16.06.04, Tuesday

ok finally get to blog after more so so long... IWC chairman keeps track on
my blog progress so muz write something. lol. i juz came back from 2 camps
and 1 counting. i look at the date and find myself less than 2 weeks to
study for my midyr. haiz.

well. lets go way back to my memorable ULP (unit leader prog) camp. I looked
forward to this for a very long time. firstly it was my first time being a
group mentor. but hey i think all the grp mentors did a very good job. i am
very honoured to get such a challenging group. lol. well i seen them improving
after the first AOP. i got many late nights or rather mornings cos i slept like
4 am the week before camp. But hey it was all worth it. At least i'm proud to
say my grp shows the most improvement. But it really feels gd when they address
u sir and look up to you. I can swear i almost break down when the camp ended.
Seeing each grp how grateful they are to their mentors and how they expressed
their gratitude really a heart warming scene. well many seniors will say u wont
feel this if u experience it a few more years. well, we shall see... What hurts
most actually when u are grading them... had to be impartial... i still amazed
at myself.

But i fell sick at day 2 after the pulau ubin rescue mission. Muz be my throat
infection recurring... cos i supposed to finish my medication. but the week before
the camp, i was caught up wif meetings and stuff, forgot to eat. lol. i was
38.4 when i took my temperature... tt time i was die die i also dun wanna go home.
Not tt i was selfish to pass the fever to other pple but i really cant bear to
leave the camp and more because of my group. I know they faced lots of prob during
the planning part, i hope i can give them support for the execution part. I knew
my effort paid off when i sat down talking to them during the campfire. Seeing
the campfire they spent so much time and teamwork to build burn so smoothly. i'm
very proud of them for coming so far... Especially when they came back from ECP,
tired and still cheering... they actually wished me 'get well soon, sir' ALOUD.
oh tt few words melted my heart and i sweared tt was the last time i took panadols.
cos after coming back from pulau ubin, every four hours i had to take pills.

In the camp i was quite happy wif my performance, especially i did something extra
lol. that is to teach the link teachers basic campcraft after knowing some teachers
were tough nuts to crack. But everything went very well... we had a very interactive
session and i was able to deliver my first OA lesson. But hey my real wish is to be
able to deliver a lesson during ULP, to teachers... many things i cannot do because
of my rank... sometimes i think back.. mmm... missing two batches of ACOC... though
i made lots of friends now... but it can get restrictive... and UG goes by rank. so
at times cant help but feel a little old but doing the same thing... well in the
meantime i shall explore more things and make myself more flexible and adaptable.
learn more stuff, they sure come in handy... shall explore more ways to set up
campfire... hopefully to be all rounder. :)

but i pretty proud of myself to fight and go on despite i was sick. gosh, still
rem i had fever and sore throat... and the first breakfast was french toast...i
believe all is in the mind. if your will power is strong, u can pull thru no matter
how sick u are. Muz thank a lot of pple for showing care and concern... especially
IWC chairperson... lol. We seek to serve *salute* but sad leh, didnt get to be DI...
haiz... dunno when will be the next time...

Well for ULP camp, shall end my comments here... gosh, i miss my grp... lol.
Delta rockS~ ULP... *hit chest x 2* AH!