..:: 310. The One With End of Term 1 ::..
yeah term 1 ended! had quite severe rope burn during rope obstacles. can even see flesh... yucks... still hurts after 3 days liao.
oh forgot to add that last week i did my SOC test and i got 8:15! haha so happy... the wall was higher, had to reach higher for the rope and higher swinging bridge, higher ramp, but still did not deter me frm slicing off 1:15 off my previous timing in BMT.
Echo coy had a happy hour on wed night where we had bbq and beer! my friend drank until he puked... cos we were playing 5:10:15:20 finger guessing game. the instructor was so gd that we trainees had to have a tag team. from tiger to stout to red wine... strangely no one had hangover the next day. perhaps only liquor can haf that effect.
thur was basically slack time. only thing to do was the survey at 3pm. then book out at 630pm. watched full metal jacket in the lecture room while waiting... oh ya, think i'm going to get band of brothers... really nice when i first saw it play during happy hour.
oh went to red cross hq wanting to pay a surprise visit but no one was there... angeline also took off till tue. only saw annie, the scary receptionist who was in gd mood today. lol.
my next pay i'm going to buy a camera! been missing out fun memories...
till next time...
Sunday, April 24, 2005
..:: 309. The One With 5th Week in SISPEC ::..
This week had been a torment to my face. It's the camo-on week. Had to apply camo cream for almost the whole week. The week started with 2 days of outfield training, followed by a 4-day fieldcamp. During the camp, we had Ex Catwalk, Nightowl and Summex, all the mission exercises. Shan't go into details cos its kinda mundane and boring...
Good thing is that i got to book out on Friday for NIE interview. The expected questions like 'What would be your first choice? Business or Teaching?' Was kinda embarrased when they asked me to explain my maths result.
Next week only 4 days. having lectures and doing outdoor obstacles and repelling stuff... cool. hopefully they will call me, actually three parties. NTU business, NIE and the company orderly sergeant (for crossing over to OCS). mmm... Sat going clubbing, Mon going to sing!
This week had been a torment to my face. It's the camo-on week. Had to apply camo cream for almost the whole week. The week started with 2 days of outfield training, followed by a 4-day fieldcamp. During the camp, we had Ex Catwalk, Nightowl and Summex, all the mission exercises. Shan't go into details cos its kinda mundane and boring...
Good thing is that i got to book out on Friday for NIE interview. The expected questions like 'What would be your first choice? Business or Teaching?' Was kinda embarrased when they asked me to explain my maths result.
Next week only 4 days. having lectures and doing outdoor obstacles and repelling stuff... cool. hopefully they will call me, actually three parties. NTU business, NIE and the company orderly sergeant (for crossing over to OCS). mmm... Sat going clubbing, Mon going to sing!
Sunday, April 17, 2005
..::308. The One With 3rd & 4th Week In SISPEC ::..
Basically the most fun thing was the navigation exercise. Ex Gypsy 1 was with the section and instructor. Couldnt find the legendary checkpoint IRIS and we were 'holland' (ho-lan) for quite some time. Gypsy 2 without instructor, still we came back like the last few, no time to plan for the navigation data sheet for the night one. Ex Wanderer was the actual test where details in four went to hunt for 4 day check points and 2 night check points. We managed to find IRIS this time and still completed the day one by 3.30pm which was a big feat. For the night one, we came back by 9pm, a challenge set by the warrant officers.
sian also dun feel like writing army stuff le. pretty boring. Just that week by week, the training gets more draining, by sat, we are all tired out.
this week sat, i got to book out for NTU interview. was kinda happy and wanted to arrange to get my off-pass from my platoon sergeant. In the end, when we came back from section training on fri, i was called to do guard duty. At first i thought i had to do because i would not be doing SOC the next day unlike the rest of the platoon. Only when i came back the next morning, my friend told me my PC was angry with the sergeants as they needed to rush the guard duty list so they just anyhow pick one name and sent to HQ. How lucky i am right? but then i was kinda repaid when i was told that i do not need to book in after my interview.
i was supposed to take 8am fast craft. in the end the tonner fetching us to theferry terminal was late, so i could only take the 9am one. I was almost late for the interview. Luckily the one before me was still inside the room. I took a cab down and it was 18 bucks! that pretty confirm that if i get into NTU, i would stay in hostel.
awaiting 29 apr...
