16.06.04, Tuesday

ok finally get to blog after more so so long... IWC chairman keeps track on
my blog progress so muz write something. lol. i juz came back from 2 camps
and 1 counting. i look at the date and find myself less than 2 weeks to
study for my midyr. haiz.

well. lets go way back to my memorable ULP (unit leader prog) camp. I looked
forward to this for a very long time. firstly it was my first time being a
group mentor. but hey i think all the grp mentors did a very good job. i am
very honoured to get such a challenging group. lol. well i seen them improving
after the first AOP. i got many late nights or rather mornings cos i slept like
4 am the week before camp. But hey it was all worth it. At least i'm proud to
say my grp shows the most improvement. But it really feels gd when they address
u sir and look up to you. I can swear i almost break down when the camp ended.
Seeing each grp how grateful they are to their mentors and how they expressed
their gratitude really a heart warming scene. well many seniors will say u wont
feel this if u experience it a few more years. well, we shall see... What hurts
most actually when u are grading them... had to be impartial... i still amazed
at myself.

But i fell sick at day 2 after the pulau ubin rescue mission. Muz be my throat
infection recurring... cos i supposed to finish my medication. but the week before
the camp, i was caught up wif meetings and stuff, forgot to eat. lol. i was
38.4 when i took my temperature... tt time i was die die i also dun wanna go home.
Not tt i was selfish to pass the fever to other pple but i really cant bear to
leave the camp and more because of my group. I know they faced lots of prob during
the planning part, i hope i can give them support for the execution part. I knew
my effort paid off when i sat down talking to them during the campfire. Seeing
the campfire they spent so much time and teamwork to build burn so smoothly. i'm
very proud of them for coming so far... Especially when they came back from ECP,
tired and still cheering... they actually wished me 'get well soon, sir' ALOUD.
oh tt few words melted my heart and i sweared tt was the last time i took panadols.
cos after coming back from pulau ubin, every four hours i had to take pills.

In the camp i was quite happy wif my performance, especially i did something extra
lol. that is to teach the link teachers basic campcraft after knowing some teachers
were tough nuts to crack. But everything went very well... we had a very interactive
session and i was able to deliver my first OA lesson. But hey my real wish is to be
able to deliver a lesson during ULP, to teachers... many things i cannot do because
of my rank... sometimes i think back.. mmm... missing two batches of ACOC... though
i made lots of friends now... but it can get restrictive... and UG goes by rank. so
at times cant help but feel a little old but doing the same thing... well in the
meantime i shall explore more things and make myself more flexible and adaptable.
learn more stuff, they sure come in handy... shall explore more ways to set up
campfire... hopefully to be all rounder. :)

but i pretty proud of myself to fight and go on despite i was sick. gosh, still
rem i had fever and sore throat... and the first breakfast was french toast...i
believe all is in the mind. if your will power is strong, u can pull thru no matter
how sick u are. Muz thank a lot of pple for showing care and concern... especially
IWC chairperson... lol. We seek to serve *salute* but sad leh, didnt get to be DI...
haiz... dunno when will be the next time...

Well for ULP camp, shall end my comments here... gosh, i miss my grp... lol.
Delta rockS~ ULP... *hit chest x 2* AH!

01.06.04, Tuesday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

29.05.04, Saturday
ULP (unit leader prog) started... yeah i delta mentor and day 4 DI. mmm...
its gonna be interesting... haiz.. early in the morning, my left eye gave prob...
had to remove my left contact... eye so sore then i often had to close it. mmm...
was so afraid pple might say i fall asleep... diao. super uncomfortable. i left
my right contact on cos no specs. at least i can see better...

30.05.04, Sunday
stayed over night at campsite... cool.. went ard wif andy, louis, jianfu and
eng kee sirs. mmm... car ride so nice till i can fall asleep... lol.
i looked tired? actually no.. it was my left eye.. ouch... gotta rest my eyes
before i put on contacts for 4 consecutive days... ULP camp... no time to take
out then put back la.. i can hardly open my eyes when i wake up... lol.

31.05.04, Monday
today was my AO chn exam. first i was late... second forgot to check the dictionary
wif vanessa.. lol... haiz... think i wasted 30 bucks... lol. then went to hq... haiz
my grp, delta seriously cannot make it. haiz... tml AOP for rescue mission and they
are definitely not ready... tml meeting them 10am...

these two songs from tamyra gray.. kinda nice... from AMI...

I believe
Have you ever you ever reached a rainbow's end
And did you find your pot of gold
Ever catch a shooting star
Tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake
Cause the magic that surrounds you
Will lift you up and guide you on your way

I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
See I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally yeah

I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome any obstacle
Won't let this dream fall apart
See I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe yeah

I can see it in the stars up in the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally I believe
Yes I believe

Ohh Yeah

Love keeps liftin me higher
Liftin me higher
Love keeps liftin me higher
I said love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me
I said Love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me higher
Said love keeps liften me higher
I said love keeps liften me high

Raindrops Will Fall

There's a time 4 every star 2 shine
And a place 4 every dream 2 see the light
When u have everything
U don't need another reason 2b something

Hold on, and look to your faith
Can't let nobody, nobody get in your way

Chorus
I walked thru the fire
Fought thru the ragin storm
Til I found the peace
That's inside of me
I've got 2 b strong
I stand 4 my dreams
I was made 4 this moment
Take me as I am
Or nothin at all
I'll keep holdin on
Raindrops will fall

Hold on and look to your faith
Don't let nobody, nobody get in your way

Chorus

I was taught not 2 run away
Cuz raindrops will always fall on your face
When it seems like all hope is gone
Gotta get thru the storm
B4 you can see the dawn
This is all I am
This is all I know
And I won't never ever let go
No I won't let go

26.05.04, Wednesday ~ Hyped factor: 4/10

Haiz... today pay fat arse 2 bucks for not bringing tie.. cldnt find it. bio
test i took only less than a period to study... thot got 2 periods... in the
end study for little while then fell asleep in the library. bell rang, it was
my test liao. -_-. brudder said i pass i treat him -_- great. then got back my
maths paper...i think whole class only 4-5 failures... i contribute to the stats
tt our class percentage passes 70+... haiz.. worse is my class is 50+ distinction.
Wat the hell i am doing... -_- really angry wif myself... got slapped, kicked...
ok la all for the sake of fun. my link fun day almost done... went to eat prata.
thx for the 40 cents treat... and making me feel bad 'u really haf no $'... ouch.
i paid for something else k... :( hate days w/o $$... then towards the end... haiz.
nvm... i haf very strange feelings nowadays... dunno y... lol. dunno if its a 2-way
thing... but seriously. life's been different.

oh ya.. today american idol was like at first diana blew me away.. but then, it
became quite obvious tt fantasia will win... somemore she sang the finale song
tt was diana's opening song.. haiz... how can? open attack. tml getting back GP
paper.. hope i wont haf another attack...

seriously, i haf no mood for sch on fri. juz wish to spend it wif ... lol. myself?

25.05.04, Tuesday ~ Hyped factor: 10/10

lol. today happy day. mass civics listen to tang quartet.. which i love...
bio tut was kinda relaxing.. less bitching... fat arse here but kept kinda
quiet. watched video for GP.

then speech day training was arghz. but nvm. cadets love my FD session..
fun but gd.. haha... then went to CP for meeting.. OMG. they laugh till
the burger remains can come out from their noses... played wif food
and stuff... diao... yeah trade fone wif siyun.. kinda cool.

yup. today haf a great day. 10 wat u expect... i could have juz died today.
shack sia... so fun... oh ya. brudder and i share something weird...
lol... great minds think alike.. seriously... i think we are long lost bros...

Angels Brought Me Here
-dedicate to my brudder.. hu has been sad for quite some time.
sad to see him moody...
and to all, who needs comfort :)

It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
And walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams come true
When I found you
I found you
My miracle...

Chorus:

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know it would be clear
That angels brought me here

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreans came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle...

If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know it would be clear
That angels brought me here

Bridge:

They brought me here to be with you
I'll be forever greatful
Oh forever faithful
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

24.05.04, Monday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

I am still coughing and feeling sick. haiz... today the moment i heard my
pd tutor not in sch, i almost wanted to leave the sch... we were joking
ard like asking him ' u better produce MC, i wont accept parent's letter.'
lol. cos my pd tutor a bit like mummy's boy. we always tease him for getting
allowance frm his mum. lol.

today decided to run at 1.45pm. was coughing so bad even the bio tutor ask
me go toilet... last week of school... i'm awaiting for the hell-lidays to
come... this whole week got dance. arghz... HQ like becoming my second home..
settling link fun day stuff. catch up on gossip. teasing pple. today i learnt
the password to zap things. lol.

then went to watch shrek wif my brudder... kinda funny.. he was 'vibrating'
while laughing... hump. got a lot of cheesy lines and corny resemblence.
really happy these days... but come to think... my chn retest this coming mon.
and my As is like 5 months away... sianz... cant wait for july to come. i wanna
eat wif NYPians. lol. they are a butch of hard-rock suckers. lol.

23.05.04, Sunday ~ Hyped factor: 9/10

today started of having meeting.. had a lot of fun. and juz couldnt keep
laughing. and did something meaningful.. went to beach road and check
out all the prices and compare among the shops... so i know the prices
at beach road the best!! lol.. a lot of politics and backstabbing going
on.. all for the sake of lowering their prices and badmouthing pple. haiz

then at night wanted to watch shrek but only left front seats.. some1 says
not much to see... then ask 830pm? too late.. but in the end we still erm
ya... hang out so late.. but really today relive the daring acts... ya
i won! bleahz.

tml long day. nvr do work. but today was fun and worth it la. i am still
sick. gosh. hope every1 is fine n happy. find me if u r not, i shall make
u smile :)

21.05.04, Friday ~ Hyped factor:8/10

lol. now blogging at 3.22am. cool sia. today clarence was rather shocked. cos
i told him i came school for PE... specifically for volleyball... had a math
lect, chem tut, PE played for three periods then head for HQ le. had lunch wif
the rest... too bad ee ling nt there today. haiz. lol. then settled my link fun
day stuff... helped to type the unit leader programme nominal roll... only abt
54 cadets going... mmm... how come amkss nvr send pple? compassvale? nan chiau?
Then help to be human shredder... had office politics.. lol. wrestling in the office... shiok rite? brudder... did u get high? lol. and ya my oyster omelette
... -_-" dun understand ya rationale... not saying i inconsiderate... but then
... if u view it as helping a friend to order... so long i not cutting queue.
its ok wat. diao. sporeans are (quite) civilised. they wont curse and swear...
you didnt cut queue wat.. juz order another one ma... :(

'auntie, sorry i forgot.. 1 more plate of ... "
cos got 3 pple cooking diff stuff.. got one juz cook for omelette, diao again
-_-

but nvm... at least jorin's brownie saved the day... so nice.. yum... lol.

and ya done up a lot of stuff for rck... pretty happy wif myself... hehe... OA
also almost settled... mmm... i believe i got more time to study liao :)

later got college day. Ha. i on 3 day MC.bleahz
LD meeting here i come. lol. but before that got unit training at nine...

diaoz.

