..:: 326. The One With Inside Your Heaven ::..

Inside Your Heaven

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way


I'm off to brunei...

..:: 325. The One With CAC ::..

took a cab down to teochew building where this year's red cross youth current affairs competition was held. seriously why i prefer to organise an event is that i can keep myself busy. being a tabulator is like being a pack of frozen chicken in a fridge of KFC. Firstly the room was so hot initially as the air con would be switched on at 8am only. Shortly, the room felt like it was a freezer. Then, had to wait from 730 to 1000 before the first score sheet arrived. (just like chicken waiting to be cooked). Made full use of my ipod shuffle, helped to finish the food that the judges could not finish, watched scary movie 2 using someone's laptop.

wah... this year's committee got a small token of appreciation!!! Last year i dont have! lol. Ar... i also dun fancy having one either. just bitch for fun :X

Any juniors wanna take up as chairperson next year? seriously, i feel that we should let more juniors be involved in the planning or organising committee... For most events, the juniors played very minor roles. Mostly helpers... the seniors held on the impt roles so the question is when will they step down? probably when they are busy... but then again, many can say juniors take up minor roles to learn and gain experience before they are allowed to single-handedly take up postitions. True, but how long will it take? for someone like me who hungers to go all out and explore, i would most probably be disheartened having to be a helper for like more than 2/3 events.

thus i support new blood! When i organise events, i also have to experiment. Just like organising the amazing race for link cadets, i have never been a 'helper' in link activities before. Maybe i'm a weird person? i just love the kick of organising events, put some twist to them, see them happen and enjoy the sense of achievement and fruits of labour. That's the way to live my life man, a more meaningful one.

I got people asking me why i still go back to volunteer after i have graduated... It does not just end there. Volunteerism is something fulfilling and kinda like a life-long learning thing. It does not have a destination but just a journey where along the way you meet people who naturally will form your network and that's the way to be resourceful. *gosh* i'm starting to spill crap liao... too serious for my blog!

Must agree with shannen that some guys are really shallow... Some guys in the army would normally equate beauty = being thin. I cant imagine when they like a girl, she must first be thin? like 'what the hell'? I had a hard time trying to convince some of my friends that if i like a girl, size, looks definitely not the first priority. Someone who shares same chemistry, interests, talent that you appreciate... these i believe definitely more important than being thin, having nice slim legs. It's kinda frustrating when you have friends saying that your female friend is the 'big size' type and loves to eat... when she definitely has more substance.

anyway a few days ago, i was travelling home alone. Sometimes being alone is really nice, can do some reflection, observe people... After scanning through the young female sec school girls (i'm no pervert ok!), i realise that my sister being so hiao (reads: dress to impress?) was justifiable or at least it must have been a common disease. Looking on the bright side, my younger sis finally has fashion sense. lol. Whats with all the finger accessories? Lucky the girls have only ten fingers to play with... Denim skirts and jeans so common, they should change to leather someday 0_o. Sec school girls wear OP, Billabong... High sch girls upgrade to MNG, etc... My dear sis is obsessed with handbags! The other time i had to look for my ipod shuffle, i have to look through like 10+ of them. *faints*

Lucky my sis does not need some useless vapour to make her smell good, nor does she need to practise her art on her toe nails. If not i think when i give her monthly allowance, she will spend it within one day.

Something also freaked me out... Guys who wear super short shirt, the type that expose ya belly button. speak with a super 'teh' voice (reads: whiny). Most appropriate term pple would use would be: 'he's so gay'. but i cant be bothered to find out his orientation... lol. cos he's with his sworn sister! i mean a real girl... sisterhood!

this week i've been in-toxicated. at least i know i hate beer for sure. screwdriver tasted good, gulping down vodka+7up can give you brain freeze.

gotta pack my bag tml. got some great infantry friends sending us off tml. i finally found my shoes! 'dont phunk with my heart' is spinning in my head but chinablack seems to hate this song? 'we belong together' is my lullaby...