Basically the most fun thing was the navigation exercise. Ex Gypsy 1 was with the section and instructor. Couldnt find the legendary checkpoint IRIS and we were 'holland' (ho-lan) for quite some time. Gypsy 2 without instructor, still we came back like the last few, no time to plan for the navigation data sheet for the night one. Ex Wanderer was the actual test where details in four went to hunt for 4 day check points and 2 night check points. We managed to find IRIS this time and still completed the day one by 3.30pm which was a big feat. For the night one, we came back by 9pm, a challenge set by the warrant officers.
sian also dun feel like writing army stuff le. pretty boring. Just that week by week, the training gets more draining, by sat, we are all tired out.
this week sat, i got to book out for NTU interview. was kinda happy and wanted to arrange to get my off-pass from my platoon sergeant. In the end, when we came back from section training on fri, i was called to do guard duty. At first i thought i had to do because i would not be doing SOC the next day unlike the rest of the platoon. Only when i came back the next morning, my friend told me my PC was angry with the sergeants as they needed to rush the guard duty list so they just anyhow pick one name and sent to HQ. How lucky i am right? but then i was kinda repaid when i was told that i do not need to book in after my interview.
i was supposed to take 8am fast craft. in the end the tonner fetching us to theferry terminal was late, so i could only take the 9am one. I was almost late for the interview. Luckily the one before me was still inside the room. I took a cab down and it was 18 bucks! that pretty confirm that if i get into NTU, i would stay in hostel.
awaiting 29 apr...
Sunday, April 03, 2005
..:: 307. The One With 2nd Week In SISPEC ::..
haiz - is the word to sum up this entire long week. so much so for 'working' a 5.5 day week. i really need to muster some motivation before i suffer from depression.
couldnt sleep for the first two days as i havent settle my university admission stuff... but thanks to a few people, they set my mind at ease... Andy sir, Vincent sir, Shannen, Jorin and my sis!
Got to book in on monday morning as i had a water course at changi naval base that morning. It was not a good thing to book in on monday at all. firstly, sun i went for a volleyball game and got hit right in my face. Slept like around 1am and had to wake up like 5am. The sleep was good but not enough.
Well at least there was some consolation this week as we spent like three days (tue-thur) having lectures. tue we had an NE discussion forum on whether spore can be defended. yawns... i was caught by the officer for dozing off... luckily he was in a gd mood. well almost half the cohort was sleeping, i was at the 2nd row so suay is the word.
wed, we had an early lights off at 8PM!!! Never slept so early before in my entire 4 months. I had like 9 hrs of sleep and super on-form for lectures and even SOC... arghz. training for SOC was such a waste of time. they could have given us one test and those who fail should go for training. Having to go through four sessions of SOC and a trial test is simply wasting 'soldier time'. Ya, its for combat fitness but the training for SOC is not even scheduled properly... we had 2 consective sessions while poor foxtrot had four trainings in a week!
In army... had to do things for the sake of doing... so thats why they often scold us for follwing the motion only. well what to do... once things become routine for me, i will feel 'sian'. So much for my instructors for saying 'do it once, do it good'.
We almost got to play 'musical chair'. It is a term for switching of bunks. Our commando PC made us pack every stuff we had and wanted to switch our bunks as we didnt do our area cleaning properly... i was eager to change bunk so i can get another cupboard which has an intact lock. my current one was spoilt so i could not lock my valuables. very frustrating... In the end, he just told us to put back our stuff...
the stand-by bed arrangement was even more 'do for the sake of doing'. We had to lay a soap box, toothbrush, toothpaste, shaver (all SAF issued items) when in fact none of us used them. I mean if we were to just make sure our stuff are neatly arranged, that would be the standard for stand-by bed. Not like now, where we had to put admin, shorts, white socks on the left, green socks on the right. Hang only three sets of clothes, civilian, then long 4, then smart 4. thats so stupid... Well, thats BMT Sch 1 way of stand-by bed. luckily mohawk was not like that.