20.05.04, Thursday ~ Hyped factor: 7/10

Today went to see doc... got dunno wat infection. chim name.
medicine cost a bomb, but the doctor rocks.. gave me 3 days MC. lol.
*runs away* dun ask me where i see doc. haha. but i still going sch
tml to show fat arse tt i not a sch pon-er... also tml got vball n no GP
lesson = no fat arse. yeah. Somemore sat can get excused from college day.
So weird, forcing classes to go attend college day. Gee. i settled to go
for LD meeting liao. bleahz.

Yeah, cue cards for link fun day done. load off my shoulders. phew... i feel
at home when i am at HQ... chatting wif shannen aka *cannot say here*, angeline
ee ling aka *cant say 2...* Today had fun... office politics. even working is
more fun than studying :( gave names to pple (lol my fave hobby) and listen to
gossip... See the progress of my project... I wore the mask ard to prevent
spreading... but they so cool. say no nid la. poor brudder, think he got it
from me... but anyway he's already sick. in the mind. lol.

Ok the medication is starting to exert its effects. i'm getting drowsy...
Gee.. so happy yesterday, despite being sick, i think i can pass my math test.
lol. i didnt study much for it... :) ya its an ez topic... Hey pple, one more
week to hell-lidays... exams in july. arghz... got to study in camps. haha.

18.05.04, Tuesday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

lol. i think my brudder noes me best liao. i didnt even realise i
sounded different and he knew from my sms that i am no feeling ok.
wah. power. :)

Ok tml math test.. sucks. and today bio test i flunked. but its ok.
i haven really started studying... muz jia you le.

today went to hq... buttons still not ready after 2 mths -_-
then sat down wif shannen and discussed abt CAC wif simon-peter lum.
finally letter can send out tml.. phew.. thot gonna delay.. cant wait
CAC to come... no more lecture liao.. juz administer tests...

Oh today attended an interesting talk on study skills.. nothing new but
coach jiow juz got tt power of influence... i shall draw up my priority
table liao...

then crapped a lot in the office... knew more gossip... and more office
affairs... now i noe more abt shannen... lol.. and eng kee... mmm...
ok now i have to go back to study for math test tml... cant afford to
fail liao... :)

16.05.04, Sunday ~ Hyped factor: 4/10

14.05.04, Friday ~ Hyped factor: 2/10
Fun thing most probably came from playing vball for sooo... long.
missed my break so had to eat at 145... but my brudder mentioned
abt treating me but i wasnt sure i saw the sms correctly... so
i rushed down to PS. Luckily bio remedial was cancelled but still
got CCA. then @ PS i juz stoned... dunno y i had this weird feeling
if i ask my friends for money... so i asked brudder to help me buy.
and he said i treat him like slave :( ok la. maybe u misread my intentions.
i nvr meant tt. dunno whether i too hungry + frustrated tt i
forgot wat i wanna eat or wat. cos we all juz stone there. super awkward
so i left. Almost fainted in the train. had to stand, so many pple. in my
heart i was worried tt the canteen stalls all closed, then i wld really
die of hunger cos it was 330 when i went back.

Then i went to the library and slept till 5pm. haiz. alone. sian. wat
a way to spend my fri, when i released at 145...

then at night, watched survivor... enjoyed the moments but not when rupert
won :( i juz dun like him. lol. And the day sucked knowing that sat got
test...

15.05.04, Saturday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10
woke up kinda early... wanted to borrow dictionary but cant find. then in
the end almost late. so decided not to go la. i almost wasnt informed of
the test. aiya shldnt haf asked... i also didnt study for it so in the end
didnt go... instead went to sk. surpised miao ling n brudder. sec 1 cadets
still as cute.Was kinda tired after the thing. Luckily rem haf to meet
shirley regarding link fun day reece. walked the fort canning park for the
6th time. sianz. then loiter ard town wif ys n daniel n brudder. and ya
i sort of wanting to 'treat' my brudder and bought for him food cos he
not feeling well... and i really hope to show that our friendship goes
beyond 'slave' or anything like dat. maybe it was a slip of the tongue but
... anyway, bygones liao. the day was fun but i had to go home earlier
to study.

today
only went for NDC AOP. in the morning saw brudder's blog and i became
kinda sorry... i was juz kidding but it triggered mood swings... haiz.
i think we both very tired... he has enuff things on his hands. well,
hope u wont burn out. i think u wont let yaself to also... sorry today
u kena attacked... hope u didnt sprain ya back. lol. at least it keeps
the three of us awake. lol. but seriously i think i am very childish.
*clap*

haiz.. i got link fun day cover cue card to re design.. which i wont
be able to do such a gd job as brudder... nid to develop photos...
nid to come up wif OA manual... nid to learn dance for my dance comp.
lucky maths teacher wont be here on wed, thur and fri... but tml
human histology prac leh... haven study. sian. die.

Hope this week pass quickly. i cant wait for the holidays. i nid a boost.

This is a little tribute to my favourite idol, LaToYa LoNdoN...

I'll be missing all her songs... they're my all-time favourite.
She never shed a tear. Her smile... so angelic. she's humble,
she's fabulous. she made paula abdul cry for her. And i almost did.

Aint Nobody
Aint Going Down Till The Sun Goes Up
All The Time
All By Myself
Oh Baby Baby
Someone Saved My Life Tonight
Somewhere
Rhythm Is Gonna Get You
Too Close For My Comfort
Dont Rain On My Parade

13.05.04, Thursday ~ Hyped factor: 5/10

Yeah, mon went fort canning to re take some pictures.. tiring walk.
i dread fort canning now. been there 5 times. this sat? 6. arghz...
then tue took early leave cos my contacts giving prob... haiz shld
haf left after tt fat arse's period. but juz couldnt la, my eyes
hurt to even open.

In the end, wed fat arse ask me see him after class... which i didnt.
then this morning after assembly, he asked me to stay back...
keep harassing me for the MC when i took early leave and ask y i didnt
see him after class. i mean, so bloody obvious, i wld wan to avoid
seeing u... u still 'arse'... then his parting words was...

'if u keep up like this, there wont be any testimonial to write abt'

do i look as if i care? anyway, if i be a gd boy now, u also got
nothing much to write... so lame lo.. how to fake sore eyes? i juz saw
doctor a week ago for the eye drop, ask me go again... wat i nid is
a change of my contacts... not doctor...sickening... other pple pon
sch, nvr ask mc from them... not even parent's letter.

today had GP test... phew, dun haf to hear him talk for 2 periods.
ooo... math tutor counselled me today... seriously i got math phobia.
do halfway will get stumped and forget all my formula... psychological
barrier i think.

well current affairs comp progressing well... link fun day not really
dien not really helpful lo. my pics haven upload... she wans the cam
back -_- outdoor activties haven done the manual... oh ya mdm pok so
gd, treat us dinner... mmm.. brudder's sausage speg taste nice.
reminded me of the jokes at the mrt and OP :X

Fri is gonna be a sucky day. first bio remedial falls on an unearthly
time: 5pm when my cca starts. how? i think haf to give the remedial a
miss... if not my cca teacher will kill me :(

yawnz.. i'm so tired... peace out.

09.05.04, Sunday ~ Hyped factor: 5/10

Today was basically spent slacking... i didnt noe why my net speed so fast that i
keep downloading charmed and watching them... then went ard evening time to hunt
for garnishing for the cake for mother's day. lol. it was so fun making the cake wif
my sis... too bad the cream melted too fast. but hey i can try it again during father's
day :) forgot strawberries come in seasons... so today no strawberries... but had a
self-made fruit cake. yummy. cream. i love it. my sis and i were suggesting to buy
a can and spray and eat... yaya.. sick.. but it tasted really gd...

Hi shirley, Happy Mothers' Day. lol. ya not tt young :X
Hi Mizael, Happy Mothers' Day. rem to breastfeed me as u promised. Ewww...
To all the mums out there, thanks for ya love all of us. Naggy as u may be, we haf
mastered the art of one-ear-in-N-one-ear-out. So try something new from today.
bleahz :X

I read the NewPaper dated on 8/5, i was overwhelmed by empathy. Not by the
amount of financial burden that the IMH aka Woodbridge had to carry. Instead, it was
the number of old people staying there who were abandoned by their children. It
saddened to see how educated people nowadays can be so heartless. Well those who
left them there for healthcare, paid their medical fees and visited them can be pardoned,
but nothing beats bringing the Elders home. Some Elders were left permanently with
no one to visit or talk to them. Now i understand why MOE wanted students to do at
least 6 hrs CIP, juz to ensure or rather force students to have at least a bit of humanity
in them. Some Singaporeans have the ugly sides... whenever they nid to queue, they
cut or rush to queue. Got free or discounted stuff, needless to say. S'pore has become
so competitive even in the non-economical sense.

And it's always the NKF raising such huge sums of money, claiming that some are for
reserves for dialysis as it is expensive. But how about the rest of the needy organisations.
IMH has been incurring millions to cover the medical costs of those Elders who have no1
to rely on...

And really, Some Singaporeans especially the teens are so lazy to even use their brain to
think or their heart to feel. For example, during Flag Day, some of them returned with only
a few coins inside the tins. I asked them to go and try harder and come back half an hour
later.

'Aiya, dun wan la. tired leh. we went so far come back then u wan us go back and
come back again?'

Think this sentence would provoke some thoughts but i guess u know wat i wanna say.

Then there's this big group returning together, same thing. tins were near empty.

