them to serve later... hee i thot it was understandable...

haiz i still prefer sly's version of the single... oh well, cant wait to see the sales of taufik's album... today's biggest winner is the telecom operating centre... 3 million votes... teenagers have to work doubly hard to earn back the money they spent on voting... btw dick lee's composition was damn hilarious! shannen and satu kosong busy distracting angie from watching sly... table was almost flipped too. fun times...

and american idol starting in jan!!! but too bad i'm in tekong le...
haha. cant wait for shannen to sell the membership at tekong. lolx. sure lots of guys want her number...

for the kick, i voted for sly only once and this shannen has to play a trick on the confirmation msg which apparently was delayed due to overwhelming incoming of messages...

thank you for voting for sly. he's going to lose! YEAH

Also, didnt expect warren to miss me... haha. after so long nvr go down for vball... i bet he gonna tag he wasnt missing me... :P

Haiz... so sad my friend had to wait for an hour for me... felt so bad... shall make it up :]

i got my new residential phone number le... more chatlines available!

today camp was kinda sian at first cos the cadets i think slack too much... but after some fine tuning... they are better... maybe too small an unit so the camp dont have much impact. but 3 NCOs planning for the camp only, i think its quite a gd camp :]

[ 271. The One With Slacking Day ]

today's the first time i used up the 4 rides/per day of my concession pass... went to PS but the shop haven open due to stock taking... so i headed to lavender to buy some army tee, short and towel. they're comfortable to wear and cheaper than my sch PE attire! but then if drenched in sweat, its a different story.

then shop at PS before slacking at HQ to see what i could help...

early afternoon went to make my ATM card... lol. and today my first time drawing $. really can get addicted... many pple will think its weird not to have an ATM card, but for me when i need $, i wld ask my parents for it, so there wasnt a need for the card. now its different, i gg army to be a grown man. Image wise, i also morphed from a billabong wallet to a leather wallet :] all thanks to dennis laughing at me say i 18 already still carry tt kind of wallet. hey got sentimental value one ok...

then at PS had a shopping spree. bought lots of stuff... haiz every1 so busy, msg so many pple to watch movie with me but cant find. i saw my hc senior, chek wun and one of the j2 dance society member. bought some stuff for my friend also...

went to HQ saw a few familiar faces... annie the grumpy receptionist. rita, khai, angeline, doreen, cynthia, jorin, mizael, edwin, poh boon, ching huey, ambrose and i also helping out for SouthQuest, a heritage trail game... yeah. cant wait to roam abt under the sun. better be hot sun...

It's time to get down to serious business...
hee... punggol red cross camp, here i come...
thur watching shutter again with my National Camp cadets.

Now SpinninG: Rumors by Lindsay Lohan

[ 270. The One With Flute ]

well didnt know flute sound so nice until my friend played a few pieces for me... so zai until can play without scores... juz hear the song for a few times and can start playing... *jaw-dropping* well wat can i say, talented lo. :X

[ 269. The One With A Bad Gym Day ]

went to gym today but so crowded and most machines broke down. sianz... but had a great dinner @ the hawker centre... noodles, chiu kuay, stingray... yeah, today america's next top model. juz found out an interesting idea my friend had for stay- over... mmm...

[ 268. The One With Home-made Dinner ]

Sentosa was fun when we managed to thrash 5 army guys... but it rained most of the time...

then had a special home-made dinner... did shopping in the supermarkets... baked some cookies :]

what a way to start a semester...

[ 267. The One With Well-Wishings ]

lol. forgot to blog abt it. haha a few frenz shared my joy after exams... first two on my list were my dear friend, then its my dear BP, shanz

then there's warren with 'Congrats lo. Can go hiao liao'
Shannen with her clubbing tips. lol.
Zach with 'Yah... 2 yrs worth of work finish in a matter of days. Go n let loose n hv fun lor. hehe. Njoy!'
Xuan with 'Haha... good for u...Take care k'
Wilson with 'Congrats and many celebration :}'
Angeline with 'Oh congrats! happy gallivating before you get enlisted. ______ sure miss you! haha' Disclaimer: Name shall not be revealed.

Juz a curious question: Any1 interested to go with me for a workshop on Schizophrenia? Its on 4 dec from 1-5pm. free entry. haha. i'm intrigued by such mental disorders.

Recommended Song: Love's Divine by Seal

[ 266. The One With An Interesting Saturday ]

Today wanted a traditional breakfast at Ya Kun Kaya Toast... The company... the food... *sweet* Then went to Novena to explore Novena Square and United Square. So engrossed in talking that we missed a stop. Saw my classmate Reena at Novena Square and one of the PE teachers, Mr Arthur Lim at United Square, what are the chances?