next definitely have to talk about my section... my friend said i was stupid enough to be such a nice guy and help my section get stuff... which is true to a certain extent. I had a vad experience the last time so i would think twice next time. this time i asked one of my section to help me get the stuff... i was pretty anxious at this moment cos he didnt confirm whether he will be buying for me. If not i have to get it myself or find someone. I called and called but no one picked up the phone. ARGHZ.
my buddy is a garang (very-on) sikh, at least not a turban kind. i really dunno whether to appreciate him or to hate him. certain things he say, never goes through his mind. he could be mocking at his own section mate who was short and could not get through the low wall in SOC. but then again, it may be his way of motivating that guy. maybe i am still being racist or wat cos i came from an all-chinese bunk in my BMT. Now the tension in the section is quite intense. there are people trying to impress so they can go to OCS by 6th week, some haven come out from their comfort zone. It's very hard to sense sincerity in the conversations now. What's more, one of my section mate got OOC (out of course) so easily... he didnt want to stay in sispec so he brought up his medical history... so he would be waiting for his new 8-5 posting most probably... Now that's depressing for me. So many times, i wanted to give up, not because it's tough, but because there's nothing for me to look forward to in SISPEC. i will excel if there's something that i am aiming for. but now, there's none. I'm just fighting hard to keep myself going and telling myself, time will pass quickly. That's not the way i want. I want to enjoy training...
its the first time that i actually cant stand a person because of his vulgarities. our CSM (coy sergeant major) is one aging ah beng you can find in spore. he dont address people by their names, if he's unhappy, u will be known as 'ccb' (not difficult to decipher that, i guess). That word has been so common that i can actually feel that there is such a person in the company. he rarely uses english as i feel that his cultural roots must be super deep and strong. dialect (hokkien) all day long. when he uses his phone, its always hokkien that i hear. F*** has lost its meaning to me... cos he loves to f*** everyone. he could just walk up to you and point his middle finger at your face and say 'FU' for the simplest reason. he even does it to the toilet bowls during inspection. maybe not the pointing part.
i wonder whether he believes in any religion... he loves to say 'g**-damn f***ing' at least once a day. i also feel that he may have some kind of fetish for the male organ... cos he kept using 'simi LJ', of course there are many kinds but i know for sure he's jealous of us as he maybe having problems keeping up. lol. whats worse, he thinks he's funny. he loves to make fun of ang-mo and our coy has two unfortunately. he also confessed he has a fetish for braces... maybe not guys in braces... now that's one weird man.
well kinda surprised when my buddy now in OCS told me he felt like crying... well i guess training to be a commander ain't easy. i know its hard for me cos i am a very emotional person and many times, my emotions will take control of me, that's why i am trying to keep myself to think positively.
Well, all is not lost.i should make a list to remind myself to stay happy...
1. Learning new weapons is interesting and so far i have done pretty well for the tests.
2. my section commander is super cool and affable, 2 weeks of miserable section movement should be fun now.
3. i'm on my 3rd week now... awaiting for 6th week.
4. Look forward to Labour day and Vesak day... long weekends.
5. Make more friends. Maybe get to know one person each day.
haha cant believe i'm doing this but it kinda helped me... a form of therapy?
today sunday, had to send my clothes for laundry service. so waited and began to observe people... couples with children kinda interesting... if they got one child, the child would most probably walking beside his/her dad while the mum will walk behind them (quite a big gap). 2 kids. one with each parent. son with mum, daughter with dad. Those without children would walk side by side. holding of hands would be for either very young couples or very old couples.
oh well, that's just some minority stuff i see, may not actually make sense. just feeling the sunday blues. a few hours more have to book in le. next 2 weeks, i wil be booking out on sunday morning and booking in on sunday night. hows that sound?
Confucianism:
"Tse-kung asked, 'Is there one word that can serve as a principle of conduct for life?' Confucius replied, 'It is the word 'shu' -- reciprocity. Do not impose on others what you yourself do not desire.'" Doctrine of the Mean 13.3
haiz - is the word to sum up this entire long week. so much so for 'working' a 5.5 day week. i really need to muster some motivation before i suffer from depression.
couldnt sleep for the first two days as i havent settle my university admission stuff... but thanks to a few people, they set my mind at ease... Andy sir, Vincent sir, Shannen, Jorin and my sis!
