..:: 488. The One With 1st Day at Mindef ::..

embarrassed. that pretty much summed up how i felt at the end of the day. i was almost killed by boredom and later embarrassment. first, i had to report at 8am and so i did. waited at the lounge with another guy and we practically read all the newspapers there and did nothing for the whole day. Our bosses werent in the office and the staff was busy 'fighting fire'. I am involved in something rather challenging, or rather i am assigned to a department that has very high security cos i handling documents and info that is higher than confidential which of course i cannot reveal anything here. So far i have only touched restricted and seen confidential.

I know you may think, so what's the big deal... i was the most junior officer there though. walked around the office, at least a captain, if not would be major, ltc or colonel. I am definitely going to learn more from this attachment, build connections and strangely i am working with rather high-profile officers, who were once sword(merit/honour) holders. What is worse, even the clerk there who is just a corporal is a PSC scholar o_O... so now u see how small i felt.

here comes the unpleasant part. i was coming back from lunch and there was this guard who stopped me and told me:

'sir, i have to write your name down. Your hair is too long'

i looked at him, frowned, cos i cut my hair before i came in... i pointed at my hair,

'you mean this is considered long' in a rather stern voice, almost sounding like dont mess with me.

he then claimed it was my sideburns that were too long. so a gungho corporal embarassing an officer. that is something new... not that i am throwing my weights but i was pissed cos of 2 things.

First, one of the officer with me was surprised by his action cos my sideburns were not shaved but they were not long...

Second, the 'psc' clerk told me the guard 'is like that, always so gungho, catching people'

Also, in the morning while walking with my friend into the camp, he told me a guard stopped my friend's friend for long hair. He was lucky to have his boss with him so when the guard told my friend's friend the same thing about booking him and writing a letter to his superior, his boss turned to the guard and said,

'so what you want to write to me about?'

At first i felt amused but when i experienced the 'trauma' myself, i understood why the boss acted in that way. The guard was such an ass. If you tighten security then i would say good job, but go around catching long hair which was not long in the first place... My friend's friend and I were only 2LT so i guess we are quite an easy target. I bet i go to the canteen i saw people with sideburns longer than mine.

why am i so mad? cos my boss havent even met me and the first thing he would get is the letter and it doesnt speak very well of me, right? damn pissed. now i have to explain to him on mon, hopefully he is understanding enough. To think i have to ask my boss for offs and leave for school events and personal stuff, i cannot imagine how much harder it would be. hopefully, he sees it as a trival matter, if not later he give me extras duty, that would pretty much sucked.

once you get into university, it is very hard to shave off that sideburns. Cant we keep the sideburns and be neat? Does it really affect the professional image the army is projecting? I guess i have to suck thumb and shave my sideburns like i used to do. i have to pay to eat at the canteen cos there is no cookhouse? darn. transport there already burning my pocket. i know i am earning a substantial amount but if you can save on meals, why not?

you can see my first day was not pleasant. bah.

went to catch spidey 3 with my sister. bumped into steven. admired his coloured hair and he maybe going to aust to study medicine. wish him good luck! the doctor who clubs. spidey 3 was the best i felt... though some felt otherwise. minus the audience - some guys think it was funny to laugh loudly at commercials, while one guy beside me was commenting aloud when the lin junjie's mtv-like commercial played, 'wah now play chinese mtv, cannot play trailers?' wah i felt like asking to shut the f up.

the movie full of touching moments and action scenes were great, feels like watching marvel vs capcom double duels. so noble for harry to sacrifice for his friend... even when we are desperate or in distress, we still can make the right choice. (rephrased)

like for me, i didnt punch or curse that guard :)

..:: 487. The One With Comparison ::..

talking about comparison, i am best at juxtaposing and complaining. first being a self-critic, i have the tendency to compare almost everything. i remembered in jc times, i was busy comparing life in hwa chong and in anderson, how i miss the culture, frenz, teachers in hwa chong... until my tutor told me i should stop comparing and life would be better for me...

then in army, i compare myself with my peers. i guess the competitive me made comparison a source of motivation for me. apparently, i received less bonus than my friend. I was quick to conclude that i sucked and after my one year of what-i-thought-i-did-well turned out to be a reality that smacked me hard. Now i have to force myself to think that the result is not important, what is more important is what i have achieved.

Being a human was supposed to be easy but expectations and comparisons have definitely made it harder. For me, being skinny is not what i wanted, i choose to eat a lot but i cannot help it if i cant grow fat. Girls tell me, guys look better if they are fit, i was like 'duh'. If only i have the mass to start with? 'Fat -> burn to muscles' is easy. 'Thin -> grow mass -> grow muscles' apparently is harder. Now even male singers not only have to worry about their vocals, they had to 'out-fit' others, if you have the chest, u flaunt it. if you have the abs, u show it in your album cover. it's fact of life i guess, sex sells. are these physical appearances beginning to overshadow character, ability? i guess quite a lousy example to cite cos being a celebrity, one is expected to have a whole package.

i just hate it when reports compare album sales. so what he yeow sun had sales that topped the charts and stefanie sun became 2nd? arent they both singaporeans? after all, yanzi still won best female in 金曲奖 :X

another comparison: SMU vs NTU. I have frenz in SMU who didnt really quite enjoy life there. The 'portrayed' outspoken students and the high involvement in class participation... SMU produces articulate students and stuff... they made it sound like NTU dont. i mean during interviews, if they choose articulate applicants, how hard is it for the school to train them? 12000 salary is like perhaps 1 or 2 graduates. the average could be so much lower. i am still proud of NBS, a well-known business school ... i had a fren who was conducting interviews and came across graduates applying for this finance job in her company. She screened through and mostly were (unsurprisingly) from the 3 universities. As expected SMU graduates came out to be articulate, but to my surprise, she told me when she questioned some about their knowledge and industry-related stuff, they werent as outstanding as those from NUS, NTU. I was happy to hear that but then it is what she told me, perhaps she knew i was from NBS.

dunno why i get so defensive over such stuff... anyway, going to collect my new passport and attend an exhibition. i dont like holidays :( i missed attending classes, meeting my frenz... i hate to work but i love the money.

Hongkong, here i come.

..:: 486. The One With 燕姿签唱会 yanzi autograph session ::..

it was at central mall... and crazy me went there during exam period. the session was scheduled to start at 3 but i had to be there at 1pm and i was already at the 3rd section away from the stage. i guess the die-hard fans really came in the morning. it was a bright and sunny SUN afternoon, i was amidst the crowd studying for my IT paper. i took a glance and about 1/2 was AT (ah tiongs, a term used by NTU students on people frm china) i know its really bad to give nicks but hey when u are part of the culture u just have to suck it up.

it was rather dreadful. you would expect to sit and wait, so i dont understand why the hell would a gal (sadly an AT) wear such a tight and short skirt. Of all things, she had to go sleeveless and she sat with both her legs on one side. her sweaty and sticky fleshy arm had to stick to my skin! i tried to shift away from her which proved to be 'fatal'. she got more space and decided to take picture of her friend who was beside her. Obviously she had to lean back ONTO me so her fren wouldnt have a bloody zoom up on her face. i swear i could have scissors and cut her hair. After my 1/3 (yes 2 more to go) ordeal, another AT in front was reading her sms and occasionally lean back and flip her hair. I was so glad i brought a hard cover book, it was really handy, i shifted front to block the gal and my left to block another, wah so fun -_-

when we stood up, all started to squeeze to the front. there was this AT couple beside me. The gal had went through the barricade and squeezed between me and her bf. at first i couldnt exactly see her, cos she didnt fall into my level of sight. i looked down and saw her 'playing' with her bf, teasing away. she kept nudging me and i wanted to pull her hair or chant some sutra. Why are people so insensitive, unaware of their actions? all didnt even bother to say sorry.

i was so glad i could see what was happening on the stage, poor girls. i feel sorry for u girls. i think they could only take head shots, i could actually offer them help but guess not.

ended at 5pm and wanted to sit down and rest but i guess going home to shower would be the wise choice.

btw yanzi's new album, against the light 逆光 is really nice. think her best album. i loved almost all the songs inside.

2 more days before going back to army. hopefully i get to touch ndp stuff and get free tickets. lol.

..:: 485. The One With Vacation ::..

havent blog for so long... didnt want to feel guilty cos i always spend lots of time blogging and not on studying. the moment i came back from finland, i felt like i was caught in a whirlwind. everything started piling and projects after projects...

just had my last paper. was quite relieved i didnt freak out for my accounting paper and it was rather do-able. my IT paper was quite bad, expected enterprise resource system to come out but i didnt memorise enough the features... had mental block and didnt elaborate as much. haiz. my biz law, i misread a 10m question. hopefully i can still get my A :( FM was rather easy but as usual finance not my cup of tea, expecting a B.

cant wait for new academic year to start, i wanna specialise human resource! but in the meantime, shall party. having 2 birthday parties to attend.

download tv programs in school super fast. shows like grey anatomy, CSI, ANTM, heroes, etc. i can finally pack my books. my room is so messy... really hope i can get a single room.

my hair is back to black and short :( ready to go back army.