'We went orchard then PS, so many people doing flag day also... all of them got
stickers so dun wan to donate'

Mind you, they are sec 3/4s. Worse, they are not the minority.

1. Such a big group how to collect donations?
2. Why go such crowded places?
3. If your shift ends at 12, u come back before 12 or exactly at 12?
4. Most imptly, how do u feel coming back with a near empty tin? Have u done ur best?

Personally, i went for 4 yrs of flag day. My first time i was reserved as i was sec 1 and
shy so didnt dare to approach people. And with my partner, we moved around places...
But for the next 3 years is full tin. And i changed partner... lol. pair up wif my best friend,
peihuan. Not a full tin, we wont report back. For three years we stood at the same spot
@ amk. always full tin. except our last year, we got 1 full tin each before the shift ends and
we went back to take a second one. It really warmed my heart to see that during flag day,
it was Elders who formed the majority in donating to us. Some dun haf change but went
to buy stuff and came back later. Most of the ten dollar notes also came from the Elders.
Flag day can be fun, if you want it to be. For my friend and I, it was nice to observe pple,
chat up wif the residents there when they donated. We didnt really care about the hours.
There are no such thing as shifts to us.

But now at jc level, people rush to do flag day... why? cos they got 6 hrs of CIP but
dunno what to do so a madrush to sign up. Yes, not much time to hunt for alternative
projects, but when u are involved in the flag day, at least put your utmost effort. I see
people just holding the tins standing or just thrust the tin forward when they see people.

Ya. enough of nagging liao. this had been in my mind for so long... so might as well say it
now. Its high time more pple should know that heart does more than juz pumping blood. :)

08.05.04, Saturday ~ Hyped factor: 1/10

Yesterday? i dun wish to talk about it cos nothing beats today.
Today? I failed my maths test today.for sure.
What could be worse? Having meeting later to clear up mess.

06.05.04, Thursday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

Phew... can heave a sigh of relief... today did a make up PE. well tt can keep the PE
teachers' mouths shut for quite some time. i hope tml will rain... haiz.. today got
my 100 bucks.. i now left wif 35 :( but hey... i spent majority to print notes so i
guess i'll be able to get my $$$ back for food. lolx. print the notes already 16 bucks.
binding 6 bucks. and i'm gonna claim back money for my headphones from my sis...
+ she still owed me $$$... ooo.. i'll be rich again. i love $$$. haha. sorry going nutZ
cos i think i'm gonna fail my sat stats test. today got called out during math to
solve and check concepts.. sadly, i malu-ed myself... today brudder so good 'treated'
me food. haha. well.. back to study maths... yeah jasmine's safe this week. puffer fish
out.

i was bored during GP so i wrote this to irritate my friend who support diana degarmo.

i am diana degarmo,
i am free for you to muo.(touch)
I try to sing while u shriek at my boobies.
I am fat and i cant dance,
lest u see whobbling lipids.

I need no mike stand, i have a boob-mike stand.
I think i'm juz another chain of fools
who join AMI knowing that i am CMI.
My heart wont go on cos i got fats
i'm still standing at the audience area in weeks to come.
i have a broken wing cos i broke mine when i try to fly,
always forgetting that i got high CG.
No1 ever asked do u love me and i know why.
There's always this one voice telling me,
i got the music in mebut when i try to
turn the beat around and wear a red dress,
audience turn around too... to puke at my thighs.

I should go out earlier... to end this misery.

bold words- songs she sang throughout AMI...
LOLX. sorry i dun haf anything against you... but wrote to spite my friend.
chill~ you gotta be in the final two... ya. but no more of tt red dress. lolx

04.05.04, Tuesday ~ Hyped factor: 5/10

nerd low, nerd low *waves hi* haha... so early stressed liao? drink more brands
ya can understand.. wif cmi teachers, learning gets tough... they make us even more
confused... my bio tutor kinda sucked... today scolded my group for not reading up
resources for our tutorial... when we asked her questions, she went one big round, yet
nvr ans our questions... i think she kinda lazy also. first said wan us to stay back and see
her. then in the end say wat, she gif us another chance... see that we are still kids... wtf?

then today double GP period double the arse time. lolx. gif us hw, sian, sat got test how i
gonna prac my maths? then mass civics got student forum session. tok to the P n VP
can vomit blood... i wondered why they speak up. should juz kept quiet and let em
waste time ma... tok abt air con la, student lounge... i so tired of sch politics... watever
they gonna say sure back up wif a lot of crap... i only noe the school cant break away from
their rigid way of doing things, stifle students' creativity, old fashioned school. super bo
liao PE dept. think only aj got make up PE. diao... and keep making us run. shld train our
chin up wat. very -_-

VP: "i heard that some of u celebrate your birthday in the school canteen, but you all
played with the cake by throwing it around. I find it very childish... also a waste of food...
the cleaners also haf to clean up after you guys."

duh -_-". was wat i cld think of.

the students did clean up lo... i think the teachers who reported muz be jealous
that they got no1 to celebrate their birthdays. after civics went nyp eat. come back for chem
and didnt go for PE.

Then met brudder for supper? lolx. cheers. peace out.

03.05.04, Monday ~ Hyped factor: 5/10

today kinda sucked... so many breaks.. screwed up for math test... careless then
all wrong -_-: then very bothered and vexed abt whether shld do make up PE. now i
didnt do... then tml cannot go afternoon PE... if not, sure get screwed upside down.
haiz. then today the class didnt have the chem notes... was feeling guilty didnt collect
cos fri sports day then my asst chem rep we both overlooked... chem first period so
bkshop nvr open... but then.. if i were to collect, the class fund now no $$... means
how am i gonna spend my weekends? well hope the class dun juz blame me for
not collecting the notes. the system sucked. i took abt a week to claim back my
30 bucks for the notes and tutorials... ya then after sch thot i cld redraw $$$, in the
end cant.. haiz. so pissed. wanted to get the $ then go hdb hub. haiz... nvm...

well did a lot of dips and push ups... now arms super tired... shall retire now ~
tml... haiz.. shld i pon afternoon pe? i very vexed...

02.05.04, Sunday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

shit, my previous entry didnt load. had to retype. arghz. well was saying tt today
looking at the bright side, it was quite well spent. since no tutorial is meeting the dateline
i managed to do some questions, not bad le. then attended an enrichment evac course,
from 2-5pm. went to HQ like 9am to support my frenz who are taking bronze/silver
accred today. well, learnt a lot today... i've been learning new stuff every week. last week
was public first aid, this week was evacuation. then did a fireman's lift on my brudder...
so scared i injure him, cos he landed on the floor when i was swinging him ard. mmm...
but he can survive the hardest knocks, not mentioning being rammed by people. ^o)
happy for shanz and van, they passed their silver...the rest dun worry, next time sure
can!

Then bo liao ME went to meet brudder since he so ke lian... had to work tml and went to
collect $ for tomolo... then we had pudding and shared cool and funny experiences... ya.
feel paiseh making him and daniel tired.. and joan n junqing? i volunteered to be casualty...
and they said my head and butt very heavy... do stretcher drills and hand seats super
tiring... oops. sorry. well i bet real life casualties definitely heavier than me...

some crap:

veins of glacier eternal flow...to the shear white mountain forever cold.....
torriential blizzards,tempestuous blow...etched in the darkness of time despair...
lost in the depth of sorrowful hope...an everlasting pain embeded within...
how to resurrect a human soul...mi soul

01.05.04, Saturday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

First thing first... i almost block my bro today. ha. :( used wat i tease abt other pple
or him and used it on me... but he made me feel the cruelty of my jokes that i haf
unleashed... wow, i guessed last time those i haf 'suan-ed' must be very angry wif
me... oops... u can really get hypertension if you take me seriously... or u are overly
sensitive like myself...

Well back to friday, yup, went to count the donation draw tickets. well... i know how
i can spend my time when i grow old liao. lolx. well everything muz haf its first time right?
after all, i'm not tt credit-hunger person... really sadz when pple think i do so much juz
to gain cca point or credit. haiz. i volunteered cos i enjoy wat i do. yes joining too many
activities firstly i cant commit 100% to all... secondly i'm on my impt As. but i juz cant
let the chance to try and gain new experience juz pass me by rite? i wont be able to
commit as much in army as i predicted i haf to stay in camp for weekends too. lolx.
wat happens when i come out? haf to let new blood handle projects rite? only can
do advisory but not so much on hands-on. maximise my youth but not leaving myself
burnt out is wat i wan. Take me away frm problems too :) when u think there's nothing
worth for u to stay in this world, there's always red cross for me :) keeps me going.
ha. well it really goes beyond red cross...

Saturday

today even though i not in charge of the home visit, i'm glad i could provide advices to
the cadets organising a trip to rc home for the disabled. they actually wanted to put
up a dance performance... but lucky in time to tell em most are bedridden n nt possible
to go every cubicle and perform... well... i'm happy wif how i'm progressing... when
i was a 'non-uniformed' VI during my j1 yr, i was more of a NCO than a VI... but
attached to a new unit really made me mature in my role even more.

after tt, taught my sec 4 cadets chemistry for their mid yr... think back last yr, after
training i gave them chem lessons... prepared notes and zap mine... y? hope tt
when they serve rc, they can give all out and their best. i will ensure their studies
wont suffer :) well... do i do this for credit, CCA points ? well think, pple...

then went to zap notes at amk... thx brudder for accompanying me after the meeting
at kfc. haha. then we walked to bishan... my knees almost gave way... had weird sick
jokes on the way... i created a mean joke today... when i come online i realise it fitted even
more. sorry dien.

On MSN,
Me: I thot we were supposed to meet for dance today?
Dien: Oops... sorry ar... i was sleeping the whole day like a pig.

The Joke:
Q: Why wouldn't the Muslims marry Dien?
A: They dun take lard.