..:: 324. The One With Batman ::..

oh well, before i touch on the movie, had a kit inspection this morning back at camp. was pretty surprised my ex-buddy was late. mmm... he was still online at 4+ am so the obvious reason i could think of when he did not appear at the inspection was that he overslept. However, i was 'sala'. Apparently, he had lost his phone and spent time looking for it and making a police report. mmm... he told me that he got the driver to bring him ard the neighbourhood cos he realised he lost it when he was in the taxi. o_o

anyway interesting thing was while a group of us was at the bus stop, we found a handphone. Dunno why one of us passed to him and advised him to call back the owner and return the phone. Well, obviously that did not happen as according to him, the phone was spolit. er, spoilt? how come he still kept it with him? cant be bothered to pursue the matter...

Met calvin, alvin, melvin, samuel and jeremy at PS for the movie. half the time i was expecting batman to appear but it was about how the guy learnt to fight and acquire skills, customise his own 'costume', make his own vehicle. I always thought batman would be formed once a mutated bat bit the guy. lol. Comparatively, i still find mr and mrs smith nicer.

today also went for briefing for red cross current affairs competition. the venue looked like some exhibition at expo. mmm... tml i will be bz tabulating scores. lol.

ok thats all for now. still got a lot to say but gotta rest now. sun brunei trip :(

..:: 323. The One With Chinablack ::..

went chinablack with jeremy, samuel, melvin, jonathan, junasis, sizheng, daniel and steven . They have been a great crowd to be with cos they dare to dance. I broke my record, danced till they close. lol. Ladies' Nite and it was so bloody crowded! Platform was there but people were trying to dance there... arghz. they gotta try harder man. podium also, even the ladies up there couldnt strike a slightest sexy pose. The music was good only after like 2am. I swear next time i club i wont be going on wed and before 2am. Even though the girls there were not bad but the guys as usual would outnumber the girls. Cant dance yet stand in the way!

Oh btw, chanced upon my platoon mate's blog... lol. Reading this, i feel better. Can convince others that i'm not being bias, or picking on my ex-buddy...

"I learnt from this field camp tt u can really see a person's true colours n a team's bonding when times r trying...like my supposed "buddy"...whom i dun wish to condemn but hope he will learn from e field camp too..."

i was grinning when i read this :P

More stuff to bitch. stay tuned to my frequency guys.

..:: 322. The One With 23km Route March ::..

Crap. it wasnt 23km at all... definitely much more. started off at 2130 and ended at ard 0330. i was so freaking wet and down with abrasion that i could not sleep for the 2 hours of rest. however i was proud of my platoon, the only 1 singing at least at every 4km. Seriously, the wing has low wing integrity. Platoon 2 was the direct OCS enlistees while platoon 1 and 3 were the cross-overs. Initially, I was quite pissed having to be told over and over again to look up to pl 2 as examples. Yes, at the initial stages, we had to cos' they had spent 6 weeks more than we do in OCS. However, other stuff like leadership, fitness, i dont see we are anyway lower or worse than them. I have always associate them with being wayang. It means acting in front of instructors. Truly, during route marches, they never sing until when they are reaching the end point where all the instructors are there.

I must agree that Pl 2 cadets or rather some are really OCT. Only Can Talk. Some knew how to talk and make people move and do what they want. When there are no instructors like planning and setting up for Social Night, it was chaotic. Sometimes i wonder whether they know how to work with others. During my fieldcamp, we cross-overs were not taught how to do AOP and ops order, one pl 2 guy in our detail was showing that damn pissed off and frustrated face cos we were not able to speed the process up. In the end, he slept thru' out the preparation for the last mission cos the previous one he was appointed patrol leader and had been assessed.

Even up till the last day, there were still interesting events, like the 'number tag' incident, people not doing area cleaning... sometimes i really feel like going up to tell them to wake up. My ex-buddy had to take another guy's number tag when we had to return our stores and he lost his. How dumb can he be? Each of us has a specific number. Seriously, he got no integrity. He could just sit there and pretend nothing had happened when one of our section mates mentioned he could not find his number tag. I should have sounded off and embarrased him but i did not...