..:: 484. The One With Adventures in Finland ::..

wanna say hi to my family... after the cny i really missed them alot... cos they are the closest people you can ever be with and they will stand by you and believe in you no matter what. that is not like some friends whom i thought are cool to hang out but stab you behind your back and spreading rumours. whatever basis they are on, i mean true friends would be concerned and wouldnt have their tongues wagging and i guess everyone is entitled to be sinful in the new year so i guess i shall forgive.

anyway thanks for those who are concerned and i am really a nice person for those who know me so appreciate that trust and i do have my career to worry about.

ok back to my adventures, before i indulge in my own world, i have to say i am pretty pissed with all the pressing matters... accounting project, fm quiz, biz law essay assignment, how come last sem i had so much tasks but i enjoyed all of them? Just checked my edveNTUre and saw the new IT project that we had to do on VISTA, a 3000-word essay???

after my trip to finland, i would appreciate singapore's 7% GST better... here 22% is crazy man. i missed the taxi rides in singapore and if i am going to stay for long, i would be bankrupt cos the food here is so ex! 1 euro is about 2 S$. so throughout the entries, go figure.

when i exited the airport, i was shocked by the temperature. -20 degrees, i have never been to a cold country let alone see snow. so my face felt like it was pressed against an iceberg. took a bus to central railway station to catch a tram back to hotel. the bus ride was 3.60 (S$ 7.20), there was just the beginning.

paid for this helsinki card which entitled you to unlimited bus and tram rides and free entry to places of interests. 50 euro for 3 days. then i went to this pizza buffet at FORUM, a local shopping centre. 7.50 euro and i just love buffets though not much variety.



then checked in at 2pm where i was desperate for internet access cos i need to send presentation to my group, but singapore time was like 8pm and i think i pissed them badly :( so sorry. i could only check in at 2pm :(



amazed by the lift, have to pull open the door, unlike singapore's automatic sliding doors. stayed in a hostel which was sufficient in its amenities plus it is cheap! so cold that i had to wear abt 5-6 layers.

day 2 started with audio city tour, where they drove us around and we just had to put on earphones... went to the senate square and saw this...



the whole lake was frozen!



went to the olympic stadium tower. climb like siao and the sight up there was worth it but freezing, my ears and nose almost dropped!





visited the national museum, it was rather big, from looking at stones, till fashion, education, etc.
i am glad i didnt have to study history in finland.



then went to a cafe where i got to try the famous napoleon cake. the filling tasted like wheat and oats but sweet with crispy crust on top. the cake itself is like 4 euros. had salmon salad for like 8 euros.



had a 3-course expensive dinner which cost about 120+ sing.
reindeer carpaccio hauhala goose liver
broiled white fish served with a lapland potato and crayfish pastry and sauce
white chocolate pastry served with cloudberry soup



took a 15 minute ferry ride from Helsinki market square to Suomenlinna, freezing cold, my nose felt like it was dropping off, especially so when i forgot my scarf.



came back in the afternoon, went to finnish parliament which was bigger than local one and i was intrigued by the electronic voting system... visited the post museum then another university museum, trying to make full use of the helsinki travel card.



took a train ride to rovanemi which is about 8 hrs. went to santa claus village which was so much fun - husky ride, snowmobile ride, photo with santa claus.







went to the igloo hotel and for the first night, i saw the northern light and stayed in a traditional snow igloo. it was super cold and i had to run around before tucking into the sleeping bag. second night, i stayed at a glass igloo where i can see the sky and stars... the staff vacuumed the snow so i can always have the perfect view...







my virgin experience in skiing and sledge rides was unforgettable... visited Tampere University of Technology... nice school, think the buildings look better than NTU but just smaller campus.

i miss Finland...

..:: 483. The One With My Best Birthday Gift ::..

eh. to be politically correct, i love all the gifts that i have received. cos somehow all were according to my taste. so thanks so much.

thanks shannen for the cute card and the vouchers to my fave esprit.
jj's mum for buying me a blue shirt from esprit.
my sis for the boxers
my sis for pizza
my mum and dad for $
samuel for the gift which i haven opened yet
and my fren for the big big cake? lol.

oh ya not forgeting those who sent their well-wishes... too many to list down but thanks alot, you guys have made my day by remembering my birthday

at about 1815, doorbell rang...



wah so big box. i was stunned but pleasantly surprised...

then i quickly opened and 'wow'



cant help but take a poser pic of it.

celebrated with my family which apparently too small to conquer the cake.



for the first time in 1 yr, i spent the most number of days at home during cny. lol.

my sister treated us to pizza :)



tml finland! cant wait. i haf a key to unlock all impossibilities :)

..:: 482. The One With I'm 21! ::..

wheeeeeee... welcome myself to the adulthood. as the accounting equation goes:

asset = liability + owner's equity.

i have increase in liability but no increase in asset. I guess in a way i have less money to give my parents cos i will most probably spend it on my other half? lol.

caught the first episode of amazing race-all stars, woke up at 9am specially to watch the live telecast. cos i am a rob-and-amber supporter. so sad john vito and jill got eliminated :( they were a great couple too. lessons learnt in this episode:

1. later flights do not mean later arrival time.
2. if unsure of the place, ask a person to drive and guide u there. do not depend on verbal directions

this yr ang pow not bad eh. maybe 21st bday plus going overseas... cny getting boring each year. cos my relatives getting lesser and lesser. last time visit cos there are senior relatives like grandma and stuff but now somehow the circle has shrunk.

cant wait to have dinner with my family. parents gonna cook and ordering pizza :P and receiving a mystery surprise gift :)

happy birthday to myself!!! :P wheeeeeeee...........

P.S: oh did u know britney spears shaved her head? now she's botak. bad hair day :X or no hair?

..:: 481. The One With Busy Day ::..

i need to collect my updated flight e-ticket, worried that they might close early. then have to collect some surprise, and i got my accounting project topic. yawnz. so sian to look at financial statements and have to derive so many things. lucky we managed to negotiate our fm quiz to only 6 chapters and it's MCQ. i have to extend my passport though it has 6 mths validity. i need to prepare my surprise. packed all my stuff and ready to go home tomorrow. need to take a cab home from school and i guess taxi fare is about 20+.

sian accounting project has peer appraisal and one of the criteria is attendance, sure mark down cos i cannot be present for meetings during the term break.

received an interesting mail from school admin:

Singapore Fashion Week 2007, to be held in October this year, wishes to appoint you as a host for their international buyers who will be coming to Singapore for The Designers Show.

Your services are required for three full days during the period of 12th to 18th October 2007. This is term time, but students who are selected will be excused from lessons.

Apart from earning pocket money of S$35 per day, you will get to play host to international guests, learn some business etiquette and protocol, and gain exposure to the fashion industry, merchandising, marketing and hospitality services. These are valuable experiences that will help you in your job search in future.

sounds interesting right?

felt lonely tonight. i wondered why...

..:: 480. The One With Outbreak ::..

hey, you might be wondering what outbreak is... I was so glad that this movie was screen during one of my lectures. i think i have mentioned about this module science or fiction - biology in popular media.

Outbreak: a movie produced in 1995, starring Dustin Hoffman, Rene Russo and Morgan Freeman (the last guy was the only one i recognised lol, if you have watched Bruce Almighty, one of the shows he starred in)

in the movie, the outbreak is caused by a fictitious strain (Motaba virus) that is similar but worse than Ebola virus. we then got to examine virus and the working environment of biosafety labs and identified the wrong terminology used in the movie for the bacteria and viruses. they did not follow the 'grammar' of scientific writing. They should use either general or scientific names. instead they use pneumococcus (general name for Streptococcus pneumoniae) and Salmonella (scientific). There was wrong classification of infectious agents into the wrong Biosafety levels.