Time flies and the next minute i was at the swimming pool. the sun was gd today... but sad that the sun tml at sentosa wont be as good... felt kinda bad couldnt go for the briefing but i guess i nid to enjoy some civilian life... only 2 pathetic weeks left.

juz received a letter from NUS and saw an array of talks scheduled... still thinking whether i should go... if i go, who should i find to go with me... i hope my maths wont disappoint me... *prays*

juz got to know i was freed from one of my red cross activities cos my help was not needed... *puzzled* i thot for help, its the more the merrier? oh well, nvm then i can have more time for punggol camp.

get well soon

my sore throat's killing me...

[ 265. The One With Sleeping Beauty ]

Yesterday lie on bed for more than 12 hours and i still feel a bit tired... muz be the vodka yesterday night... having sore throat. arghz... but it was a super cosy sleep... :]

when will i hear the 3 magical words?

how many times can u find surprises over the bridge? I managed one.

back to slumber again...

[ 264. The One With Happy Hours ]

today is a happy day :] went checkpoint makan noodles... green bean cake... bought my peppermint shower foam.
wish time could stop but a lvl bio mcq paper has to spoil the day.
its been a long time since i smiled...

[ 263. The One With Plans ]

yeah finally my parents agree to let me have an ATM card... so now i no need to ask them for money at least verbally... Cos they say next time when i go army and i need money, i can just redraw, its easier. couldnt agree more...

my mum also agreed to buy me a new hp once she gets her pay... for my efforts studying for A lvls. although not much effort, but i am so glad she's so supportive. I still remember i had a mood swing before my GP paper, was feeling super depressed, no mood to study. My mum told me to just try my best, enough to get to the university, its gd enough. oh, i felt so relieved and tt really motivated me.

Wants
leather wallet
vball court shoes
britney's new dance videos vcd

Schedule
25/11: lose myself
26/11: clubbing @ chinablack
27/11: sentosa
28/11: KTV (So touched... my frenz organised for me as a farewell cos i gg army)
1-3/12: punggol red cross camp

the rest of the free time would be gymming and swimming... Still on my list are movies, ice skating, tour of nightlife

today went swimming... even got a bit of drizzling still cant dampen my mood sia ... haha. i'm so happy :]

recommmended song: Kiss From A Rose by Seal

[ 262. The One With 1 last paper ]

ok. bio paper 3 was a bit crap. same thing the topics i spent time studying at the vball courts didnt come out. the essays that came out were kinda crap also. nothing tt require massive memorising... all the human reproductive system... hormones... menstruation... pregnancy... birth... flowering... plant sexual reproduction system... artifical propagation... control of plant hormones... thyroxine ... all NOT in essays! arghz...

hee... so happy... i've found the answer to my burning desire... haha jf thanks for the fire extinguisher... oh btw happy belated birthday shanZ
pls slap me if u see me :(

[ 261. The One With Burning Truth ]

There is something i need to tell someone... but i dun think its the time yet. Juz like anyone else, i worry of the consequences of saying it out. should i? i am so vexed. before i get that 'mutual' feeling, i juz i shall let myself burn :]

[ 260. The One With Sian-sation ]

oh well. morning wasnt sian at sentosa. saw a few red cross cadets (cedar and victoria) but dunno they got outing or wat. vball games there were alright i guess, with the hot sun is always fun.

but i injured my neck... sian. feel uncomfortable and irritated...

then went to indoor court but nvr play la, as the usual crazy me i went to study. (can study there meh?) aiya every1's fave question... but at least i wont die of boredom studying at home. i can study with noise. and thot of going supper with my clique but haiz something happened so i had to take bus home.

dread that feeling man. muz admit, i am the kind of person whom i cant live happy without friends... i cant live w/o friends! so if u nid accompany, i can fly down even to jurong... but then today i had to travel alone home, wait for the bus for like 20+ mins, buy supper back and eat alone. on the bus? the cold and hungry me have to tolerate some indians who came on the bus and played a fool. with the tv mobile showing delicious food when i am dying of hunger. and so 'lucky' to meet a bus inspector at 11+pm. i wanted to have company for supper but no choice there were unforeseen circumstances...

haiz. too depressed to type liao, too sleepy to study. i'm so not myself today. and with the haunting thought that i didnt do well for my maths. haiz. 2 more papers. i can last but deep inside me, i feel sad. but who will know?