There will definitely people who got 1001 things to do and not to help out in area cleaning. Changing into book out attire when area cleaning was not completed. I wonder how they come to OCS?

Enough bitching. Now pictures wil tell you more. Sorry some pics my eyes were closed cos i was recovering from sore eyes and very sensitive to the flash...

My buddy, Sizheng and Me before the route march


Me and my Vice-Chair and the camera owner, Samuel


Me and Daryl, Sluts?


After 4km...


After 8km...


After 16km...


On the go for 20km...


After 20km...


After the senior bar presentation...


Platoon Pic when we reached wingline...


Me and my cool Section Instructor, LTA Vincent...


typical ocs bunk


parade square


brotherhood


everyday sleeping with my ipod shuffle


hearing double? I am john chen, he's jon chen. So you know how many heads will turn when you call john/jon chen. I was CPC and he was my CPS. Best buddies man.

..:: 321. The One With Brain-dead ::..

These two days only slept at 8am. By 2am i already felt like floating... yest wanted to go chinablack but changed to karaoke session thru'out the nite. As usual 5am supper/breakfast before we headed home.

Wed book out gonna club again. hopefully got more pple to go wif.

oh forgot to add... one of our officer proposed in front of everyone to his girl. gosh everyone was taken aback. but its kinda sweet... started of as a performance then got poems and stuff, suddenly he slowly walked over to her and kneel. *blessed*

stay tuned for more pix

..:: 320. The One With Foxtrot Social Nite ::..


Diana and Me



The Bytch Gang
From top,left: OCT Jeremy (PR Manager), OCT Samuel (Vice-Chair), OCT John (Chair), OCT Melvin (Honourary Advisor)



Part of Platoon One
NB: The roses form part of the crest of OCS. duh -_-



Part of Platoon One. Again.



Just the gals



Our Table. The Gentlemen and Their Dates

..:: 319. The One With Engineer ::..

Sun.Platoon live firing. As usual CAT 1, had to start later. Walking through the whole route for the attack, i almost died (of course i wasnt the only one). Somemore had to do it for four times! While we were doing our walk-the-ground, our wing comd said 'you all look very stone you know, run up and come down'. I looked at the steep slope, i felt an overwhelming sense of deja vu.

Mon. We got a nights off, only had to book in the next day at 1330. basically 7 of us went to cineleisure then PS just to get seats for Mr and Mrs Smith. The movie was great man, mrs smith was bitchy enough. lol. Even when we booked out, we are still using army terms like H-hour, crossing of danger area, link-up... -_-

Tue. We went for a 16km route march at 7pm. First time route march i got to march into NTU campus. It was an enjoyable march though we had like 25kg on us. We sang and sang and there was NTU buildings we could look at.

Wed. We learnt some close combat skills. The first ones were basic breakfalls. 'Oh my god' are the words to describe our feelings. We had to practically whack the ground hard to absorb the impact. During our stationary tries, we had to strike our forearms on the grass patch, like praying to god, kowtowing.

At night, i was elated when my name was called for an interview but most of us guessed its a combat engineer interview.

Thur. We learnt basic locks, kinda fun but my wrist was bad :( Then at night went for the 'interview' which turned out to be a 3-hr short tests. Do until my eyes also blurred.

Fri. Social night! Had a crappy dinner that was supposed to cost 45 bucks? Music also bad. Only the MC was good to sustain the show. My table rocked! All the bitches unite! Then went clubbing with jeremy, daniel, steven and zhi han. damn cool. went chinablack and i danced non stop from 3 till 5+. Somemore on the podium. high sia. Just came back like 7am? Gotta catch some sleep. later go chiong again! Heard my friends going again at nite -_-

More updates!

My wing got 8 cadets who took taxi up till medical centre which was illegal. When caught, one of them was stupid enough to say that he was from other wing. Wing comd was kinda pissed cos it involved integrity problem. Somemore that guy was going to be a doctor.