I mean for a person who never step into a lab in my uni life, this was something interesting :) Then they mentioned haemorrhagic fever in Zaire, where internal bleeding occured and organs 'turned to mash'. Basically due to overall cell death, blood from eyes (bloody tears) and bleeding from nose. Kills in 2 or 3 days and mortality rate is 100% ...

shall not bore you with the details but in the middle of the show, the strain mutated and became airborne. very interesting show and super engaging. i bought macs and ate while the theatre was dark. lol. i love this module man :)

today valentine's day, wish everyone happy vdae :p all better get attached this year. enjoy love and being loved. not only by your parents :o saw a few frenz strangely holding hands in school, well today special i guess and i also bought my gal frenz some stuff. so malu to walk around the school with a balloon.



but afterall, i was sweet. not meh?

back to the dance floor, i mean seriously, can you imagine an old couple win the dance floor? comparing with US's So You Think You Can Dance? i mean nothing should stop them from trying but i just felt that if they are bound to be eliminated, i think all the effort they put in might just go down the drain. maybe they get the kick and sense of achievement from going thru the dance floor, that may be the case. Just find it weird, comparing the contestants of spore and US. Ours came in groups with so different genres, i mean are you going to belly dance all the way to finals? and the 'spider' couple with the lady being tossed all over, dont you find some moves kinda obscene, i was quite turned off looking at the uncle-auntie 'humping' at some moves. but still must applaud them for their courage, endurance and the moves (plus they are just frenz).

so i guess the dance floor is not really a competition for professional or aspiring dancers, it is more like some community centre dance competition with the opportunity to dance in front of national tv.

oh btw, i cant stop but giggle at the group 'jewelry', formed by three female china gals. quoted from one of the judges, 'there is something missing from your performance, the bar top'. they have no cohesiveness, dance steps that looked like what you do in clubs, really looked like seducing the ah cheks in the audience :X

did you happen to bypass cityhall? giving free hugs leh by gals. all the chee-ko-peks come back next year k :)

just realised i have to bring my accounting and financial mgt txtbook to finland. fuck. have quizzes once i touched down. happy today, i received a love postcard :) and at biz law tutorial, said something intelligent, bonus for my class participation, but more imptly, the tutor remembered me!

..:: 479. The One With Don't Feel Like Writing ::..

was watching nip|tuck. besides the gross scenes but this episode about air crash touched me. nancy (daughter) quarrelled with her mum and asked her mum to get out of her life. nancy asked her mum to take the earlier flight home instead. unfortunately, the plane crashed and her mum was scarred beyond recognition. as she was sharing her deepest thoughts and regret, her mum gasped for air. nancy held a pillow over her mum and soon she stopped breathing. i wondered whether she did that, cos she wanted to end her mum's suffering? the show ended with her going back to her apartment and in the living room, her mum emerged from the sofa.

no she was not dreaming, the rest is up to you to imagine.

the skin on my shoulders started to peel... that is what happened when you get sun burnt.

was watching victoria's secret fashion show. somehow most of the models looked alike lol. i was more interested in the themes of each 'display', the stage set-up, the music they played, the poses, the accessories that went with the 'inner beauty'

8 more days to finland! finally single-digit countdown.

..:: 478. The One With Memories ::..

was surfing through friendster and saw one of my men's profile and pix reminding me of my army days (though i am still in, now half-time). it reminds me of what drives me to join the army. the brotherhood and the capability of changing one's life. during pc (platoon comd) interview, i was able to find out what is troubling my guys and help them find source of motivation. i think i have mentioned before, but i still feel gratified by my platoon. many of whom had injuries and could actually choose to opt out for our final overseas exercise on medical grounds. However, they told me during the interview before the exercise that they wanna fight it for me, with the platoon and that would be their greatest achievement before they ord.



started on my birthday under the scorching sun at nee soon camp transit gap. under strength compared to other platoons and a few fighting fit had history of back injury so cant carry most of the stuff. they did it before midnight and as i had promised them, they could throw me into the gap since they had given me such a great teamwork as my birthday present.



this pic is taken at the end of our exercise in thailand. what you cant see, is the sweat, blood, pain, agony, injuries sustained throughout the 14 days. they were with me under the harsh weather, first day of mission, rained heavily and shivered under the chilly wind. went on to fight despite the lack of sleep. then met with river crossing at the first obstacle and we all ended up with blisters cos of soaked boots and some foot rot. then i was 'lucky' enough to got to execute a mission under my commanding officer for an ad-hoc block mission. i only got 30 mins to plan and was pretty stressed but hyped up, my sect comds instead of sleeping in the tonners came down and we had a strategic discussion and it saved a lot of time cos i did not need to explain to them again during orders.

walked 3km with blisters but in the end it was a 'thumbs up' by the CO and all would not have been possible without my platoon, small but mighty :)

i guess it was a great way for them to ord, knowing that the whole company got redcon 1 and being pc for the first time, under my great OC, i had learnt so much, not only tactics but also character building and planning skills that will bring me far. must dig out some pix to show my fellow PCs and OC. till then, ask not why i sign on, but what have you missed during your army days :)

..:: 477. The One With Being 21 ::..

mmm... my birthday is like 8 days away. being 21 is of course more than just being able to watch R21 movies. still figuring out what other stuff i can actually do when i turn 21. for one thing i know i can get my idd access. cant call my overseas friend, it is so troublesome to buy idd card. i have a few things i wanna achieve, perhaps i should list down to remind myself. For my 3 years in NTU, i hope to achieve a few things.

1. be in event comm for a national event (done, perhaps try again next year)
2. be in sub comm for at least 2/4 national events (trying out different portfolio)
3. be involved in an overseas community service project
4. be involved in grassroot commmittee (hopefully southwest? :P - to give back to the community)
5. have a public performance (dance)
6. be able to drive :(
7. complete my salsa classes
8. go for overseas exchange programme
9. move to my own house
10. go korea! honeymoon? lol

and still get good results!



visit: http://www.xphysique2007.ntusportsclub.com
it is a team event where you abseil, kayak, swim, run, climb, etc.


no further comments required, pretty obvious eh?

..:: 476. The One With Debrief ::..

oh well, pity my sis, now under a lot of pressure but hey things will be ok de :) i'll be there for u la. just give me a ring if you need help ba since i seldom at home physically.

had my surf and sweat debrief which ended with a bang. i was late :X cos mistook the time. but all the feedback and all the gratitude were given and received. successful event with loads of memories. the meeting ended with a scavenger hunt, literally. everyone dived to the pile of left-over goodie bags and 'kope' (take) whatever they wanted. some took chips, instant noodles. i took la, but thot they were not the most impt stuff. i was smarter, haha, took all the facial products and deodorants from nivea. enough for me to use for the rest of the year lo. tts how much i took :X

just some random snippets...
*how come i cant see you
*how come you talking to me in the dark

sweet dreams and i cant wait to fly to finland! 10 more days!
shall eat loads of ba kwa and pineapple tarts.

was studying biz law, reading is so tedious. sentence so long and had to decipher what they trying to bring across... like this,

Chao hick Tin JA, delivering the judgement of the court, held that 'where an allegation of fraud had been considered and adjudicated upon by a competent foreign court, the foreign judgement may be challenged on the ground of fraud only where fresh evidence has come to light which reasonable diligence on the part of the defendant would not have uncovered and the fresh evidence would have been likely to make a difference in the eventual result of the case'.

phew. adapted from SAL Annual Review 2002, my further reading on contractual law.

..:: 475. The One With Surf & Sweat 2007 ::..

whole of friday was busy running around zapping all the stuff required for the event. did until 3am and i woke up at 7am. had to rush down to pass my friend tags. so when i reached harbourfront, the cab fare was like 30 bucks.

started unloading all the 'stores' which were a lot! big boxes of goodie bag items and our own stuff like queue poles, tables, sound system, too many to mention. after what is considered warm-up, we have to re-shift all the boxes to prepare for goodie bag packing. using a supply-chain like system, we packed 1600 goodie bags in a few hours and then came transporting bags from the roads to the tent at the beach. not possible to do the goodie bag packing on the beach cos you wouldnt want the items to be stained with sand right? also no canvas big enough for us to work on...

then came setting up the individual stations... my sub comm not there so me and another female main comm had to move all the stores over to our holding area. luckily my three frenz were there to help.

then my guy friend came like 5+ where almost everything is done. so he was beside me complaining why i have asked him to come when there's nothing much to do. i was rather pissed off as i had so much to do and i already told them by evening, almost everything would have been done and he was nagging at me, saying that he should have listen to his friend not to come and stay at home to study. if you were me, how would you feel? super fed up but had to contain my anger.

during the debrief, i was called out a few times cos they needed me to do a lot of printing stuff and re-hang some banners. my frenz came over after meeting and said 'wah you got so much thing to do, i hear your name until sian'. i was like 'glad that you know, some tasks i cannot allocate to others, have to do it myself'. then luckily they offered to help, i felt a lot better.

then face paper shortage so i had to wait till they went back school to collect more stuff and papers. in the end, i completed my tasks at around 1am, went for a freaking cold shower then slept around 2+ and woke up 5am when the briefing started.