[ 259. The One With Shutter ]

oh well, went to watch the movie with my friend. hee.. had a great time :] thx ar, if ya reading this. PS to orchard to marina bay then back home.
erm, its kinda scary, but it would worth the 8.50 more if u are a girl. :X
some parts of the show i guessed it correctly... lol.
judging from the movies available now, i think its worth watching. unless u like the incredibles so much... lol.

shant reveal spoilers here. but i still think the forgotten rawks. haha...

but this happened during their shooting: (the actress relates...)

'Once, we were doing trial runs for this driving scene where Tun was at the wheel and I was supposed to be talking to him,' she says of the scene shot in an area notorious for car-accident fatalities.

'We were supposed to have three acting extras dressed as ghosts standing at intervals along the road. My cue to talk was when the car had passed the first one,' she continues in an eerie tone of voice.

'When we passed the first actor, I started talking but I did not see the other two who were supposed to be there.'

When the car stopped, she asked the directors where the other two extras were and was told that all three had been in another van doing make-up all along.

but the scene was not used eventually.

saying 'cheese' is scary

[ 258. The One With The Sick Me ]

woke up friday morning... puking like crazy. my paper (chem paper 1) was in the afternoon and i was so weak to walk to the bus stop... brought books but cant study. so lucky i read up the night b4. I was feeling sad cos none of my classmates came to ask if i was alright. i am not an attention seeker la but my face was really pale and i spent most of the waiting time resting my head on the table. haiz. so much for being classmates.

the feeling of wanting to vomit plus the headache took a toil on me. then my limbs started to feel numb... then i managed to finish the paper on time, lucky for me some questions were in the 10-yr series so i juz wrote the answer without having to think. first time i did my mcq paper so slowly. :(

most of my friends said it was difficult. well, i find it ok la. definitely there are a few new and difficult questions but perhaps i have seen a few in the TYS. well finally chem is over... now left bio...

after my paper, i went to see doc at amk polyclinic. haiz, it's still my sec sch frenz tt showed concern. saw me on the bus and asked whether i was ok...

[ 257. The One With No Maths for 2 Years! ]

wah. today's maths paper was tougher than paper 1. haiz. i guess my maths gone case liao. my friend still can say he completed it within 2 hrs and slept for a while and still got time to check. 0_0

today went to watch vball matches... ok la didnt impress me as much but i still wanna gif support to my frenz. lol. and saw someone who was interviewed in ch U show : streetwise. he is a vball player too...

yeah my division got chalet... going after my papers...

4 more papers...

Spinning: We Went As Far As We Felt Like by The Pussycat Dolls

[ 256. The One With My Friend's Masterpiece ]

what u guys think about this?

[ 255. The One With Jack Neo and Mark Lee ]

Anyone here finds both mark lee and jack neo unbearable? please raise ya hand... i noe i did. I was having dinner and the 8pm show started. wanted to switch channel but well my 16yo-cheena-simple minded sister whined and warned me not to change channel. i was like 'wtf', u are willing to waste 1 hr of ya life watching the so-called 7th season of homegrown variety show.

Does mediacorp have any quality control? The show gets pple who are celebrity look-alike and went all the way to hunt for them in malaysia. in the end? all the 3 today dont even look like jackie chan, faye wong, celine dion as they proclaimed. and whats with jack neo finding problems understanding who's celine dion? is he so ignorant or hard of hearing? and whats with mark lee saying 'oh no, she dont look like celine dion, she looks like lion dion' -_-...???

to think jack neo opening up classes for scriptwriting when i had to shake my head in disbelief while watching his new drama adapted from his low budget movie 'the best bet'. Also, at the same time mark lee getting best comedian is nothing but a big joke of the century.

ya, they may have movies that go all the way to malaysia, hong kong, or even china, but they dont appeal to me... nice try for trying to make it big but i heard from my taiwanese friend that they stopped showing shows by jack neo team there cos they found it too boring and unoriginal. i rest my case.