Got to book in on monday morning as i had a water course at changi naval base that morning. It was not a good thing to book in on monday at all. firstly, sun i went for a volleyball game and got hit right in my face. Slept like around 1am and had to wake up like 5am. The sleep was good but not enough.
Well at least there was some consolation this week as we spent like three days (tue-thur) having lectures. tue we had an NE discussion forum on whether spore can be defended. yawns... i was caught by the officer for dozing off... luckily he was in a gd mood. well almost half the cohort was sleeping, i was at the 2nd row so suay is the word.
wed, we had an early lights off at 8PM!!! Never slept so early before in my entire 4 months. I had like 9 hrs of sleep and super on-form for lectures and even SOC... arghz. training for SOC was such a waste of time. they could have given us one test and those who fail should go for training. Having to go through four sessions of SOC and a trial test is simply wasting 'soldier time'. Ya, its for combat fitness but the training for SOC is not even scheduled properly... we had 2 consective sessions while poor foxtrot had four trainings in a week!
In army... had to do things for the sake of doing... so thats why they often scold us for follwing the motion only. well what to do... once things become routine for me, i will feel 'sian'. So much for my instructors for saying 'do it once, do it good'.
We almost got to play 'musical chair'. It is a term for switching of bunks. Our commando PC made us pack every stuff we had and wanted to switch our bunks as we didnt do our area cleaning properly... i was eager to change bunk so i can get another cupboard which has an intact lock. my current one was spoilt so i could not lock my valuables. very frustrating... In the end, he just told us to put back our stuff...
the stand-by bed arrangement was even more 'do for the sake of doing'. We had to lay a soap box, toothbrush, toothpaste, shaver (all SAF issued items) when in fact none of us used them. I mean if we were to just make sure our stuff are neatly arranged, that would be the standard for stand-by bed. Not like now, where we had to put admin, shorts, white socks on the left, green socks on the right. Hang only three sets of clothes, civilian, then long 4, then smart 4. thats so stupid... Well, thats BMT Sch 1 way of stand-by bed. luckily mohawk was not like that.
next definitely have to talk about my section... my friend said i was stupid enough to be such a nice guy and help my section get stuff... which is true to a certain extent. I had a vad experience the last time so i would think twice next time. this time i asked one of my section to help me get the stuff... i was pretty anxious at this moment cos he didnt confirm whether he will be buying for me. If not i have to get it myself or find someone. I called and called but no one picked up the phone. ARGHZ.
my buddy is a garang (very-on) sikh, at least not a turban kind. i really dunno whether to appreciate him or to hate him. certain things he say, never goes through his mind. he could be mocking at his own section mate who was short and could not get through the low wall in SOC. but then again, it may be his way of motivating that guy. maybe i am still being racist or wat cos i came from an all-chinese bunk in my BMT. Now the tension in the section is quite intense. there are people trying to impress so they can go to OCS by 6th week, some haven come out from their comfort zone. It's very hard to sense sincerity in the conversations now. What's more, one of my section mate got OOC (out of course) so easily... he didnt want to stay in sispec so he brought up his medical history... so he would be waiting for his new 8-5 posting most probably... Now that's depressing for me. So many times, i wanted to give up, not because it's tough, but because there's nothing for me to look forward to in SISPEC. i will excel if there's something that i am aiming for. but now, there's none. I'm just fighting hard to keep myself going and telling myself, time will pass quickly. That's not the way i want. I want to enjoy training...
its the first time that i actually cant stand a person because of his vulgarities. our CSM (coy sergeant major) is one aging ah beng you can find in spore. he dont address people by their names, if he's unhappy, u will be known as 'ccb' (not difficult to decipher that, i guess). That word has been so common that i can actually feel that there is such a person in the company. he rarely uses english as i feel that his cultural roots must be super deep and strong. dialect (hokkien) all day long. when he uses his phone, its always hokkien that i hear. F*** has lost its meaning to me... cos he loves to f*** everyone. he could just walk up to you and point his middle finger at your face and say 'FU' for the simplest reason. he even does it to the toilet bowls during inspection. maybe not the pointing part.