*no roll call, so sad :( but i was saving my phone battery also lar.

the event went smoothly after a bit of chaos at the start cos the participants for the first few details were late. so we were thinking whether to disqualify them or wait cos the first 2 details, no one appeared. they kept pushing us to meet the timing, but i guess it got better after that.

using the loudhailer, i was enjoying shouting and being the most 'kao pei' guy. calling for each detail to report and giving briefing that was internalised and so fast until the participants looked blank, hearing what i have rattled. so sad there were more hunks than babes over at my area... and most babes were actually from the mixed categories or lovers' challenge.

after the event, it was packing of stores again. loaded everything up again to the 4 big lorries. ended about 9 and back in school, it was unloading of stores all over again. really sian. but bo bian. i totally concuss-ed when i went back my hall. cui ~ no energy to even type and talk to my ...

friends. lol. *claps* end of surf and sweat. phew. now gotta catch up with school work. pix to upload soon. too bad nvr take a lot of personal pictures :( but have a pic of my backdrop :)



singlet back view :)

..:: 474. The One With Uber Tired ::..

i am so fucking tired. no strength to type.

disclaimer: fucking emphasises how tired i am. nothing offensive.

received a surprise email. :X read like thousand times.

..:: 473. The One With Damn Pissed ::..

wah. damn pissed and feeling FUCKED UP!

i remember asking my frenz whether they would like to join surf sweat sub com... telling them specifically you need to keep 3,4th free and i remember saying 3rd cos need to pack goodie bags and stuff. now 3 out of my 6 frenz pang seh... say they cannot make it on time for sat.

WTF??!?

firstly, i was busy the whole day running around just to get stuff printed. not easy, cos those stuff need to print are everywhere, i have to hunt for it. Mostly, i needed to do up signages and print. used up whole ream of my own paper to print. run around library to get it blown up to A3 and to student activities centre to sort out and see what i have missed out.

then my frenz kept asking me 'how tomorrow?' i got no time to think of such contingencies. fuck. somemore, tml out of my goodwill, i have to take a cab down to pass my frenz entry tags so they can get in free. most people if they missed the meeting in the morning, they would just have to pay like 2 bucks to go in. i dunno why am i trying to be a nice guy and i feel that i have been taken advantaged of. everyone is meeting at SAC tomorrow at 8am. i have to wake up early catch a cab down to deliver the tags. for fuck. i feel unjust.

and 2 frenz cant come in the morning cos they are delivering flyers for canvassing. WHAT? i mean i told u 3rd and 4th to be kept free and if you got genuine reasons like my other friend who had birthday, i still can take it. and the delivering of flyers is planned by themselves. so what does this mean?

firstly, i am not the biggest fuck so i dun get to call shots. by not appearing, my seniors will bug me and ask why my sub comms are not there... then they will question how do i choose my sub comms... dry run never come. D-1 also never come.

as for my friend with birthday, i warned her that her bdae on that day and whether she can. then she assured me 'can'... then she told me that she could only make it before 9pm. WTH? 9pm? everything set up liao, you can just come here and sleep lo.

i mean people can actually imagine all the tentages and banners and stage, etc to just appear overnight? somemore now no points system so we are already getting min number of helpers.

why is this happening to me? i hate it when i cant blame my friends nor can i take the blame totally...

just glad that some1 helping me to get frenz to substitute, but i guess it's quite late now and asking them to appear at 1045am is wishful thinking.

i'm so dead tml.

..:: 472. The One With Overloaded ::..

*it's amazing how you can speak right to my heart

sun event but so many things to be done! weekends burnt.

1. biz law tutorial (my turn to present to the class)
2. accounting tutorial
3. study for accounting test
4. communication module - write email assignment
5. comms module - prepare presentation
6. financial mgt tutorial (have to prepare cos need to present to the class)
7. do up and print signages

went to buy my winter wear... 130 bucks :( big hole in pocket. then realised have to fork out money first to print event tag cos the original guy too expensive. :(

former changi general hospital is turning into a spa-cum-resort. lol. imagine u in a jacuzzi and saw a reflection of a soldier. eeee....

*without saying a word, you could like up the dark

..:: 471. The One With Valentine ::..

from 12am, been trying to log on to the network hub connecting several laptops and also trying to tap on the weak wireless network in the canteen. then only a few people working on the registration as not everyone knew how to use the software nor what to do. some started watching video, some played CS all the way till about 5am where a few had left.

Then we started to send emails out and by 630am, we finally went back. poor me promised to help my friend print lecture notes before hand, i had to make it to the 830am lecture no matter what. so i lay on my bed for 45 mins before i got a wake up call from someone :) first thing in the morning that i heard :) perked me up to go to sch...

ok may sound like i am complaining, but towards the end, i could feel that we really want to help each other out and the team spirit was there. so i am glad i did not go back early...

debbie's birthday. with her bf. so sweet


backdrop finally out!


doing my own event tag :P


valentine day coming... what are you getting for your partner?

i mean girls who are looking forward to being pampered, be spolit should be ditched! read in a news article, a few of the NTU girls said public transport is not an option o_O gulps. so demanding, no wonder some of them are still single... there is one even worse, she wants no less than an extravagant dinner at Equinox or cable-car dining. and the statement ended 'She is currently unattached'. like duh?

a typical girl would be pleased by surprise. no need for expensive surprise. it could be composing a love poem or song and if you cant sing and you sing, hey, it's a plus point :) i know its cliché but it's from the heart, priceless. i can have all the money to buy gifts to all the girls but i dun prepare and put in effort to do something for everyone, so get the hint?

well as for guys, i guess the most important is to enjoy what he had planned, being egoistic guys, most important is to make him feel appreciated and wanted. dun play mind games la ~ dun drop hints and expect us to know what you want. if you want that kind of guy, find santa... love cannot be measured by how much he is willing to spend and dun compare your boyfriends with your friends' cos the only way to make them jealous is to show them how much you guys love each other and how simple true love can be. no need gimmicks, no need sweet talk or accessories.

of course, if surprise comes from both sides that would be good cos you cant expect guys to come up with surprise right? when we run out of ideas, you say we are boring? not romantic? sheesh...

like the old saying goes, when you are in love, you should make everyday a valentine's day.

..:: 470. The One With Cake ::..

is a big cake on 21st birthday a neceessity? come to think of it, my birthdays so far, never had birthday cake before. maybe i had but not big or special enough... i always thot 21st bdae should be a blast.

btw i woke up this morning and realised i got 20 sandfly bites on my right leg and 10 on my left. a gift from sentosa. arghz. super itchy. one stratch can hit so many spots lo...

side track...

SINGAPORE: Nanyang Technological University's Master of Business Administration (MBA) programme has been ranked the best in Singapore and third in the Asia Pacific region, according to The Financial Times (FT)'s listing of top MBAs in the world.

The programme was conferred a similar ranking by the Economist Intelligence Unit in October last year.

NTU says its MBA programme has also received accolades from other well-known universities and global names, with its graduates seeing an average salary increase of 110 percent three years after graduation.

The FT listing also puts NTU's Nanyang Business School in 67th position, above well-known global names like Washington University's Olin School, the University of British Columbia's Sauder School of Business and Melbourne Business School of the University of Melbourne. - CNA/ir

..:: 469. The One With Dry Run ::..

was at sentosa at 830 early in the morning. yawnz. didnt sleep much and was drizzling. my subcom only 2/5 came :( haiz. disappointing. but really appreciate regina and jeremy to come. think they enjoyed themselves too. my other 2 frenz were supposed to be fake participants. lucky i got 1 substitute and another came from the main comm, if not sure kena 'gan' :(

but was quite pissed off cos i dun like to play mind games. one of the comm people was saying this to me 'eh john, today the sun very bright hor, why u in the shade?' then having pple ard him giggling, i feel awkward. what did i do wrong, or not do?

i mean sometimes i may think too much, but it's either 1. they find me slack and was hinting me to help others or 2. i was chatting with my friend who apparently was chio. i meant each of us have our own area to take care and if you are unhappy about anything just tell me straight and not say something so vague and laugh among yourselves. and for your record, i did help in the retrival of stores while more people were sitting and talking under the shelter.

another thing that always pissed me off was that somehow somewhere sure got people give me such a comment: wah john, you very skinny leh. i know it's inevitable ... but i think i had enough of that. i mean YOU think i dun wan to eat? YOU think i do nothing about my weight? YOU know how much food i buy to feed myself? How much YOU spend for food and the no of meals YOU eat? I bet i spent at least twice. it is like telling a person, wah you are very ugly leh. as if the person never bothers to do something. not trying to be mean here but sometimes i feel that they should grow really FAT and then they will appreciate that i have such a high metabolic rate and ask me how to eat and eat and not grow fat.