Yesh, i may make u laugh...
'Ya so mean...' maybe your next response.
Well, if the above two didnt occur, u arent either aint yourself, or u not reading closely.
or worst, u dun understand the joke. lolx. (or my joke sucks)

Ok, having mood swings nowadays cos i dun do wat i haf planned... tt is to mug :(
hehe.. before i mug can i go watch the few charmed episodes i haf downloaded. Ciao~

Vanishing Spell

Let the Object of Objection
Become but a Dream
As I cause the Seen
To be Unseen

29.04.04, Thursday ~ Hyped factor: 7/10

wah.. dunno is -_- or having fun changing nick over at msn... my 'brudder' put me
as beCUMmer -_-" see he so horny... worst, he un-acknowledge me as brother... sadz.
lolx... 'best' not there liao so i guess, i'm better off as a dirty joke teller? tt reminds me
of who i was when i was in my upper sec. had to be funny to fit into the grp. making pple
laugh like become my part time job. after all the laughters.. i looked back.. how many
actually stayed to laugh with me... or even make me laugh. hardly. i may be laughing
but whether u are really cheering me up anot? its hard to tell. till now, i realise i haf
not laugh at other pple's jokes tt much... i've been laughing wif my friends
at my own jokes. gosh. i'm really sick.

but making pple laugh is a feat. u have to ensure the jokes u say are not too lame.. not
too chim (or u find urself laughing while others still figuring out wat u say)... and i hate
to explain jokes... really kills the mood. i think i'm so used to be teased when
i was young.. now whenever i tease pple the girls wld say 'eee.. u so mean'. dunno y
perhaps i'm sick... teasing pple. well i think only peihuan n diana would understand
whats in it in a tease. well.. tease can work both ways... i only noe by teasing ph, i
haf motivated her and push her further... always out to challenge her... thru putting
her down she always swear to prove tt i'm wrong... i used to tease her tt she's fat,
flabby.now? she always get napfa gold... so pple, teasing does not equate to degrading
the person -_-"

i'm not stressed but why am i not laughing my heart out? i'm not myself...
someone save my life tonight... latoya london

in the meantime i shall try to smile?
Me: wat happens to the best?
Z: u cum it out liao lolx

28.04.04, Wednesday ~ Hyped factor: 5/10

Today nothing much lehz. str8 after sch ran to punggol to settle some stuff... oh ya
i was asking my form tutor whether there will be extra lessons in june, he was like why?
i mean i haf to right to noe wat.. gave such a curt reply -_- then he said " CCA again?"
I noe he wan me to conc on my As but i also nid to draw up my schedule... nid to noe the
dates i can commit to LD. die liao. for get to get back my mc... haf to do make up PE sianz.
yeah later got AMI...

today watched first 50 dates, wow a show that fits my brudder... freaking show that makes
u horny :X actually no la. the actions they do and the way they put across stuff kinda
funny and makes u think otherwise... hilarious show.. can la 3 stars. can be higher but
air con @ j8 so damn cold...

yeah one more day of sch, friday sports day... oh william hung's mtv abt to show liao...
adieu...

27.04.04, Tuesday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

Well, today i resisted temptation to pon. lolx. big feat. was kinda glad cos i get to watch
a not-so-nice dance performance and a great movie 'Pay It Forward'... Anyone got the VCD
can lend? superb movie.. so touching.. lots of girls were crying away.Today morning started
kinda malu... bio tutorial class wanted to choose the shortest question... but i thot raise
hand first get to choose... in the end got 1(a) which was kinda tough... haiz.. every1 was like
blaming me for choosing the qn... i was like hello.. this is a grp work... take out ya work and
compare dun juz critic on my essays...-_- the day passed quite smoothly. went to nyp to
eat wif fion... haiz.. poor thing she lost her fone.. dunno which mean guy stole hers. haiz.
hope she can get a new fone soon... then saw xinhao and jiamin at nyp... lolx.in the end
pon PE cos i seriously dun wan to sweat.. haiz. i scared i get into trouble. pon so much
PE lesson. tml haf to clear some make up PE... if not sure -_-: hope i'll be fine tml...
today had current affairs meeting... cool. we got everything done. now left admin stuff...
progressing faster than i thot.. lolx. now hope response is good... received email from
LD.. well haf to go check wif the tutors got extra lessons.. hope not.. i really wanna
help :( tml short day... i assume i shall start intensive mugging... cheers. oh ya.
brudder's speech so touching.. lolx. finally some1 find me useful. i also see myself
as stepping stones... well... glad to noe zell... so much abt him i'll take whole day to tok.
such friendship hard to come by... a toast to the brotherhood wif ys too... haha...
u guys rocked my life!

26.04.04, Monday ~ Hyped factor: 4/10

haiz.. today sucked. first thing in the morning fat arse, "Stay back after assembly"
knew wats gonna happen... "u haf been absent for 10 days out of 20 weeks of
school, u noe." thx na for doing the math... 20x5=100. i had 90% attendence...
good wat... -_-" and ya fat arse wanted to fart at my parents' ears... lolx. meaning
call my parents. do i care? HECK. Ha.then got scolded during bio prac. for doing things
wif one hand...-_-" i was too hungry so a bit blur... then chem test got back.. haiz nvr
study.. but pass.heng. my tutor wanted more frm me... on my paper "i know you can
do better." she always ask me why i am in the middle pack. haiz :( sorry to disappoint her.
i haf to get down to serious and intense mugging liao... then GP, fat arse again. keep
shooting at our side cos two groups didnt do wat they r supposed to do... my partner
n i did lo... anyway siam str8 for home after GP. tml long day wif PE and current affairs
meeting at 7. I hope i can last tml... i actually only look forward to mug in sch. see fat
arse really spoil my appetite... today com got probs. cant chat wif brudder ... sadz -_-:
but nvm i shall phone some1. hehe... adieu.
stupid ass.

"fountain of life" brudder zell

You noe wats tt? its dirty... and he's horny. :X

You're Yuna! Quit? NU UH! You're lively and proud,
a bit concerned at times, but the live wire of
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25.04.04, Sunday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

After a malu start, i think i muz stay away frm my comp. been stoning and watching
charmed the whole morning... then went to jalan besar CC for a public first aid lesson.
teach CPR, bandaging, so cool. my first public first aid and i get to teach pple so much
older than me. Mmm... at their ages, they are still so enthu abt learning. mmm.. i wonder
wat is happening to our youths. youths nowadays take things for granted. dun really wan
to speak up. hardly would ask questions. but the 3 people i was attached to, were so enthu
and they keep asking questions. Even i passed them for CPR, they still wanna try, really
impressed by their attitude. They had theory lessons before that, and they were asking me
questions and can c they tried to apply to CPR. My group advanced kinda fast and i got tt
sense of achievement at least they understood me :) tts one of the best takeaway. Whats
another? 50 bucks for 3 hr session. lolx. ya money nt that impt but its an incentive too :)
one way i can keep up wif first aid, help others and getting money is just something
secondary. i thot it was voluntary though. brudder msged me and asked me
when i end, i thot wah so good, go out or eat. but chey... ask for fun nia. -_- nvm, i came
home slammed myself wif tutorials. I seriously having sunday blues and tml?
monday blues. today my mum's bdae so i beta be extra gd boy... later she come home
from work, free massage and i shall whip something for her :X Mediacorp n Mediaworks
better start planning interesting prog on weekends. i practically rot yesterday and today
-_- adieu ~

today, i looked out of the window. saw the sky quite bright. i
turned to my alarm clock. 6.55!!! OMG, i jumped out of my bed
dashed to the bathroom, desperately to put on my contacts
wif my sleepy eyes. ran to my room, almost shouted at my dad
why he didnt wake me up. i quickly put on my sch uniform. Just as
i was going to pack my bag, i looked at the computer. something
amiss. i point to the time bar and it showed Sunday, April 25, 2004...

24.04.04, Saturday ~ Hyped factor:5/10

ok, yesterday when i slept at 3am, i thot i was at the 'end of the road'.(simon cowell
to camile valesco when she sang the yellow brick road) i had to eat before i sleep,
too hungry... then i planned to wake up at 5 to do a last min summary...
guess wat? woke up at 6.10. and i nid to board the bus at 630 lest i wanna be late.
mad rush. didnt haf breakfast. was so scared my stomach wld growl in the quiet LT.
i had bad experiences b4... on the bus, i needed to sleep so badly, but i forced myself
to read notes. then realised i left out the pH and acidity control of kidney. tok abt
get your freak on. then also found out the growth chap forgot to study the
ectoderm, endoderm, mesoderm under the cleavage, gastrulation and organogenesis.
oh boy i still remember. lolx. in the end they nvr came out. -_-" neither did liver functions
neither did kidney essays. so well, lucky i didnt study too hard. :X still think tt ajc bio
paper standard not there. not i hao lian, the questions mostly frm TYS and we already got
the answer guide. Its whether u go read the ans key anot... which i think most
did. so unlike hc paper. all the questions mostly application questions and one question
is so long. after u read, u nid to process or read again, sure nt enuff time to finish. Their
essay questions love to let ya mind process. questions like compare and contrast the
aldestrone and ADH secretion, ultrafiltration VS selective reabsorption, urine formation
VS haemodialysis. ok maybe they think that kidney not much time to cover so dun
put essay for that but the quesions on endocrine gland, insulin and glucagon. pick
frm TYS -_- lolx ok la, u guys may think i siao, bitch abt an easy paper when i shld
be happy. juz feel a little sad tt they didnt maximise the chance to expose us tough qns.
since all the small tests now do not contribute to prelims... the more they shld set hard
papers.

well, seriuously Saturdays without red cross training sucked i am rotting...
took a nap and woke up and its 1pm + long day. no tv. now its back to my work :(
i foresee nothing exciting for today...

Dont let the sun go down on me
i find this song most endearing to me... at least for now. one of my fave song.
sung by elton john. revocalised by jasmine trias (ya u wanna say she sucks?)

I can't light no more of your darkness
All my pictures seem to fade to black and white
I'm growing tired and time stands still before me
Frozen here on the ladder of my life

Too late to save myself from falling
I took a chance and changed your way of life
But you misread my meaning when I met you
Closed the door and left me blind by the light

Don't let the sun go down on me
Although I search myself, it's always someone else I see
I'd just allow a fragment of your life to wander free
But losing everything is like the sun going down on me

I can't find
Oh, the right romantic line
But see me once and see the way feel
Don't discard me
Just because you think I mean you harm
But these cuts I have
Oh, they need love to help them heal

Don't let the sun go down on me
Although I search myself, it's always someone else I see
I'd just allow a fragment of your life to wander free
But losing everything is like the sun going down on me

23.04.04, Friday ~ Hyped factor: 2/10

i'm so fucked up... arghz... today was such a waste. haiz. didnt get to study as much as
i expected. can only blame myself -_-" lets break down wat makes a sucky day:

1. My money!!! i swear i'll nvr collect chem notes again. my 20+ bucks cldnt even get
back when i nid... how to survive? haiz

2. stupid nap. not only i missed survivor. i missed precious time to study. at 130am now
study wat? i'm gonna fail tml.. arghz...