Yeah no longer in infantry. three more days to end of service term. No more SEOC which was bloody siong. but i kinda like siong stuff and stuff people have difficulties in doing cos my mental endurance is much higher than my physical one. No more platoon movement.

I am posted to combat engineers (80% sure). Whether which sub-vocation still a question, awaiting the results of the test...

..:: 318. The One With The Ultimate ::..

This whole week had been the toughest in my life.

Sun. booked in around 8+ to do my laundry and prepared for GPMG (general purpose machine gun) live firing. when we reached there, thunderstorm came. Nevertheless we still got the firing done. It was a nightmare for me at night. Got screwed by the instructor, somemore due to my buddy. In the day, i did not wait for the commander to give orders and i went to 'ready' my weapon. The instructor just warned me. In the night shoot, i waited for my buddy who was the commander to give orders. In the end he didnt give, hence i was shouted at for being blur. When my buddy was shooting, he had an IA in which the gun stopped firing. He assumed that his rounds had finished so he turned to the officer and told him he had finished shooting. I was his assistant and i saw that there were still rounds left so when i wanted to tell my buddy, the officer yelled at me again. It happened so fast and i was just stunned. my buddy is really a 1 x blur cock. more amusing stories about him...

Mon.Tue.had some chemical defence lessons. wore the suit and mask and it was freaking hot and stuffy. went into the smoke chamber... wah the thing they used in tear gas really powerful. all came out tearing... had to take out mask and answer questions... by the third question, i was already choking...

We also welcomed a few SISPEC crossovers. I took this chance to change bunk. Now i got a new buddy. However he was already a sergeant cos he was from ASLC (advanced section leader course, while the rest were from BSLC (basic ...). It was nice to hear from his experience, especially overseas training. Glad that my torment with my ex buddy was finally over! I got to sleep without lights on and no freaking alarm clock ringing at 5am when we are supposed to wake up at 0530. Everyday i had to switch off my ex buddy's alarm clock and in the end he woke up after me. damn pissed.

Wed.Start of my 7-day fieldcamp. My platoon started with Ex Spade.4 exercises to be completed within the 7 days. Ex Spade, Ex Zebra, Ex Skylark, Ex Nightbird. We started digging our 'coffin hole' at 7pm using a entrenching tool about the size slightly larger than a hammer. I finished mine like 9. Had to dig a fire trench up to chest level in buddy level. Started at 11pm and ended at 7am. In the morning when we had to assemble, we were made to run up and down the knoll for 4 times which was 85m and super steep. With all the load on us, my legs almost gave way by the 2nd day.

After digging our own trench, we had to dig alternate trenches for reinforcement troops. We had to dig command post big enough to put a table and at least 1.8m deep (considering the average height)

It was plain digging for 3 days. The other platoon started with Ex Zebra so they learnt about all the platoon attack formations. They 'attacked' us on the 3rd day. It was more fun and logical for them to combine the two camps in order for us to experience the elements of defence and offence. Our wing is the only one who combine both camps together. If not Ex Spade would be just digging and then at the 4th day, covering up.

Amidst all the digging, you can see the true colurs of your platoon mates. Some chose to be lazy, sleep and not dig. Even if they dig, they dun really put in effort. The challenge was to fight against fatigue and z monster. Endure all the sweat and mosquito bites.

Sat. We learnt about breeching... breaking into enemy's territory by overcoming their obstacles. My ex buddy had to be so blur and run to wrong postions twice! Everyone couldnt stop laughing. Ya we were mean... but it wasnt that hard to run into your position.

After the camp, everyone was damn shack. the bytch gang chilled at some1's hse and concuss the whole nite. Next morning was kbox and lunch. then went down to my sec school for red cross camp. kinda disappointed when i got there. saw the standards dropped so much. Had to step in and immediately i could see them improving. i guess the juniors really need guidance... Saw all my juniors who i had trained, graduated and came back to help. thats why i chose to come back and help cos its so fulfilling to see the cadets you have trained coming back to help with no obligations.

Time to plan what to do. staying at home not sleeping is sinful. still got to write 3 pages of reflections. darn.