..:: 468. The One With Being Young ::.

was quite upset today. had a few of my frenz in my surf sweat sub comm... but later having dry run and some of them told me they 1. dun wan/dun feel like going cos nothing much to do, 2. cannot go.

i mean they have no obligation and i cant force them to go but i feel it is very hard for me... firstly if they dun go, it doesnt reflect good on me cos they are the ones i chose to be my sub comm... i also cant just tell my main comm, my sub comm cannot make it as i have told them long ago. haiz. headache...

anyway today is debbie's birthday, so wish her a happy 21st birthday, yeah not only u are older by one yr, u are older than me :X oops. went to aloha loyang, travel from west to east then back again. all for u leh. lol.

then boarded a taxi, the uncle asked me whether i am nervous about my results. i was like o_O... then i told him i am in uni. he told me 'oh i thought u jc student'... lol. first time someone told me i look that young :P happy :)

serenade with a song :)

..:: 467. The One With CSI ::..

No, mob tv does not provide CSI episodes but one of my modules did! lol. attended the lecture on forensic science techniques...

Excerpts taken from episodes: Pilot & Cool Change (Holly's case - Disc 1), Boom (Nick's arrest -Disc 4), Table Stakes (Pirahna case- Disc 4) and Justice Is Served (Porphyria case - Disc 6)

1st video: presence of maggots on a dead body so the forensic officer mentioned 'pupal stage 3 of larval metamorphosis... then we examined the facts of the metamorphosis of a housefly and concluded that he made a false statement...

also learnt DNA fingerprinting and revisited A level bio... then the 3rd video showed a clear skin epithelial cell which was not possible cos samples taken from a murderer's weapon (rope) were contaminated.

then the porphyria case - reads: legend of the vampire. that girl featured eats human parts. symptoms include skinlesions, increased hair growth on areas like forehead (werewolf)...

then went for surf sweat meeting from 7pm-3am :) was quite troubled when i saw a note passed down to my partner. apprarently i was wrong in a way to use the laptop while in the meeting (i was doing the backdrop and download better image). i would appreciate if the note was directed to me, why is there a need to pass to a senior to ask her to inform me not to use the laptop?

pissed off... wanted to vent my anger... but had to be more understanding...

..:: 466. The One With Webcam ::..

watched mobtv again and discovered that at clementi ave 2 among the heartland, there is actually a beach volleyball court. yeah, next time can go there and play.

then after which can go clementi arcade to try 'the daily scoop'. serve very nice ice cream and waffles.

hee.. today connection finally up and have webcam session. so happy. took a few snapshots can use as blackmail :X yeah. cant sleep tonite...

..:: 465. The One With Mob TV ::..

wah mob tv has become my companion... watched fact or fiction again by kym ng finding out how true some of the internet claims that were made. i was quite shocked to know that coke (they use black coloured soft drink w/o label so can be pepsi, sarsi, etc) to derust nails and coins and it really worked. when added with mentos (the sweet) the reaction was a sight to behold.

watched the arena too where students from sec sch debate over certain issues each week. first episode was on 'good looks triumph over effort' with preposition team from loyang sec sch with 3 gals vs raffles institution. very interesting to watch but really admire them for the courage to be on tv and remain calm to deliver and rebutt... in the end, loyang sec won... surprisingly... but by a small margin 2 points

then when u watch chij st nic (preposition) and mgs...first speakers were like in a catfight. motion was about ' selfish, yes we are. our youth are driven by self-centredness alone'. mgs won by huge margin... i think SNGS lost it when they blurred the line between self centered and self interest.

did registration stuff for surf sweat... everyone so into soccer in the lounge. i was the weird one who wanted to get the work done asap. went back feeling weird. but happy to be on the phone with ... hunting for an apartment... :P

..:: 464. The One With $20 ::..

Sometimes we just need to be reminded!
A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked,

"Who would like this $20 bill?"

Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this."

He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.

He then asked, "Who still wants it?"

Still the hands were up in the air.

Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"

And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.

He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.

"Now, who still wants it?"

Still the hands went into the air.

My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.

The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE.

You are special- Don't EVER forget it.

was watching mobtv, got some stuff can intro you guys. watching hdb tai tai by kym ng and chen liping...

if you like chocolate... you can visit:

http://juliustrufflesorder.blogspot.com
http://chocabloc.biz

if you stay in sembawang, there is a restaurant at sembawang park that serve great food and dessert. classy :)

its at beaulieu house, 117 beaulieu road

..:: 463. The One With Missing ::..

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..:: 462. The One With KBox ::..

yeah i subscribed to mobtv. can catch up on all the drama and variety shows. video streaming super fast :)

today managed to change one of my tutorial class, yeah can get to see my old tutorial mates :)

today got my supplements delivered :) whey protein oO

went for my monthly retail therapy. my lucky hands picked a coupon from esprit - 18% off regular bottoms :) i bought 2 tops though. finally no need to shop alone, so miserable. then went for a surprising kbox which i longed to hear someone sing. pleasantly surprised and i beginning to like oldies :P



i withdrew from my dance routine though cos of commitment problems. always clash with meetings... but nvm, sure got other chances.

this week is full of excitement :) dun touch me on friday!

..:: 461. The One With Blood Diamond ::..

yesterday went to watch blood diamond at the cathay. saw someone familiar and she said i look different cos of the way i styled my hair... wah my clay paid off... i dun really put in effort to style my hair until i coloured my hair. gained unexpected attention :X i suddenly thought of a new resolution. i am going for lasik surgery this year! i dun wan contacts nor specs anymore. anyway its 2K plus, my july bonus can offset the costs.

anyway back to the movie, it was great :) u definitely look at diamonds in a different light.

'In america, it's called bling bling. But in africa, it's bling bang'

i thought how true...

yesterday ate quite a lot, though i was expecting dessert... staying in hall, i am always too lazy to take bus out of school to eat. need to buy new clothes, dumb bells, skype phone...

..:: 460. The One With Shack ::..

my schedule is so packed! i am having dance practices every mon, wed, thur, fri, sun. and my surf sweat meeting is on thur so had to give up one practice and meetings maybe on mon, wed. did i mention about the meeting that lasted from 7pm to 3am? prior to the meeting was writing envelopes to send to past participants frm 3-7pm. basically stayed in the same room for 12 hrs! tutorials start next week so not in the mood to do... my first ntu dance performance on wed... nervous...

mon booth decoration starting again. and mon night got dance... think also having door-to-door publicity for surf and sweat in dorms... feeling tired almost everyday.

oh ya. thursday was memorable. got a surprise gift. keep me warm in the night :) so sweet. best afternoon nap ever.

sun must go buy costumes le :(

..:: 459. The One With Lectures ::..

it was the add-drop period for ntu students, meaning you can choose to opt for modules or drop those you dont like or even change classes.

i didnt think i want to take up an elective this sem. wanna relax. in the end, my friend told me there is this elective where they watch videos and is mcq for exams. i took a look:

BS803 SCIENCE OR FICTION? - BIOLOGY IN POPULAR MEDIA

In Jurassic Park, dinosaurs are cloned from fossils. In the Matrix, human brain powers are exploited to provide "electricity" for the machines. In Jewel in the Palace, a dark political plot was planned based on a Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM) principle. In C.S.I., a scraping from the skin helped to solve the crime. Biology has found its way into popular media, but how much of these are based on real Science, and how much are purely Fiction? The scientific authenticity of such screen work will be the focus of this course. During each session, excerpts from movies/TV serials will be shown that (supposedly) are based on biological principles. The principles will then be explained and the "Science or Fiction?" aspect of the films discussed. Multiple-choice format will be adopted for the examination.

when i saw tv shows, i was excited but when i saw jewel in the palace, i didnt hesitate to 'bid' for the module. initially there was no vancanies, then i kept refreshing and clicking to 'add'... in the end some1 dropped and i got it! so happy...

anyway, this sem modules so dry.. sian.

financial management
accounting
business law
IT
communication management fundamentals

biz law lecture was interesting... the lecturer shared with us his travelling experience and law in different countries but the tutorial has to read 8 pages of essay to do!

so caught up with work. having dance practices like 3 times a week and surf and sweat meeting like twice a week. no time for love arh! these few days felt tired and weak. maybe used to slping 12 hrs...

oh. i got my bonus. so happy. 10th each month is happy day for all guys in green. (minus navy and airforce)

..:: 458. The One With My First Dye ::..

no school today. went to camp to settle admin. then went back to school for booth manning debrief. later my shift... went to kimage with my fren to cut and colour my hair, for the first time! very happy with my hair.




sian biz law lect at 830am. can wake up anot? then accountacy lect. hopefully can stun pple :X in a good way.