3. my charmed episode dl halway kena cut. now muz rejoin long queue. arghz...

4. i haf achieved nothing today. arghz...

good thing only meet up n had a nice chat wif dien, brudder and earlier ys and brudder.
rm training. other than tt, the day sucked!!!

found this lyrics for the song i kinda like.
by elton john but was sung by camile valesco of AMI.

yellow brick road

When are you gonna come down
When are you going to land
I should have stayed on the farm
I should have listened to my old man

You know you can't hold me forever
I didn't sign up with you
I'm not a present for your friends to open
This boy's too young to be singing the blues

So goodbye yellow brick road
Where the dogs of society howl
You can't plant me in your penthouse
I'm going back to my plough

Back to the howling old owl in the woods
Hunting the horny back toad
Oh I've finally decided my future lies
Beyond the yellow brick road

What do you think you'll do then
I bet that'll shoot down your plane
It'll take you a couple of vodka and tonics
To set you on your feet again

Maybe you'll get a replacement
There's plenty like me to be found
Mongrels who ain't got a penny
Sniffing for tidbits like you on the ground

So goodbye yellow brick road
Where the dogs of society howl
You can't plant me in your penthouse
I'm going back to my plough

Back to the howling old owl in the woods
Hunting the horny back toad
Oh I've finally decided my future lies
Beyond the yellow brick road

22.04.04, Thursday ~ Hyped factor: 5/10

today feeling norm. nothing exciting except get praised by mani for bio. nothing
much also. filled up the NS pre-enlistment documentation can vomit blood...
So many things to fill up. Awards also muz type. i got so many ^o) and they
expect every award to haf a date,mth,yr. how i remember -_-" lazy to type. juz
gif a few.

well.. been thinking shld pon tml anot? short day n PE, dun feel like going. but
think of gg polyclinic to get MC also sianz. somemore fri is the most boliao day.
i might as well stay @ hme 2 study bio test... but then again, still nid to go for
CCA at 5pm. oh ya my NS medical checkup i put on 6th july. tue...
so i can pon sch. haha. i so stupid put in june holidays meh. haha. :X

signed up a new email... johnchen@gmail.com yup u guys can start emailing to
my new add. got 1000MB space can even send songs.. lolx. today GP my
partner and i didnt do the compo. but heng har. fat arse has to go early.
wah me break into cold sweat... looks like every1 has done. looking forward
to AMI later.. but already know the results.. lolx. i think fantasia, latoya
cant be bottom three lehz. they juz wan to create excitement and make pple
vote for them more. every week like different btm 3... can bet next week
btm 3 sure george huff, john steven and jasmine/diana...

and i think i spend $$$ like water. -_-" wed was given 70 bucks. 2 days only
left 30 bucks. apart frm zapping notes which took up 10 bucks. haiz... muz
keep record of my expenditure liao... now left like 10+ cos i pay for class notes
haven claim. if i go sch tml. then i can claim. if not have to wait for mon.

well get back to study bio n chatting wif brudder... camile valasco's yellow brick
road rocks. haha

20.04.04, Tuesday ~ Hyped factor: 4/10

basically today juz sucked for me. the only thing tt kept
me sane was the current affairs meeting... weird huh.
well tts wat rc haf done to my life. little things make me
excited :) oh today my buddy, na didnt go sch :( lone
ranger again. yup my dance training changed to fri again
so any1 fri wanna hang out? lolx. i finish sch at 1.45, muz
go back at 5. dun mind actually cos i like dancing in dance studio
wif mirror beta than in classrm -_-

fat arse pissed me off again... 'one more time u dun produce mc,
i will be holding back your testimonial. You know rite, school's
policy. you know wat will happen if u are in the army? ...' i
shut off immediately. he's like so young but so much to nag.
ya, concern abt me but he cld haf put it in a nicer way. i'm
an 'attitude' student. lolx. he kept ratting behind me,
i juz keep up my pace. why am i so problematic? :) i thinking i've
been putting a facade of who i really am. dunno y. maybe i hate
the sch, so tend to rebel. well its a disadvantage to me but i juz
cant seem to get back to b tt 'goodie2shoes'. also some of my
classmates were also absent but they dun produce mc, he nvr
say anything -_-

then during pe which i initially dun intend to go, those napfa nt
tt gd haf to go for extra training... sianz... then my two 'excused'
pe lessons became void. now haf to do 2 make up PE. i mean wtf!
i was sick on fri, the day before march holidays so i hand in the MC
the day when sch starts. then the PE teacher says he tabulated
the stuff during march holidays... -_- u think i so free come back
sch to hand in mc?

AJ sucks la, teachers nt flexible. dun wan to hear explaination.
when i try to explain, keep saying i gif excuses. then throw the
file on the floor and talking to other pple, while i still talking to him.
i was so [pissified] everything's been downhill for me
in aj. shouldnt appeal to transfer in the first place, shld stay in
tj. haiz. well, able to choose may nt be a gd thing... enuff of tis,
shall move on, school sucks but not red cross. toast!

had meeting for current affairs comp. as expected only 4 of us.
oh mdm pok flashed out my project. lolx. got to know her better.
yup. me chair and my brudder vice. haha. suggested the challenge
shield. really hope rck dun die off. :(

hope tml will be a gd day, going sk. going punggol collect back
beret samples then to HQ. sat no training. after bio test, i'll
be quite sian. any dates? ^o)

19.04.04, Monday ~ Hyped factor: 7+4+4/30

Saturday
Well, WRCD... got excused frm mdm lee frm chem test.
feeling great. set off frm ys's hse to braddell. my eyes cld
hardly open frm the 330am sleep :( had mac breakfast,
then went to gyss to feed mosquitoes... went toa payoh
stadium kinda early so helped out wif logistics. soon,
pple start strolling in. oh ya saw law sir jogging... mmm...
being road marshal was cool lo. can get a nice tan. and
wear the vest.. once in a lifetime sia. but breathe in too
much CO... now my brain aint working well... lolx...
dismissal part was even more fun directing the buses n
cadets... then simon-peter sir said 'mass orgy' -_-"
but nvm, we're in the same frequency. lolx. Oh ya
gotta explain a few things. after i have changed, i went out
to see wat i can help. then i knew i had to take down the
direction boards. i thot they were juz nearby so nvm. but
no. had to go all the way down to the hdb flats, bus stops.
then i didnt bring my hp along.. in my uniform. oops.
then all my friends came looking for me. so touched.. lolx.
sorry guys to keep u all worried.. i didnt haf the chance
2 tell u guys where i was going... didnt expect also.
then went to see the same steamboat but tis timewif eusoff
joan and poh boon. yup. ate more tis time. go home so tired.
see my com cant use. i sian diao. -_-

Sunday
Oh it was kinda sucky. cos i msged so many frenz n none
could lend me the cable modem installation cd. either not
at hme or not using. wah very frustrating. its like all done
except the cd. no mood to study for chem or math test.
haiz. then finally zhu lifang come to my rescue. she helped
me dl the networking program... she rocks! even though
i got the diskette like at 8+ but i was still excited. haiz.
kinda wasted the whole day. then i spent my time
admiring msn 6.1. lolx. and my cd writer. and everything
back to normal. and faster com :) slept at 230 :( bad

Monday
Muz be lack of sleep. today math test i was stumped
forgot how to start the working... almost fainted...
in the end something struck me, managed to do but
i think sure fail again. nvr check properly. haven recover
frm shock. variance i go and subtract when it can only
be added. haiz. dunno what i am thinking of. 4 marks leh.
chem test was ok but as usual mixed up the reagents
didnt study much, but think can pass wif a better grade
this time :) cheers. went to eat AJ ice wif my brudder,
that bloody uncle made us wait for so long... -_- well.
bio test this sat. i beta start revising. tml somemore
got current affairs comp meeting. check it out c",)
whole event

16.04.04, Friday ~ Hyped factor: 5/10

haiz. this morning. bad flu. serious. but in the end still went
travelling to meet my friend in the morning. so bo liao. wasted the
whole day. frm sk to woodland then to bukit batok. then back to
wdland to sk. from sk to toa payoh. from toa payoh back to sk.
then from sk to wldland. sit in the bus and train until my butt sore
somemore carry so much barang barang. feeling unhappy too...
haiz... but kinda temporary... wat happen? lolx

received na's sms tt my PW got Band 2!!! lolx. was really happy
cos my project's a lousy and so clique type of project. juz like
sec sch do one... -_-" then i came to know that one of my
member got Band 3 while the rest got Band 2... then my members
were bitching that i shld b the one who get a 3... not the other
guy... -_-" how wld u feel? at first was really angry. firstly, the two
girls so mark oriented. they do all the research by themselves and
put their names down. then those not that gd research material,
they juz ask me and the other guy, C to chip in as a grp analysis.
FYI, there are self analysis and grp analysis. also, they like to sabo
pple.. there are a few times when i cant make it for the meeting,
they wrote the minutes, at my name they bracket "didnt
inform us of his absence" i was like wtf! and all my ideas tt
i have contributed all put under the two names of tt &^%&^
girls are vicious sia. tts not all lo. survey forms juz throw to me
and ask me go interview 50 pple. -_- say i haven done anything...
wats wif my sundays? i spent them at the National library
doing research and find articles tt are dated like so way back lo
had to queue for 2 hrs for my turn. and i had to make a few trips
cos they only allow 1 hr and queue super long. I also went NUS
library. but who noes? no1. i nvr say only. haiz...

anyway enuff of me bitching. the fact tt i got a 2 and the 2 snobs
said i dont deserve cos i didnt do much, i prove them wrong. so
wat if my oral presentation helped me. bleahz. somemore, the oral
presentation plan and stuff i do one lo. haiz. but i didnt put my name
lo. unlike the ^$^%*

so angry to say anything.. arghz... to hell wif them!

yup, tml WRCD.. so excited... go breakfast then gyss. wif the sick band
of brothers! lolx. sure a lot of photo taking... muz relax my jaws now...
ya, hope my di feeling ok. cheer up :) 4 hrs to GO. c",) back to my TYS.

