07.04.04, Wednesday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

Me<---- self proclaimed mugger. i spent breaks today doing tutorial. math
somemore. tats so unlike me! but well, now i noe i can enjoy and play the
whole weekend. my friend actually said its bad to rush thru tutorials, i might
forget wat i haf learnt by finishing tut so early. well, i can use my time now to
do tys. eww... i'm gonna prove to others tt i can be as gd in studies n in cca.
i'm always hanging ard the passing mark, not studying for tests and poning
classes... no more liaoz. at least i resisted several temptations by my frenz
to pon. was browsing thru the website, realised that there is no AJC as a friend
... weird... only AJSB.

well.. tomolo will be a bz day. once again my short day wont be used for
studying or sleeping... haf to rush down to punggol then sk, had to buy
name tags for my cadets and accompany my bro to buy uniform accessories...
wat to do? i enjoy doing these things. i seriously nid company. cos i think
i haf no life. no time for my ... been bZ wif cca until pple being unhappy wif me.
questioning my responsibility, my heart, my priorities. for now, i really hope
to go full gear for my studies... i dun wan to regret later. life is not abt
"if only..." i wan no second chance. but lucky me, i haf supportive frenz and
juz hope they will stand by me when things go wrong. tts the greatest
contentment :) seriously my social circle in ajc is damn small. not much
chance to socialise... haiz.

well, next few sat bz for me. apart from trainings, this sat got promotion
ceremony.. next sat got World Red Cross Day. well i hope my sundays
are free. then can mug at home if not wait for outings :)

alright, time to watch charmed.. lolx at 1253am? downloaded but haven
got time to watch...

mmm... my bro inspired me today... "i am more enthu than this lor.. i came
up with my own training cirriculum b4.. with my own sec1 recruit training
programme.. a template for all sat programmes for various ranks (LCP, CPL)
tried to remake my own footdrill manual with better pictures.. etc etc... i was
much more enthu lorh..." well no matter wat, i feel that he's so much better
than me. lolx. way to go!

i juz cant get to sleep... and i dunno why...