..:: 457. The One With School Reopen ::..

yea... finally i can scream 'school reopens'! cant wait to see my friends in lectures and make new friends. with timetable so slack, i need to find more things to do. currently mon free, only 2-4 hours each day. dunno should i cramp to get mon, fri free? *dun hit me* all you non-business students :X

didnt do much retail therapy (some1 actually asked me what it meant? *faints). haiz, no new clothes for school... trying to save $ see finland what i can buy except nokia handphones.

this sem i could actually learn salsa! and i aiming to gym at least 3 times a week! while most of the students going school tml, i am going back camp to do outprocessing admin. how sad. and i am going to cut and colour my hair! hopefully when i go school on tue can stun people. in a gd way.

went to buy something weird in the morning. malu. lol. ok not condoms, thank you for guessing. then had quickie, i mean quick bite before going to gym. so bloody crowded. i am going to make reimbursement for my hostel fees and get 1k + richer. hopefully they give me my salary on 10 jan :X

..:: 456. The One With Song ::..

cant get this song out of my head... by dreamz fm. kinda explain my feelings... why am i so emotional? kinda weird but i feel my energy draining away faster than i want to...

Had a drive driven by your love
But when you messed around
i lost the drive i found

i thought you needed, needed someone true
but you changed your mind
or have i failed you

wish you been careful with my heart
but you tore it apart
and broke an angel's heart

i guess the truth hasnt end somehow
but i am living proof
of what love is about

it's hard holding you, loving you, losing you
it's sad to be true and be fooled by you
i dont know (i dont know)
i gotta know
should i stay or should i go

you played me on, played me like a clown
but i feel for you
even though i'm down
my heart is heavy, heavy like a rock
but i am so amused
you're still in my thoughts

it's hard holding you, loving you, losing you
it's sad to be true and be fooled by you
i dont know (i dont know)
i gotta know
should i stay or should i go

*what am i to you?*

sarah jessica parker mentioned:
'how can you be in a relationship when you are sleeping around?'



today was 'summoned' by somebody that i had to go see my boss who is a major. quoted,
'may i know where were you since yesterday? we might want to put you as missing or AWOL if you still fail to respond my call. the possible offence might affect your study and future. Cc to jaslyn'

dont you feel it's such a threatening message? i just put my hp silent and was busy with my meeting and saw this message and got stunned.

i mean since when sms have such thing like 'cc to whoever', the new 'in' thing?

after my surf sweat meeting which started at 3pm to write addresses on envelopes for past participants, the official meeting started at 7pm and ended at 3am. i had to wake up at 6am to rush to camp to see the major. while walking to camp, i was super worried what will happen to me... had to run into the camp...

lucky the officer was understanding. he requested me not to explain. lol. just gave me some advice to avoid such situation. i heaved a huge sigh of relief.

i'm really blessed to have so many people around me supporting me. like my dar who called me at 6am to wake me up in case i oversleep. so sweet to stay up till 6am to call me. also wanna thank my surf sweat fellow publicity officer, lavarne for showing me the ropes and guiding me so patiently...

then took a day off to go for pre dry run for surf sweat. something happened but shant elaborate. went there to do my part, some ran, some cycled, the rest fed mosquitoes as marshals.

..:: 455. The One With New Year ::..

harlow to all :) happy new year 2007. as usual every new year i changed my blog skin. gosh, each year seemed to pass even faster. no need to explain i love chocolate and this year i am hoping it will make me fat.

2006 started off with me taking the saf scholarship and embarking on a military life. everyone questioned my move. as far as you may think the system is screwed up or NS is a waste of time, i still feel i could do my part and be someone who can try and change the system, even though i may be a small fry. i still enjoy knowing more people and changing lives.

greatest moments of 2006:

1. being platoon comd for 30SCE delta platoon 12.
2. getting a mission to build bridge on my birthday and setting a new record with my down-strength of specialists and men.
3. my company getting redcon 1 for our etep.
4. travelled to taipei and fell in love with the place.
5. got into NTU NBS.
6. participated in sports camp by NTU sports club
7. knowing pumbaa
8. knowing tutorial frenz
9. x'mas eve dinner
10. getting reasonably good results

2007 proves to be yet another exciting year.

1. surf and sweat 2007 happening on 4 feb. i am one of the 2 publicity officers in the main comm. the comm is great with a few seniors whom i learnt a lot from.

2. going finland :P and get frostbite

3. danceworks

4. biannual dance concert by NTU-Modern Jazz Dance Club

by the way speaking of danceworks, i felt blessed to have frenz who thought of me even though i missed the 2 dance classes. one of my guy friends msged me and asked whether i am keen to join them in danceworks and even made a trip down to my area to get my copy of my IC.

this year, my batch of 86 guys are matriculating to universities. lol. and i'm their senior! really looking forward for school to start. i wanna see my frenz. need to buy clothes to wear for school :(

this year is the year of pig. got affected by sleeping disease from someone :X snoozing like at least 12 hours a day.

..:: 454. The One With New Year ::..

mmm... just wondering how would u feel if some1 cheated on you? i'm still confused whether am i keeping the hope alive? or am i just stupid to ignore the signs?

in life i guess there are not many things you can have 2nd chance. i guess i gave 2 and definitely my final one. may god give us strength to fight all odds.

anyway went to watch death note marathon and it was definitely an amazing show. didnt expect so much twist and probably one of the best movies i have watched in year 2006. besides watching, had a little something extra. i almost could not catch the show...

new year countdown was spent eating steamboat and enjoying some 'family' time. i just ate non-stop, perhaps i was bored? or maybe i was deep in thought...

i will draw up my new year resolutions soon, though people said you make to break them. lol.

is there really true love? are you loving someone without restriction? are you really letting down your guard or you are too afraid to get hurt? in life and games, you know that being too defensive will hinder you in making a step forward. Don't wait for things to happen, cos time dont wait for you. If you missed the boat, you'll regret it.

..:: 453. The One With Fantasies ::..

last night met up with pumbaa... for belated xmas gathering and gift exchange...

gals with their presents:


guys with their presents:


together pic:


whee... went to camp early in the morning, but that was not the exciting part, it was the 1 hr sleep that was so comforting while it was raining outside.

it is scary and yet upsetting to know someone's fantasy becomes your nightmare.

food for thought:

When you are young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then you grow up and learn to be cautious, You could break a bone or heart. You look before you leap. Sometimes you don’t leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. In life, there is no safety net. when did it stop being fun and start being scary?

Whatever it is, i am glad to have someone to catch me when i fall.

and vice versa of course.

P.S: watching sex and the city, i found a new meaning of 'tea bags' :P

..:: 452 . The One With Being Pissed Off ::..

woken up by a call by an aged man asking why i wasnt in camp :( i hate being caught in a situation whether to tell the truth...

truth: i have done my work and i have nothing to do in the office. plus, i would not want to sit in the office and rot

what he wanted: me to be in the office so as i'm 'accountable' under him. whatever happens to me, ya da ya da... u noe the rest.

what he offered: 'off' meaning you-can-no-need-to-work instead of me 'going missing'

what i wondered: do i need to spell it loud that why dont you give me 'off' now? i have completed my work earlier than scheduled and done it well. when are you giving me the 'offs' you mentioned? i will be starting school next week and what the hell i need the 'offs' for when i cant clear them?

period.

..:: 451. The One With Santa's Present ::..

yeepie... santa made me someone's present? lol. though i didnt appear in a sock. so glad i made special appearance :) and hopefully more to come.

had great time today. got to know new frenz :P it was nice sitting down and chatting even though it was raining the whole day.

sex talk of the day: (censored)

thinking of getting fucked when she was pregnant,

Miranda: Will the dick dent the baby?
Carrie Bradshaw: Where do you think dimples come from?

sorry if you found it offensive :P

..:: 450. The One With Results ::..

someone's results were out today and i guess i was more worried.

whatever the results were, i always told myself results are not the most important thing. i had my fair share of bad results and some due to me not studying, while some not studying because of other reasons. depression, the feeling of giving up, feeling hopeless, felt there was no need to study, and so many more.

who do not want to have good results? but when circumstances dont allow, i dont get what i wished for. sometimes it is because i had too high expectations, sometimes i dont even know what i am doing during the exams and hoping i can score well. my jc years were screwed up. firstly, i gave up on myself, no motivation to study... it was a trip downhill and when i 'woke' up and finally wanted to change... it was too late, i could only salvage whatever i could, but not good enough.

but i always believe life will always take a different turn if you are positive enough. recently checked out meaning of a word, d***m: belief in a God who created the world but has since remained indifferent to it.

i choose to believe otherwise. at least not the indifferent part. when there's hope (will), there's a way. there are so many possibilities and alternatives in the path that is untravelled.