15.04.04, Thursday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

lolx, i'm blogging now at my friend's house for yesterday's entry.
well actually was feeling quite excited and hyped yesterday, until
i read my di's blog. haiz didnt noe he was unhappy, sorry if my
waffle make u feel sad. actually u no nid to feel pai seh, i used
to treat my very good friends food. lolx. ya, ys ur turn next time
no wonder u so quiet during e bus ride. feel so ps tt i fell asleep
when ya got things to tell me, haiz. so pai seh. quick wake up n
chat wif me... haha

well, thursday was quite slack. fat arse not in sch so i got 5
periods free. went sch for bio tut, math tut and chem prac test.
chem prac test was so... easy. haha. didnt do e experiment, i juz
predicted the results. :P real nice to work wif paul. he got everything
for me. minus his answers.

then went sgoon to get my specs. had an interesting talk along e
way. reach dhoby ghaut super early. then di get to wear my uniform
ya, smart pple do look gd in uniform... how is it feel like being an AJ
for a day? lolx.

well... was rather awkward over at dinner... mmm. am i a person
tt lame or irritating? seems like some are unhappy wif me. or
are they juz kidding n playing? i'm confused. do nt send wrong
signals. if u 'play' along wif me i wld think its ok for u. so if
i pissed u guys in anyway do let me noe :) hate tt feeling to
guess whether any1 is unhappy wif me. even if i wrong, i
also dunno. or worst, u haven hear my side of the story.

shall end here. yup. hope my di cheer up. stay cool every1 c",)

This special blog entry for my brudder who has his EQ restored saying:

tml u can punch my arm all u wanna~~~

when i'm feeling down n vexed. thanks! little gesture makes my day :)
U Rock!

14.04.04, Wednesday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

yeah today our bio presentation was well done. thx SHEENA 4 writing
up the ans... -_-" got praised by mani. after that like nothing much. GP
period became a period used to discuss int. friendship day stuff... didnt
bring tie, nvr got fined! cool!fat arse saw damien nt wearing tie, but how
come he didnt mention me? i think he has given up hope on me... lolx.
and i think i pissed my cca teacher again. hey wats new? tired of saying
sorry liao... i try to balance both cca, if either one side is unhappy, i cant
do much... not tt i can sacrifice one of them... nor did i neglect either one.
aiya, u try having internal n external cca then u can haf the right to
tell me i'm wrong... i'm sick of explaining. no1 understands me... all
they can say is 'can u dun be so busy?' -_- speechless. Red X's been
part of my life, asking me to give up, u might as well ask me to quit living.
u may think i'm crazy but hey i'm tt devoted. full stop.

had a meeting wif my CFC family. i begin to haf an affinity to woodland.
yes we haf become more dirty in speech n thots. Today started sms relay.
well. brudder today was great, carry my bag n my textbk... and shit
let him discover i'm scared of being tickled. i'm doomed. lolx. ok he stained
himself as usual cos he's too high. and got 'attacked'. lolx. was rather
surprised but glad tt vanessa joined us :)

ok tml chem prac test. hope i can get the slot for bio remedial on fri... and
mon chem test hopefully...

13.04.04, Tuesday ~ Hyped factor: 7/10

well, did u guys miss me yesterday cos i didnt blog? lolx...
actually i missed someone... hehe... managed to chat up after
my bz schedule. haiz. too bad, bad mood... hope everything
can go back to norm...

well. back to my crappy mode. yesterday had an urge to go eat
prata. lolx. yummy. finally cleared the doubt of upper thomson
road. haha. nvm, u guys wont understand. juz tt the prata
house not as gd leh. the prata so pathetic. :(

oh ya, heard bio remedial gonna be on thur or fri. sianz... there
goes my short days.

today no afternoon pe again. so happy. prac quite a bit for chem
test on sat. asked whether i cld take on fri, dunno the tutor
serious in letting me take on fri, if can then sat wont be so
rush for me :) gee.. happy today got special attn from mdm jean
lee... asked her some qns, cleared my doubts. i hope i wont
disappoint her in this coming test :P

oh my bro went to shit again. his forte. tml got dance yeah. i like
2 weeks nvr dance liao. k, can see pple feel like throwing stones
at me. even since i noe our cca haf to close down, feeling half
hearted in watever i do... then when i wan to perform, my
members dun feel like. haiz. i noe time quite tight. but haiz. now
like so sian.

after training, get to meet my sick brothers. haha. oh ya i haven
collect my specs. arghz. now haven do newspaper articles. haven
read up bio. only study chem, chat wif my bro... yawnz.

oh ya today got a few pics of my cca outing to sentosa... hehe...
it was fun tt time... perform at the beach too... fun volleyball
match, soccer or rather girls chasing ball. and ya the design for
my class tee was out, looked like matrix thingy but wif our names.
kinda cool... cant wait... yup mon dissected a kidney, wats next? lolx

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South District Camp 2003. Michelle, Diana, Me, Stephrene. Cool. 3 chio Bu

Me and my BosS... Jasser, John

Table 18 of the Red Cross Promotion Ceremony 2004. Mostly North. lolx. plus Sarah

Again table 18... plus Royce, Stella and Daniel

Best pic 2003. Class 03S74 of Hwa Chong JC. A Class above the Rest.

Volunteer Instructor Programme (March) 2004 - the course pic

VIP o1o4- Simply the Best... We LeaD witH PridE... Hoo Ha

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10.04.04, Saturday ~ Hyped factor: 8/10

well, slept at 3am and wake up 6am today... woke up the wrong side of the
bed, well get pretty hyped up cos today promotion day ma, who dont?
went for mac breakfast wif my bro then went for training... i let the cadets
memorise the red cross promise.. cos WRCD coming... :P Then showed
em the video for the NAt FD 2002... was super surprised tt they proposed
to do footdrill rather than watching the video... and when i told them training
today will end early, they went to ask the YO to extend so that they can learn
marching... they so enthu... lolx... if its me who influence them, then gd sia. lolx.
then my bro msged me ask me did i teach sk cadets to greet? cos they greeted
him. lolx. i was grinning liao. where can u get tt kind of sense of achievement?
mmm... tats why i love red cross. simple actions can make ya day. lolx, then the
malay cadets in punggol helped to correct my pronounciation of the commands.
hehe... see, we learn from each other. they are very engagin cohort. asked a
lot of questions. i am grateful to haf a lively unit, easier to execute things.
went back to sk, see the sec 1s so cute.. so many got potential one... i can see
the future for skrcy...

then changed into my full uniform, the sec 1s like shocked.. come out of the
classrm and stood in front of me, stoned. lucky no1 saluted... if not i taught
paying of compliments for nothing liao... then me n my bro waited for ages for
mr yap's car to arrive... he said 1.15 in the end the car came at 1.45. i thot we
gonna be late for sure. In the car ride, my bro and i spent most of the time
laughing at the YOs' jokes. Ms Mel super funny... kept calling mr yap, 'brother~'
and basically tok a lot of crap. didnt expect tt from a teacher, but she said she
aint one outside the school. and she's always singing that oldies, 'wo yao, wo
yao, wo yao ni de, wo yao ni de ai'... nvr fails to make me laugh. my YOs really
cool lo, they wld bond wif the cadets. go K Box. Mr yap can sing jay chou's
song. i cldnt believe it. lolx. when we arrived, our frenz asked why we so late
-_-. nvm, was surprised at the table arrangement... and my grp got all most
all ND pple and is the fun grp. too bad my bro the other table :( he do looked
like a waiter :X took so many photos and FOOD. our table was practically
another buffet table. dunno why i ate so little... ya had a fun time clapping for
commissioning of officers. clapping real loud for my 3 YOs. the clapping gets
real loud when it came to vincent sir and andy sir. lolx. after the thing,then lt
gen winston choo left and every one started leaving too... only left my YOs
and other supporting ones to witness our promotion...pathetic but we no
nid to maintain image liao. lolx. anyway had a great time cheering. then after
the thing, wanted to take photo wif vin sir and andy sir. then i was wondering
if i shld wear the new rank cos dun wan to be so hao lian... but vin ripped
open my rank and changed for me!!!! haha. so honoured. if only got take pic.
haha... hope can get to see him after this yr. :) then took a precious pic wif vin
and andy sirs. its gonna be in my friendster for long :p then took lots of course
pic.

after the event, regret nvr take away. haha. then went wif others for pool, i
didnt play, studied chem instead. lolx. see they so pro i also stressed. then
went to haf dinner at some crappy foodcourt. same sentiments as my bro.
food ex but sucked. then in the end every1 went home... sianz. its only 8pm
lo. but suddenly felt tired... came home online was supposed to chat wif bro,
then took a nap and became a very long one. woke up like 5 am like dat. :X
so sorry. well, my sec sch a lot of happening...