i wonder whether he believes in any religion... he loves to say 'g**-damn f***ing' at least once a day. i also feel that he may have some kind of fetish for the male organ... cos he kept using 'simi LJ', of course there are many kinds but i know for sure he's jealous of us as he maybe having problems keeping up. lol. whats worse, he thinks he's funny. he loves to make fun of ang-mo and our coy has two unfortunately. he also confessed he has a fetish for braces... maybe not guys in braces... now that's one weird man.
well kinda surprised when my buddy now in OCS told me he felt like crying... well i guess training to be a commander ain't easy. i know its hard for me cos i am a very emotional person and many times, my emotions will take control of me, that's why i am trying to keep myself to think positively.
Well, all is not lost.i should make a list to remind myself to stay happy...
1. Learning new weapons is interesting and so far i have done pretty well for the tests.
2. my section commander is super cool and affable, 2 weeks of miserable section movement should be fun now.
3. i'm on my 3rd week now... awaiting for 6th week.
4. Look forward to Labour day and Vesak day... long weekends.
5. Make more friends. Maybe get to know one person each day.
haha cant believe i'm doing this but it kinda helped me... a form of therapy?
today sunday, had to send my clothes for laundry service. so waited and began to observe people... couples with children kinda interesting... if they got one child, the child would most probably walking beside his/her dad while the mum will walk behind them (quite a big gap). 2 kids. one with each parent. son with mum, daughter with dad. Those without children would walk side by side. holding of hands would be for either very young couples or very old couples.
oh well, that's just some minority stuff i see, may not actually make sense. just feeling the sunday blues. a few hours more have to book in le. next 2 weeks, i wil be booking out on sunday morning and booking in on sunday night. hows that sound?
Confucianism:
"Tse-kung asked, 'Is there one word that can serve as a principle of conduct for life?' Confucius replied, 'It is the word 'shu' -- reciprocity. Do not impose on others what you yourself do not desire.'" Doctrine of the Mean 13.3
Saturday, March 26, 2005
..:: 306. The One With NTU Admission ::..
Hey guys, if you are reading this, i hope you can do me a small favour by filling up this appraisal for my university admission.
http://www.ntu.edu.sg/oad2/pdfs/appraisal_cata.pdf
Important details:
Application number: A00008098
Name of applicant: Chen Xing Tian John
NRIC: S8604887F
Contact Number: 97629132
Applying for: discretionary criteria only
As i will be in camp so i couldnt post all your appraisals, i feel bad having u guys posting the appraisals...
thanks a lot. owe u guys a treat.
Hey guys, if you are reading this, i hope you can do me a small favour by filling up this appraisal for my university admission.
http://www.ntu.edu.sg/oad2/pdfs/appraisal_cata.pdf
Important details:
Application number: A00008098
Name of applicant: Chen Xing Tian John
NRIC: S8604887F
Contact Number: 97629132
Applying for: discretionary criteria only
As i will be in camp so i couldnt post all your appraisals, i feel bad having u guys posting the appraisals...
thanks a lot. owe u guys a treat.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
..:: 305. The One With 1st Week in SISPEC ::..
21 March, i reported to pasir ris interchange on a sunny monday morning, waiting for the similar SMRT bus that would bring me to the dreaded ferry terminal. The night before, i went to ask my senior to find out more about SISPEC to put my mind at ease.
In the fast craft, i was praying fervently that i wont get into Echo or Foxtrot, two of the most siong company in SISPEC. The more relax ones are bravo, delta (super welfare!) and golf (got female officer).
When we reached the stadium, we were told to search for our names on the list and our corresponding company... one of my unpopular platoon mates got into bravo and the moment i saw him clenching his fist and mouthing 'yes!', i knew he was not in E or F coy. i scanned my name... deep inside i thot, this yr has been quite screwed up for me, got into siong Mohawk coy, then horrible detail for sitest and now in SISPEC, what could be worse?
I saw 'E' beside my name, i almost fainted.