when i got my results, didnt dare to tell my parents :( scared they were be too disappointed. ever since i was in secondary school, i had developed the competitive nature. i always wanted to go all out to go into medicine. then when i could not make it, i often ask myself, am i really stupid - trying to be what i never could be? or did i not try hard enough?

i told my uncle and he laughed at me, 'wah with your results, you go study chinese medicine la'. i was heartbroken, devastated...

in the end i told my mum, thinking that she will be disappointed as she always had high expectations of me. it wasnt the case. she sat down and consoled me. she told me 'there are a lot of tests in your life you have to take, things just dont turn out the way you hope this time round.' i never felt that comforted. my mum who had only secondary education could say that to me.

sometimes results dont mean everything. sometimes what you need maybe just someone who cares and listens to you. sometimes you just need to believe yourself and give yourself another chance, even when you think that there are no more chances.

true enough, from the thought of me never ever making to a university, i had offers for 2 scholarships, one in teaching, other in saf. why give up on hope yourself, when god has not? ok, maybe not god, but could be anyone...

i probably got into the university not because of results but of my other attributes. and i thought i should be proud of myself too. sometimes failures are hard to 'swallow' or rather accept, it is probably because you feel that there are others judging you. i have learnt to go easy but of course not giving myself excuses for not doing well but believing that gloating over results is not worthy.
as much as you may feel that your case is worse than mine, you are not alone. confide to someone and dwelling on depression wont make things better.

walk on and you will be pleasantly surprised :)

P.S: there are other things you might be good in. that's why i love to go to less developed countries to do community work, it makes me feel how blessed i am and how much i have take things for granted. like for my friend who had tutored a sec sch boy and he is doing well... 'Hopefully he can change for the better with the positive influence i had'... we do have our strengths :)

i'm surprised by my emotional entry today. my 2 cents worth.

..:: 449. The One With Christmas Eve Dinner ::..

had the best time of my life...

had dinner with my family... at jurong point crystal jade... all paid by me! close to 200 bucks, most ex dinner i paid for, but for family, it's definitely worth it.

then another fren of mine... so long haven eaten turkey breast meat from the whole turkey b4... dined and wine and ice cream cake :P

apart from this, sex and the city really brought up issues faced by people, be it sex or relationship... one episode about S & M (sadism and masochism - sadomasochism), reads: interaction, esp. sexual activity, in which one person enjoys inflicting physical or mental suffering on another person, who derives pleasure from experiencing pain with stuff like whip and leather and tying up.

mentioned by sarah jessica parker:
there is a fine line between pleasure and pain. a relationship without pain is a relationship not worth having. To some, pain implies growth. But how do we know when the growing pains stop, the pain-pains take over. how do you know when enough is enough?

when she experienced her breakup,

'you said u love me, what does it hurt so fucking much. he might have the whip, i was the one who tied myself up. tied myself to a man who was terrified of being tied down.'

i thought... kinda true eh and how it links to the SM theme. lol.

cheers.

P.S: i havent took photo with my family since secondary school :(
and i gained weight! pls let me be FAT! so i can train... give me 10kg! :P

..:: 448. The One With Heartache and Headache ::..

heartache... headache... depression... withdrawal symptoms... sudden mood swings... what happen to me?

what does love means? isnt it treasure, tolerate and accept each other?

..:: 447. The One With Candy Empire ::..

before that, yesterday i was onboard a train heading to camp in peak hour period... then this 'private' from sispec (easily recognised as he got a different epaulette)... i held my breath cos i also was in uniform... next thing when he saw me, ...

he saluted and greeted me 'good morning sir'.

i gasped... the train was so packed and those around me turned and looked at me... wah paiseh.

i think opening a candy shop can really make big bucks... i saw those queueing in front of me had bought sweets and chocolate worth of 100+ dollars... especially now is christmas season... even girls who diet will also eat some sweets and would give up carboh ydrates and proteins for chocolate...

i was one of the victims today... hopefully those who get my chocolates will enjoy eh?

went for islandwide publicity for my sports club event... tiring but my job is almost done! waiting for posters to be up, singlets to be printed and setting up booths in school :)

bought new pair of shoes yest! chosen by ...

..:: 446. The One With Sex & the City ::..

went for outing... the usual one.



btw, the india doha female runner got striped of her medal cos she failed her gender test! omg, talk about weirdest tests on earth.

was at bukit panjang plaza ntuc buying food... then saw kiasu singaporeans in action! saw one couple prying open all the available kiwis(packed in a box like strawberries)... choosing those good ones and transfer into one box. sick.

then at the fuji apples section, one of the staff brought out a crate of new apples... a few started to crowd around the staff... picking the apples straight from the crate... never even give the auntie a chance to put the apples on the shelves...

surf and sweat island wide publicity starts later! check out ripcurl shops. those who have blogs please message me, so i can pass u a copy of the poster, hopefully can decorate ur blog at the same time advertise for me :P

cheers

..:: 445. The One With Surf N Sweat Poster ::..

yeppieee.... my poster is out :) nice nice? anyway remember to support my event! will inform you guys when the website is up... those beach lovers, a must-go event! babes and hunks...



finalised copy!



and our zo-card!



sorry the front not available... dunno why cant load :( but ready to see them on the shelves :)

oh btw caught charlotte's web... quite a ok movie. same like the storybook but main focus is on the spider spinning the few words and the bond between wilbur and charlotte... other animals in the farm poked fun at templeton (the rat)...

..:: 444. The One With Randomness ::..

random entry... now waiting for ju-on 2 to screen on tv. sure freak out... watching alone in hall... today in camp really zo bo (do nothing)... slept in office till 4pm sign a few more cards then sayonara...



so nice... they made a chop for me.. lol.

anyway next week is island wide publicity for my national event... surf and sweat 2007! happening on 4 feb sun at tanjong beach, sentosa! 16 different categories... you can join the main event, surf (easy use hand to 'surf' while u lie on top of the surfboard) and run or ride (a bike)... got side events like beach volley, soccer, touch rougby, frisbee... beach hunk and babe...



find out more from me!

anyway show starting... must go under my blanket liao. ciao.

..:: 443. The One With Shopping & Movie ::..

whee.... finally did some retail therapy... but u noe it feels different when u do with someone who makes your heart skip a beat... didnt know shopping can be so exhilarating... running ard the malls just to buy clothes before the shops close... had great 'harvest'... spent in total about 400+ not including meals... hole in the pocket but very fulfilling to the heart and soul. this kind of feeling you cant buy it with $.

bought some winter coat for my finland trip... went zara, levis... the food in the big o restaurant is kinda orgasmic... bacon wrapped chicken... so sinful but very delicious.. yummy...


then went to catch 'the holiday', late night movie... very nice !! so sweet... those lovey dovey shows... just touches you and makes every unromantic person alive :) but hor.. still got pple snore in the theatre... lol.

i wanna watch charlotte's web and cinderella... looks really nice ...

today such a hectic day... had to sign like up to hundred cards... i mean for my attachment stuff... closing some account...

..:: 442. The One With Camp and Love ::..

i think my heart is aging faster than my body is. After half a day of leading cheers and keeping the secondary sch cadets high, i was already feeling tired. i see the girls doing and enjoying every moment. not that i dun enjoy but the feeling is different, perhaps its one-man show, perhaps i find it hard to 'play' with the cadets. What i really wanna do is to sit down and talk to them, like encouraging them and giving them perspectives and listening to what they have to say. You need to be more active and hyper than them in order for it to be contagious... gosh, i am only 20 but i felt like i was 30... plus last time i could handle like 80+ cadets...



but at the end of the day, no doubt they have made me feel younger... really appreciate them giving their best for performance and keeping themselves high throughout the campfire. saw my sec sch cadets in the camp... they have matured a lot and very noisy in the group! which is good la, make your presence felt :)

had archery... my left wrist somehow moved during the release of the arrow and the string kena my arm :( bruised, looked scarier than what i have imagined...



went shopping at heeren... so happy. didnt know i got my pay so early. got lots of stuff but not for myself which was weird but still happy :) x'mas gift exchange... dunno what to buy...

need to shop for winter clothes for my finland trip... just got the ticket.

been listening to Pink's songs... now less of rock, more of rnb... should listen to who knew, i'm not dead and my favourite you and your hand...

You took my hand, You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around, Uh huh
That's right, I took your words, And I believed
In everything, You said to me, Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong, I know better
cause you said forever and ever
who knew

dunno whether u can read chinese... but the song by Hebe and 飞轮海 expresses how the honeymoon period of courtship should be... should i do a translation? dun want to spoil the song and make it cheesy... lol.