BLAST FROM DA PAST (2)

after psle, i chose skss as first choice. wanted too pick cat high one :(
but tt time when i moved into sk in feb 1998, there was no public transport
there. hardly. muz walk a long way, somemore no direct bus. so no choice
picked skss. actually i didnt even noe tt it was so close my hse... first 3 mths
spent at an abandoned building oppo holy inncocent... frequent hougang mall
often, and i rem we shared the building wif another primary school cos their
building also not ready yet. we were in the afternoon shift... first day of
school, the sch announced the top 4 psle scorers and i happened to be one
of them. so shy... they made us come to the front. wat for, i also dunno?
now sec sch, psle score dun reflect much. i automatically become prefect
as they asked who were prefects in their primary schools. Dunno how it
happens, i became student leader aka councillor and in charge of PA. then
i also signed up for higher chn... arghz. then for cca, i almost almost chose
chinese orchestra if not for my friend who told me there was a red cross booth.
inside sat a very sweet-looking teacher. one look u cant resist not to go in.
dunno how she did it, she managed to grab some who wanted to join npcc...
since sec 1 i already know wat i want to be, so i chose red cross instead.
then get to noe a bunch of cool VIs. that time we had more than 10 VIs, every
week can see different ones. all so zai and gd looking. i shall touch on rc later.
we had a long walk from the old building to our new school on the last day of
term one. everything was so clean, we ran ard the school. oh ya, back in the
old building, i was voted to be the chairperson of the class. sianz. cos my name
ez to remember? then i got a disgusting guy as my vice chair... he was
initially my enemy... he always picked on me cos i was quiet and inncoent then.
he would sneeze on me and pat my back so hard for nothing. he got attitude
problem... even spit on me b4. haiz. i was so traumatised sitting beside him.
lucky not for long.

then in the new school, my 'enemy' got transferred into another class, cos he
cant get along wif our eng teacher, quarrelled wif her, scolded her bitch and
stuff. next big thing i guess is the NKF champ thingy... initially i lost in the
voting part but my new vice chair, the one i had a crush on lolx, actually voice
out to the teacher that i was better and the class didnt take the voting
seriously so when they revoted. in the end, i was the chosen one. from class
champion, we had to write a testimonial abt ourselves. then i was chosen by
the teachers to be the school champion. so cool 2 trophies... then i was
shortlisted in the national NKF champs. but the interview was on the week
then i was on a beijing trip wif the school. so my teacher helped me arrange
another day. this time, it was 3 judges to myself. more chance to interact
compared to 5 judges and abt 5 candidates. i still emember it was the
news paper reporter, ng wan ching, the vice chair for NKF and tne officer
frm MOE. I told them my experiences for taking care of children. think they
were so engrossed in my talk tt when i showed them some pictures, they were
like deep in thoughts. btw, my mum was a foster mother wif the MCDS,
u noe wats tt rite? dunno tag me. and she took care of abandoned children
until they are ready for adoption. the abandoned children really cute and smart.
but everytime,i wld cry wif my mum when they had to leave us. lolx, i am sensitive
and emotional k.. like wat a piscean shld be. some more they like spent
their 3-4 years here. wld haf treated them like my own brothers and sisters,
and my mum, like her own children. there are also some children who are
retarded, more challenging to take care of them. they would bang their heads
on the way and floor. scary. so muz gif them extra attn. then they wld cry so
loud most of the time, tt i couldnt study :( but got so used to it... i did well
enuff for my sec 1 n 2, got first and top the school. top in 5 subjects out of ten.
lolx. prize presentation tt time, i cldnt carry all the trophies. lolx. paiseh. tt was
the peak of my life :P my greatest feat was getting 97 for science and geo lo...
u can say ez if u wan but compared wif my school, kinda like my class best
class got 1/3 failed. :( ok back to NKF champ. then waited for quite some time,
i knew i was the top 5 national champ. so happy... went for the award
presentation @ shangrila hotel. i was the youngest.. wearing shorts on stage...
the other four were 1 sec 4, 1 sec 5, 1 JC and 1 from SP. only tt time i knew i
won a HP com which is wat i am using. and also a trip to a 10 day summer
camp at west virginia. cool lo. missed school for ten days was not fun lo.
had to catch up a lot. somemore streaming yr... but no doubt the camp was
super fun.

took 24 hrs to travel from
singapore to japan to washington then to detriot and then took a 3 hr bus
ride to west virginia and the campsite. lolx so natural. all trees and its the
global youth camp. i met teens of so many countries. got into a cabin 'amani'
they had different langauges of peace as cabin names like paz, shalom,etc.
the pple there really cool. can see different cultures. diff religious practice.
super cooling cos its not like spore so hot. had a lot of to interact. u can
get to choose modules, there are lessons u can attend. i chose the arts and
cultures. it was rather interesting. i was taught a few great art works and
learn some basic dance, signature dance, using ya body to spell ya name.
every nite after dinner, there will be performance and stuff... so got to
perform in one of the evenings under the stars. u also get to choose an
elective. i chose keyboard. i learnt how to play keyboard. lolx. first piece
was the entertainer. so fun... there i made two frenz from taiwan. and
many more i didnt state here :) karen and hailey. their uncles sent them
here. lolx. learnt abt their country and their school system there. truly
an enriching experience. meal time was even more fun. each cabin had to
rotate to become waiters. prepare dishes and serve the whole camp then
after which the cabin can eat. even though it was only vegetarian but the
food is so nice i dun mind being a vegetarian for that 10 days.
had pizza, pasta, very nice soup and lots of food from all over the world.
dun worry they were made in the camp, not brought by the camp mates.
haha. before we even reach the air con canteen cabin. we had to walk up
steep slopes, more than one :( the milk in the morning is freshly from the
cows. we get hands on experience to get milk from cows in the farm nearby.
very healthy eating... no sugar only got honey. no salt too... they also got
very nice desserts. yummy. there's a swimming pool besides the canteen.
we also often swim when we haf free time. not after meals of course. i spent
most of the time playing volleyball wif the rest. the americans so pro cos
they frm vball club... they taught me how to play. and i think i grew even taller
after the few matches. there are adult councillors too.. they bonded us
together and were our best friends too. i also played all sorts of sports and
games from all over the world. we also had discussion sessions as youth
shared the status of their countries. i even celebrated the independence
day of america... 4th july... i took another elective to make pottery. painted a
banner for the event. lolx. we had telematch tt day so fun... then i also learnt
tap dance. we also planted a tree which i think shld be quite high now. in the
camp i was awarded the best dancer. lolx. cool huh. exchanged lots of
contacts and we still email each other often. and i received cards from them
also. :) ya forgot to mention abt my biological clock. cant get to sleep at nite
cos its 1030 pm there but 1030am in singapore when i am having recess.
lolx. when sleeping u can see goats ard my cabin. lolx.

the last few days were outings. we went out to shop. oh ya forgot,
before the camp started, we were at washington, we visited the paragon,
white house, lincoln memorial. stayed in five star hotel. cool sia. had nice
buffet meals. then during shopping time, i was shocked at the size of the
shopping mall...one shopping mall is like 3 causeway point joined together.
some1 actually got lost lo. lolx. not me... bought a lot of stuff... i wld wan
to go again for the camp but. it costs 3000k excluding the air tickets for a
mth stay lo. :(

I think the first batch of NKF champs lucky. the second one got computer
but the trip was shorter and it was a business trip :(. the third one was juz
a trip no computer.... the gd thing was our sch won nat champs for 3
consecutive yr :)

lets back track... the summer camp was when i was in sec 2. set off in 30 june.
now i shall share my experience of the school immersion trip to beijing
during the sept holidays when i was in sec 1. went wif my best friend who
happened to be a taiwanese. we both from prefectorial board. i think i paid
only 300, the rest edusave... beijing was super fun. we changed like 3 diff
hotels and the food there wow... my breakfast at holiday inn a 4 star hotel
was like 10 dishes lo. plus porridge somemore. three diff grps compete to
see who can finish everything. as usual my grp got me and my friend. lolx.
we went to visit a lot places. great wall of china. we climbed all the way till
the end n cldnt continue cos under construction and time to move on to
the next place. a lot of cultural palces. mostly the dynasty and the diff
palaces. then we flew to xi'an to see the terracotta. wah. i dunno spent
how much on this trip cos the food is cheap and good and so many
souvenirs to bring back... i think i spent close to 1k there. some of us wld
congregate at a couple's room and create havoc. play games, sick ones
tt u wldnt wan to noe. funny ghostly experiences.

lolx. my entry super long... be back for part 3. my upper sec. a great
turn of my life. Stay tuned.

09.04.04, Friday ~ Hyped factor: 4/10

Yucks. gd friday wasnt gd for me. I spent most of the time cursing under
my breath. bad weather. had to get drenched.. then wondered aimlessly.
outing cancelled. missed survivor episode. wats the only gd thing? getting
the name tags for the cadets? thot of revising for chem. but haiz... my
foot giving me probs. haiz.. today my whole inbox kena flood by my bro...
lolx. well tt time promised to gif a history of myself, well here goes...

BLAST FROM DA PAST...
basic info u nid to noe: c",) dad, mum, me, elder sis and younger sis in da
family. many pple dunno.. but my whole family changed names... not tt
we got things to hide but my mum believed in feng shui... so my whole
family undergo name change. dunno whether relevant to type but i juz
type cos i scared next time if i haf loss of memory still can read frm here.
lolx. brackets rep old name... Dad: Chen Yong Fu (Tan Lye Hock)... Mum:
Wang Xiao Mei (Wong Seong Meng Sally)... Chen Mei Ying Joanne
(Tan Mei Xuan Joanne), Chen Xing Tian John (Tan Jian Liang John)...
Chen Qiu Ying Jolene (Tan Ching Mei Jolene)... funny thing. three of us
had 'J' as our christian names. in case u guys dunno. my whole hse,
everything tt is placed or arranged haf to follow the fengshui... initially
i dun believe much, until after i haf shifted to my new hse and use my
new name... i kinda get better... as in luck, opportunties... things
GO ya way.. tats the point. maybe religion does gif u a sense of well
being...

since young, i live in serangoon north ave 1. blk 107, 03-369. it can
be quite a noisy and eerie blk, ironic huh? noisy cos kopitiam is
juz downstairs and lots of provision shops. eerie thing was... there
was one guy who owe loansharks money and got his ear chopped off.
then he went to the highest level and jumped cos he cldnt take the
pain... scary huh... i had a very scary neighbour... they used to practice
black magic.. u can find weird stuff at my doors.. sometimes they even
throw things in. well, i spent my primary schools days there... before
i started schooling, i stayed in bishan wif my grandmother... there i
think i develop the ability to take spicy food. i took spicy stuff when
i was juz three.. i ate n didnt stop. so now i so thin, metabolic rate
so high muz be tt chillies...

primary school days werent the best days... cos i faced serious stress.
since young my mum expected lots from me. can tell u my traumatising
experience... during my primary school days, i feared the day report cards
were out. my dad used to cane us on our palm.. my mum took 1st as a
gauge... so if i am 5th in class, i get four strokes of cane... weird isnt it?
they rarely check the rest of the subjects as they think position speaks
for all... dunno whether is it psychologically or wat, my first two years
i got 1st for my final term exam. then something happened which i
dunno it has any effect...