[ 254. The One With Less Pimples ]

less stress => less pimples

i got 6 days break before my maths paper and i had sadly slacked for 5 days. Muz eat chocolate tml again for the endorphin which will make me feel happy even if tml's paper gonna be hard.

lol. shanz said '... you looked terribly stressed up just now.' on the day i have bio and maths. and my friend andy had to say '... better practise your math hor!' thanks for all the concern.

yesterday was vball whole day. in the court came a 'vase'. why vase cos the person juz stand there and look pretty. lol. cos the person is new to the game so dunno how to play. atmosphere so tense and plus the few missed shots becos of the vase, its no wonder every1 started flaring... but i understand how he feels, cos i was one last time... but hey if u r keen and keep practising sure can improve...

selamat hari raya to all my muslim friends and happy holidays to all. cant wait for christmas to come :]

5 more papers to go and i'm glad major papers are over. :]

Spinning: Unbreak My Heart by Toni Braxton

[ 253. The One With The Forgotten ]

If there's one movie that u should not miss would definitely be The Forgotten . Finally quality shows are back. Very intriguing and remember to bring some frenz to watch so u can discuss what really happened... forget about the movie review giving bad comments cos i think the reviewer too lazy to find out the 'whys' in the show...

[ 252. The One With Lyrics ]

a very nice song...

Rie Fu- Life Is Like A Boat (ending theme of Bleach)

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves will guide you through another day

Tooku de iki o shiteru
Toome ni natta mitai
Kurayami ni omoeta kedo
Mekaku shisareteta dake

(I know we have so far to go
Within the connections I see
Thoughts of darkness, and so
I adjust my mask of serenity)

Inori o sasagete
Atarashii hi o matsu
Asayaka ni hikaru umi
Sono hate made e

(I offer up a prayer
And wait for a new day
In the brilliance of the shining sea
Until there is a shore)

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you will follow me and keep me strong

Hito no kokoro wa utsuri yuku
Mukedashitaku naru
Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de
Fune o tsureteku

(People go fishing in their hearts
And have become deceitful
Again a new cycle of the moon
Brings someone into my heart)

And every time I see your face
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars
And soon I can see the shore

Ah, I can see the shore?
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you and keep you strong

Tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku
Odayaka na hi mo
Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de
Fune o terashiasu

(Still, the journey continues on
Even on a gentle day
Again a new cycle of the moon
Sends a shine into my heart)

Inori o sasagete
Atarashii hi o matsu
Asayaka ni hikaru umi
Sono hate made e

(I offer up a prayer
And wait for a new day
In the brilliance of the shining sea
Until there is a shore)

And every time I see your face
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars
And soon I can see the shore

Unmei no mune o kogi
Nami wa tsuki kara tsugi e to
Watashitachi o osou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne
Dore mo suteki na tabi ne

(To the uncertain fate of the heart
The waves are stages of the moon
To us it seems as if
It's a wonderful journey
What a wonderful journey)

[ 251. The One With Random Thots ]

yesterday i finally learnt not to take technology for granted... have you tried to download msn installation pack? on an average broadband/cable, it takes less than a min... but i had the chance to download using a 56k modem. and it took me an agonising 45 mins. plus using a com less than pentium two, installing what i downloaded was even more excruciating. have you wondered has technology made you a worse person? i know it did to me, i become less patient even though i still can tolerate waiting for pple, but to tolerate slow speed,i would definitely feel edgy.

Also, something struck my mind... how many of us actually store our friends' numbers elsewhere like writing them down? i am the few that relied on technology too much, i was wondering if i lost my phone then what abt my contacts... ya, u may say i can go online and ask the numbers from my friends again, or send an email. but that's technology again. i have cases where i only have numbers of my friends but no idea how to find them online, no email, etc...

Furthermore, how many of us would actually exercise especially when there are no more PE lessons? Sometimes, a simple jog or a trip to gym is hardly on the minds of busy working class and students. I have friends who go gym three times a week to tone their physique. It is also a form of disclipline which i am going to commit after my A lvls. May seem too late but u've got to start somewhere. So guys, remember to exercise despite your busy schdeule. Actually even if you have tons of things to complete, a few hrs of exercise will make you more alert and more productive. Like for me, mon chem paper, sun i had a few hours of volleyball, but i was energised and definitely more alert on mon.

Recommended song: Rie Fu: Life Is Like A Boat

[ 250. The One With GCE (A) lvls ]

yeah. after so long i finally can take a breather and blog. shall start with GP paper ba on 4 Nov, Thursday . i think it proved to be quite a shocking paper, or rather both papers to some of the students. cos the topics to choose frm didnt really fit wat we have studied and planned for.

This year strangely has only 1 social question and only 2 questions on singapore.

1. To what extent are the young in Singapore favoured at the expense of the elderly?

2. Are the poor an inevitable feature of any society?

3. Do the past and present offer any guidance for the future?

4. 'How inventions and discoveries are used is not the concern of the scientist.' Do you agree?