(飞)无解的眼神心像海底针
光是猜测我食欲不振
有点烦人又有点迷人

(h)浪漫没天份反应够迟钝
不够谨慎花挑错颜色
但很矛盾喜欢你的笨

(飞)微笑再美再甜不是你的
都不特别
(h)眼泪再苦再咸有你安慰
又是晴天
(飞)靠的再近再贴少了拥抱
就算太远
(合)全世界只对你有感觉

(飞)玩的再疯再野你瞪一眼
我就收敛
(h)马路再宽再远只要你牵
就很安全
(飞)我会又乖又黏温柔体贴
绝不敷衍
(合)我只对你有感觉

had issues... but i had them sorted out le :) i just want a simple life. can i have it for my 21st birthday present?

i'm happy that ellen degeneres is hosting oscar 2007 :)
but i think there are other things i look forward and be happy.

..:: 441. The One With End of Exam ::..

well. finally exam ended on 23th, Mon. my worst paper :( didnt have time to finish but quite a lot also didnt manage. i even had to guess MCQs worth of 20m. sian. hopefully can get a B...

i really miss school... ok u guys may think i'm crazy. but i miss having classmates, lunch dinner kakis... holiday not really holiday for me. got so much things to settle. i have hall dance to choreograph. have my national event meetings and planning... have red cross camp... not forgetting meetings... i have my ntu dance practices that will resume... i got vocational attachment which i just reported to this morning... discovered i am involved in doing accounting... cant reveal much but great responsibility and i have to be meticulous.

been checking out my time table for next sem, the one that they planned for us i have only monday free. hoping to reconfigure to get a mon, fri free. 3 day week!

the unit i'm attached to has really nice people. all so fatherly and motherly... cant wait to make my number 3 (another kind of uniform) so it will be much more cooling and can differentiate from the new officers that are coming in... cos new officers supposed to be 'initiated' and that is not a gd thing.

anyway felt really blessed :) new-found motivation, new meaning in life :) the cause for my beauty sleep.

wah jacky cheung appeared on DOHA opening ceremony at 150am... great visuals effect from the whole show... plus dick lee and iskander (looks weird) compositions were showcased. heard the crew involved is also involved in ndp07 this year, organised by the engineers :)

i look at the army new commercial tt is now on tv, i feel really great to be in the army. despite so many people complaining and the 'can't-wait-to-ord' feelings, i still like to serve the country. i am weird, can?

btw i am going finland! yeah :) burr... super cold -4 degrees.

..:: 440. The One With Last Paper ::..

had a morale booster before the exams...

Table 1: Grades based on
Competence Assessment, OB&D Report Presentation, Report and lastly Overall Grade

Tutorial Class 1:
Doraemon: A+, A+, A, A
Infinity: B+, B+, A-, A-
Sparks: B+, B+, B+, B+

Tutorial Class 2:
GEMs: B, C, B-, B-
OBExpress: B, B-, A, B+
Exactitude: B, B, A, B+
Gear5: B-, B+, B+, B

Tutorial Class 3:
Synergy: A-, A-, B+, A-
BFG: B+, B, B+, B+
Apex: B+, B, B+, B+
CSI: A-, A-, B+, B+

my grp doraemon :)
anyway more importantly i had great papers so far... first paper was AB105: organizational behaviour and design. difficult part was to finish the paper on time. too much to write too little time. open book exam i only flipped through my own notes. added citation... somemore prepare 2 pages of references, cut and pasted behind the exam answer booklet -_- lol.

a bit overdo but well good impression and i really did a lot of readings and prep so should not waste it. only got one chance.

2nd paper was a bit more worrying. i didnt manage my time to study for the module. on the day of exam, i still studying macroeconomics :( AB106, principles of econs closed book make me cram all the terms... paper in the evening somemore, yawnz... went in the exam hall feeling so insecure... somemore sweating from all the walking... i think so far my worst paper... got a 14m question drew the graph wrongly... and a part of question worth 4m never answer -_- just hope overall B happy le...

3rd paper was intro to human resource management ... 2 papers today :( while i was doing last min reading up at the sports and recreation hall, i saw the superstar contestant, chen diya from my sch... lol. she was singing and talking to her frenz abt her experience. so noisy... cant concentrate. another closed book exam that drove me crazy. i woke up 8am to memorize points but fell asleep to wake up at 1145 to meet my friend at 12pm. but luck was on my side, what i studied came out. nothing more nothing less. happy i got jackpot.

went back hall to get my marketing notes and did last min research on SPRING. standard, productivity, innovation board ... rest for awhile then head for my next paper... AB112. stunned to find myself sitting right in front. when i saw the questions, stunned... not that they are difficult but got so much to write then i don't know where to start. lucky for the da chang jin influence, i used it as part of the experiential marketing i gave as my examples for a restaurant... keep my fingers crossed. my hopes for 2As - OB and marketing... if can get a plus even better.. can offset my other modules like econs and stats o_O

but sometimes feeling good don't equate to good results, but though left with last paper, i'm so in a holiday mood. attending my malay teacher's wedding and asked about tradition and culture from my malay friend... dun wanna violate any customs...

how is the world out there? i only know korea got a few thousand chicken died.

oh ya had a mcdonald dinner with laiyee and michelle, my 2 kopi sohs... great time catching up. our hands 'cui' (goner) from all the writing... wrote 2.5hrs non stop... a booklet with about 20 pages, i left with 3.

watch project superstar and so sad kenny went out, i thot he was quite good. u mean girls dun like cute guys? they like short guys like that jeremy chan with a headband? poor shiyu think he has lost the appeal... something weird. why shiyu said ' wo dui bu qi da jia' (i let you all down)? i mean he should have said, ' i wanna thank all those who supported me, to those who didnt, you let me down.' isnt it? lol and the judges mentioned he looked fat wearing white... i mean if he looks fat then moses lim how?

as for the girls, i was so relieved veronica went out? i guess she made her first impression as arrogant. and the song not very nice also... and the magdalene with the husky voice was mentioned to have the best dress sense. pui. fold the white shirt a bit, put on suspender (or watever it is), she looks gd?

forecasting... assuming i look good ( i know it is hard to imagine but at least can give me some rights to say things abt pple), for the guys, easily can tell who will be going out next week. if by superstar face, wee jian and jeff will be out next with their superscar face. lol. ok i was mean. but hey 'salty fish can flip its body', meaning against all odds, they might woo people to vote for them... even the F2 dawn wong who looked like some china girl also got in... wont be too hard for the dudes i guess. for the girls, hard to predict, cos pics can be so deceiving... chen diya from my sch is a smart girl eh, nanyang girls, hwa chong jc... and she has a nice voice as i mentioned... minus her height disadvantage, joining club 158.

ok enough of taking bad about people... back to mugging for stats.

..:: 439. The One With Impulse Buying ::..

Well another victim under APPLE's marketing strategy... impulse buying...



mp3 player size of a clip :)

..:: 438. The One With Mugging ::..

Yesterday managed to experience the wrath of mugging for a whole day. purely marketing. a few things kept lingering in my mind.

first thing was about relationships... seems like most people around me who used to be 'attached' are now single and readily available... so what actually happened? busy schedules? conflicting interests or worse, issues? or is Singapore getting boring, lack of place for dating... I guess this pretty much gives us a prelude to why divorce rates are rising... will children be the only source that is keeping marriages alive? perhaps the next 'in' thing would be cohabitation...

secondly, sometimes there are things you should really keep to yourself. For me, i kind of regret letting my friends know that i had come up with a summary list of terms for one of my modules.

You can call me selfish or what, but it is really 'What's in it for me?' when i share my revision list. my not-so-close friends msged me 'hey can i have your revision list?' what would you do? i was more irritated when they said, 'hey, i was online, why you never send me...'

WHEY. firstly, i spent 3 hours doing up the list and i am still considering sending to you (more than one) for just less than 3 mins. secondly, the least you could have do is trade something, NOTHING. thirdly, you sounded like i owe you something... even if you are online, the least you could do is to pop up a window and ask?

If you were me, would you still send? I don't want to be selfish but these issues are touchy. even the tutor subtly mentioned, it is best you do your own revision notes.

thirdly, was quite pissed off with the service APPLE had. i ordered an iPod Shuffle online and the stated shipment date was yesterday. Hence, today i made a few calls trying to find out where exactly is my iPod Shuffle lying in the world. I was then informed that there was a late shipment so the earliest shipment date is mon and latest by tue. I mean, if you expect the overseas shipment to be late, you can at least send a mail or call since you have our details. I am not trying to be a fussy customer but with such service standards, APPLE has to think twice about going far.

News bulletin:
Is it really feasible?
Passport-free measure for movement into johor to beef up tourism.

apart from the rising theft and robbery cases?