during my primary three yr, i was at my grandmother's hse... me and my
younger sis as usual like to role play. then dunno wat got into me. i was
sitting on a pile of newspaper in the storeroom. as u noe, the entry is rather
small and made of concrete... then in the verge to chase my sis, i 'superman'
tried to fly out and hit my forehead on the hard concrete. so loud. haiz. next
thing i was bleeding profusely. dumb and naive tt i was, i went up (executive
flat) to the shower room and tried to rinse it away hoping it would stop. but,
no. the whole floor and bath tub were filled wif blood and water. messy.. i
rem vividly i was feeling weak. no choice, i ran down to find my mum. and
she brought me to the closest clinic. it was a super long walk, rem it was
hard to get taxi... i held on toilet paper and blood drip as my mum carried me..
so many pple looking but they were juz blurry images... i think i KO for a while
when i wake up, i had stopped bleeding... the doc told my mum i lost quite a lot
of blood and hit dunno wat. might affect my thinking and stuff...

true enuff, tt final yr i got 4th for mid term and 8th for end term. guess how
many strokes i got :( hitting continued until i was in primary five. somehow
i managed to speak up... i didnt get caned.. but i end up being caned cos
i helped my sis speak up.

well one of the things i rem most, is every chn new yr, me and my sisters
wld lay out mattress out in the living room, lie there, watching tv and tok.
and my parents give us a bag of assorted coins. we haf to use one hand
to dig as much as possible, then u can get to keep wat u haf dug. every yr
we wld challenge to see hu get the most. lolx.

yup in primary school, i was wif the angklung band. first yr play angklung then
promoted very fast to play difficult instruments... i was proud of myself tt time.
lolx. i was also a prefect. lolx. also frm primary sch got my first taste of admiring
girls. lolx. wld normally call my friend and ask her wat homework. then frm there
chat abt lots of stuff... psle was anyhow do... i believe every1 wld say the same
thing... one of my regrets, cldnt go a better sch of 250+... was thinking i shld
haf gone to zhss or catholic but then i wldnt be who i am if i not in skss rite?
well primary sch teachers tt i rem: Ms Sim, Ms Tan Lay Guat (lolx), Mrs Cheong,
Ms Mary Low, Mrs deSuza (boobies), Ms Soh, Mr Choo (PE)

next week coming up: BLAST FROM DA PAST (2): Life of a teenager...

07.04.04, Wednesday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

Me<---- self proclaimed mugger. i spent breaks today doing tutorial. math
somemore. tats so unlike me! but well, now i noe i can enjoy and play the
whole weekend. my friend actually said its bad to rush thru tutorials, i might
forget wat i haf learnt by finishing tut so early. well, i can use my time now to
do tys. eww... i'm gonna prove to others tt i can be as gd in studies n in cca.
i'm always hanging ard the passing mark, not studying for tests and poning
classes... no more liaoz. at least i resisted several temptations by my frenz
to pon. was browsing thru the website, realised that there is no AJC as a friend
... weird... only AJSB.

well.. tomolo will be a bz day. once again my short day wont be used for
studying or sleeping... haf to rush down to punggol then sk, had to buy
name tags for my cadets and accompany my bro to buy uniform accessories...
wat to do? i enjoy doing these things. i seriously nid company. cos i think
i haf no life. no time for my ... been bZ wif cca until pple being unhappy wif me.
questioning my responsibility, my heart, my priorities. for now, i really hope
to go full gear for my studies... i dun wan to regret later. life is not abt
"if only..." i wan no second chance. but lucky me, i haf supportive frenz and
juz hope they will stand by me when things go wrong. tts the greatest
contentment :) seriously my social circle in ajc is damn small. not much
chance to socialise... haiz.

well, next few sat bz for me. apart from trainings, this sat got promotion
ceremony.. next sat got World Red Cross Day. well i hope my sundays
are free. then can mug at home if not wait for outings :)

alright, time to watch charmed.. lolx at 1253am? downloaded but haven
got time to watch...

mmm... my bro inspired me today... "i am more enthu than this lor.. i came
up with my own training cirriculum b4.. with my own sec1 recruit training
programme.. a template for all sat programmes for various ranks (LCP, CPL)
tried to remake my own footdrill manual with better pictures.. etc etc... i was
much more enthu lorh..." well no matter wat, i feel that he's so much better
than me. lolx. way to go!

i juz cant get to sleep... and i dunno why...

06.04.04, Tuesday ~ Hyped factor: 5/10

ya no PE, but got chem extra lessons.. finish ard 430... then hung ard @ CP
got a new line... i started the day finding myself stupid... i woke up. saw my
manual hand clock showing 6.30. i was like shit, jumped out of bed, rushed
into the bathroom and changed so fast.. then dashed out of the house...
when i reached the interchange, i looked at my hp, digital clock. it was 6am.
dotz. then i noe juz now the alarm clock was 530am. the bus so empty. lolx
then who noes, when i woke up from my usual bus nap, i found myself near
the kfc, the bus had overshot the stop. arghz... i alighted. cross the overhead
bridge and took back to my sch. sianz... ya my new number :98628774.
tml short day but supposed to be happening.. now dunno wat will happen :(
got cca meeting. sure get screwed. but anyway, i finish my tut way ahead, now
the class calls me mugger. lolx... feels gd to complete ya work. noeing u can enjoy
good friday :)oh ya haven wash my uniform for sat ceremony! yup, today had a
'msn war' wif my bro. lolx. juz for fun. hope he dun mind. his suaning skills improved..
i actually get agitated... well if he's happy, i dun mind being linked to 'harry'. haha. well
i hope i am doing a fine job tuning his EQ. haha. as for the rest, god bless. today
civics had a meaningful talk. satisfaction and happiness come after u haf overcome
a challenge. :) keep smiling.

06.04.04, Tuesday ~ Hyped factor: 7/10

Now haf to recap wat happen on the last few days...

Sat: well, feeling excited abt the combined training tt i didnt sleep the
whole night. i was at the station ard 730 and the cadets were already
there. weird, thot i meeting em' at 815. then had breakfast wif
my bro and miao ling. then brought the punggol cadets back to sk.
well, the day didnt go as well as i haf expected... my most anticipated
lesson was cut :( After the training, mizael and me accompanied the
cadets to the red cross bazaar. I think the space of expo is way too
big for the bazaar tt the place look quite empty. but hu cares, it's
air con-ed. compared to the padang. Nothing exciting except to
wait for diana's performance at 450. I bet the way sk cheered muz haf
shocked mizael. lolx. then went supper wif the cadets. this time round
muz haf shocked ying sheng and zell. so much for a train ride :) well, i
was too tired to blog... sun got contact lesson some more.. yawnz

Sun: still feeling tired. had to wake up at 630 and leave hse by 710...
but was five mins late and at 740 on my way... i realised i forgot to
bring my hp :( haiz. i reached at 8 and went to buy prata and ya, had
to travel to campsite alone. haiz. sianz. but expected.. too bad i didnt
bring hp tt day... waited the whole day till 1pm. did my tutorials. cool.
parade procedures were yawnz... did like dunno how many times. gold
accred did under shelter. lolx. in the end every1 passed. didnt had
much footdrill. haiz :( but steamboat after tt was cool!!!

had so much fun playing wif the food and eating... took lots of pics :)
so fun till its indescribable :) too bad mon got sch. if not i can stay
overnite :(

02.04.04, Friday ~ Hyped factor: 7/10

Well i guess i blog in now while my bro go for settle some 'business'...
a dreadful day has passed. phew. napfa today. seriously dun feel like
doing my best this morning since my chin up not tt gd.. but hey i still
pia and got A for my sit ups, shuttle run. B for my standing board jump,
sit and reach and 2.4km. I am very happy wif my S&R and 2.4km. Last
yr i rem i cld only reach for 35 cm. after dance stretching and stuff i now
can reach 45cm. cool ba. then my 2.4km beat my previous timing... today
10.24sec. thanks to all the make up pe. lolx.

today my class super on. while the guys doing 2.4km, some were at the
spectator stand and kept shouting our names. I think it was really a morale
booster... then the whole class went to pavilion and had some light snacks.
lolx. mmm... dunno why suddenly my class so united. lolx.

then after sch chiong back sk to collect the bazaar tickets and rush to HQ.
kena stuck there for like 3 hrs. kept re counting.. wah short of 100 bucks.
i was shocked... lucky they counted wrongly... anyway missed my cca training.
haiz. didnt intend to but if i took 8400 bucks worth of tickets and if not
returned, they are considered sold. if dun return, who will pay?

then came home ard 7... then bz sleeping. lolx while my great efficient bro helped
me wif my rck presentation. wah, if not for him, i probably still doing the
presentation now. lolx. sometimes i feel i owe him a lot. first coming to my sch
to become VI, forgoing his district and even his school. haiz. feel so bad. hope
sk wont let him down. :) then helped me do so much admin work... running to
sk every other day... now like become his second home. lolx.

tml bazaar yeah. the tee so nice. :P too bad cant perform. thx diana har! well, this
week end i can see myself not able to touch work again. tml full day out. sun got
accreditation contact lesson. yawnz... another day gone. seriously am i still a
student? lolx, i dun feel like one. this week i went down to sk on wed, thur and fri...
my early days all not spent properly. haiz. and ya i joined biomedical quiz today
dun think i can get in :( but anyway i shall join for experience.

till then, ciaoz . peace out

01.04.04, Thursday ~ Hyped factor: 7/10

Today seemed to be the most fun april fool day i had in my life. my unusual
sian and boring class today up to a few tricks. had two flurry balls as a headgear
and got our bio teacher to wear and we took pictures. then math teacher nt tt
supporting la, sianz. then during break was chaotic.. the break seemed very long.
we played games like biting the long snack cracker and pass from guy to gurl and
blah blah blah. face bernice was ok.. face yu fei. i felt like laughing. ok i'm mean,
happy? then our class had eggwar. smashing all the eggs onto head, shirts
everything except the bottom part. i thot i cld get away.. then who noes left the
only egg and i got hit. lucky, i smart bend down. so egg wont drip to my shirt.
well its all abt fun. then i sprayed cream onto a few pple. so fun! our PD tutor
also kena. but he mumbled a lot of crap... hu cares.

then went sk to meet NCOs or rather NCO only. haiz. disappointing the way they
plan programme... but anyway, looking forward to sat's combined training... haiz
dien snatched my slot to perform.. now i cant perform.. sianz.. sorry guys. no show
but diana's one shld be better.. ^o) lolx, my bro so humble.. say wan to learn frm
me... i dun haf much actually... :( yup... did his quiz and can say he's one cunning
guy... but he super efficient.. everything type out nicely liao. feel very pai seh haven
write testi for my frenz yet. dun worry i will write a super long one...