5. 'People, not the government, should decide how to organise their lives.' Is this a fair comment?

6. How far is recycling the answer to the problem of waste?

7. Can small countries have a significant voice in world affairs?

8. Advertising encourages a desire for products which people do not actually need. Discuss.

9. Have multi-national businesses had a positive or negative impact on your society?

10. Discuss the appeal and value of fantasy stories and films.

11. Discuss the importance of religion in society today.

12. 'Far too much attention is given to beauty products and treatments.' Do you agree?

phew... so wat would u choose? lucky i had a lot of examples that geared towards qn 9 abt MNCs. i wasted 15 mins at first doing essay plan for the poverty question... then i changed so wasted quite some time... somemore i was sitting in the first row and the fan kept blowing in my direction. contacts so dry and burr... so cold.

lucky not many people do the same question as me...

well, just when we think paper 1 was hard, paper 2 even harder... Passage 1 about choices. Passage 2 about destiny... so philosophical type of passages.

'Alongside the increased prosperity which is gradually, but all too slowly, spreading across the world, has been a movement (arguably not unconnected with this increase) away from centralised, totalitarian forms of government towards democracies...'

What is the author trying to imply by 'arguably not unconnected with this increase'?

-_- most of the questions now asking what the author trying to mean, what contrast, contradiction they tried to show. the effort and skill to rephrase the idea with your own words are so different from O lvl where you can substitute word for word.

but overall, i think i fare better than my prelims :] so pray hard i can prove my GP tutor that he's wrong to fail me all these while. haha.

then it was chem paper on 8 Nov, Monday . The paper easier than prelim and i think i did quite ok. juz that the food chemistry was kinda tough cos i missed out studying the colour of meat. 3 marks gone :( praying for an A for chem...

then came today the most-headache day of my life. 9 Nov, Tuesday . Biology core paper in the morning from 8-10am and then maths paper 1 from 2-5pm.

oh, i was almost late today cos i missed the bus 86. so have to take 159 and have to walk a long distance cos the back gate wasnt open... holiday le still dun wan to open... i had to run quite far to the front gate. but there was this very kind lady who was driving and she stopped and lowered the window. 'Hey, you want me to give you a ride to your school?' i was stunned but nevertheless, the gesture really touched me. but i dun wan to trouble her so i thanked her and continue running. i felt so delighted and it really made my day. even though i reached school 5 mins b4 the paper, not having enough time to read my notes, i still felt quite good.

the paper was quite ez, there was no question that was too hard to answer. but the easier the paper, the more prone i am in making careless mistakes. lucky i didnt study so hard for bio, cos a lot of stuff didnt come out. but sad that i also didnt spend much time studying maths...

i went to have a volleyball game on sun, the day before my chem paper. lol. ya many would think i am crazy. but it really relieved stress for me... and last minute cramming no use, cos what i read at night never came out for exam...

then yesterday also went to play a bit wif my friend. started reading bio only like 8pm. lol. but i got all my notes ready so juz nid to read again.

maths paper was ok. supposedly an ez paper but as usual, my maths so lousy that even ez questions i also have problems. only paper 2 can save me. so now i have 6 days to practise.

i was so tired after bio, i had to take a nap and woke up like 12+ to study for maths. quite surprised i still able to survive the paper even though i didnt memorise much of the formula. mentally drained

now that half of the heavy papers are done with, i am more relaxed. so now shall take a short break and relax myself for such a hectic day today. who put biology and maths on the same day should be shot! those taking physics only have more time to prepare. cos physics is next week! :(

[ 249. The One With Yanzi's Cd ]

As usual the crazy me got up early in the morning ard 11am on 30/10 and rushed to compass point to see if yanzi's cd was out. but no. so dejectedly, i went to buy lunch and go home. then around 2, i going to meet my friend, so i went to check again, and saw a lot of pple left the shop, so i was grinning...

lol they haven got the time to unpack, a lot of customers queuing... and i got my CD... so happy but dunno why. i not tt crazy over her... perhaps cant wait to hear her cd? but first time i heard it was rather plain... but the more i listened to it, the better it got. :]

nothing much happen in my life except feeling jittery that GP is on thur... o level started today... these few days i did nothing but chemistry... haiz.

haha made new friends @ the vball games... juz realised some1 birthday same mth and same interests into gross stuff... :]

oh yeah, i got free incoming call all day... haha. u guys can call me le. but at moderation before nov 25. after that, u can call me all day i also dun mind. haha.
cant wait 27 days to A lvl completion.