Before we left, we were reminded by the instructors,
'those who got E or F, you are ensured of really fresh air and you will be very fit after BSLC (basic section leader course)...'
No prize for guessing what is installed for us.
Echo has been renowned for their top discipline level and for the recent years, they have been producing the school best student. We got there within the first hour, we got screwed already, hearing more vulgarities than in BMT.
The first person that impressed me and got my attention was my platoon commander (PC) who is a 2WO. He didnt have his beret with him so i thought he maybe from infantry. Hell no, until i saw him with his maroon beret, i was pleasantly surprised. A commando. Before the training started, everyone has laid their expectations and rules. from section commanders to platoon sergeant to PC to CSM and even Officer Commanding (OC)who was another commando too...
talk about our CSM coy sergeant major, i think he can rap using vulgarities. one sentence, the vulgarities more than the noun, verb or even article.
make everyone cut the same hairstyle called 3 by 1 which is actually a patch of hair on top of the head, the rest shave. we look exactly like him, cock face.
One good thing was that we do not need to sing while we march. yes we still have to march just like recruits in BMTC, no difference.
Everything was such a rush. We learnt a new weapon (cannot be disclosed) in the morning and had a theory and practical test in the afternoon. The next day, another weapon. Today we just sat for an impromptu test, though open book, we had to search through 200+ pages to get answers.
My idiotic friend had to msg me at night that he was at home slacking, nothing to do. he got a 8-5 vocation. Now, he is teasing me about going SISPEC to suffer when he actually hope to be a commander but now a man.
we had peer appraisal by the 3rd day! how crazy is that? We havent got to know our section mates well enough...
Awaiting for 6th week...
21 March, i reported to pasir ris interchange on a sunny monday morning, waiting for the similar SMRT bus that would bring me to the dreaded ferry terminal. The night before, i went to ask my senior to find out more about SISPEC to put my mind at ease.
In the fast craft, i was praying fervently that i wont get into Echo or Foxtrot, two of the most siong company in SISPEC. The more relax ones are bravo, delta (super welfare!) and golf (got female officer).
When we reached the stadium, we were told to search for our names on the list and our corresponding company... one of my unpopular platoon mates got into bravo and the moment i saw him clenching his fist and mouthing 'yes!', i knew he was not in E or F coy. i scanned my name... deep inside i thot, this yr has been quite screwed up for me, got into siong Mohawk coy, then horrible detail for sitest and now in SISPEC, what could be worse?
I saw 'E' beside my name, i almost fainted.
Before we left, we were reminded by the instructors,
'those who got E or F, you are ensured of really fresh air and you will be very fit after BSLC (basic section leader course)...'
No prize for guessing what is installed for us.
Echo has been renowned for their top discipline level and for the recent years, they have been producing the school best student. We got there within the first hour, we got screwed already, hearing more vulgarities than in BMT.
The first person that impressed me and got my attention was my platoon commander (PC) who is a 2WO. He didnt have his beret with him so i thought he maybe from infantry. Hell no, until i saw him with his maroon beret, i was pleasantly surprised. A commando. Before the training started, everyone has laid their expectations and rules. from section commanders to platoon sergeant to PC to CSM and even Officer Commanding (OC)who was another commando too...
talk about our CSM coy sergeant major, i think he can rap using vulgarities. one sentence, the vulgarities more than the noun, verb or even article.
make everyone cut the same hairstyle called 3 by 1 which is actually a patch of hair on top of the head, the rest shave. we look exactly like him, cock face.
One good thing was that we do not need to sing while we march. yes we still have to march just like recruits in BMTC, no difference.
Everything was such a rush. We learnt a new weapon (cannot be disclosed) in the morning and had a theory and practical test in the afternoon. The next day, another weapon. Today we just sat for an impromptu test, though open book, we had to search through 200+ pages to get answers.
My idiotic friend had to msg me at night that he was at home slacking, nothing to do. he got a 8-5 vocation. Now, he is teasing me about going SISPEC to suffer when he actually hope to be a commander but now a man.
we had peer appraisal by the 3rd day! how crazy is that? We havent got to know our section mates well enough...
Awaiting for 6th week...
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Friday, March 18, 2005
..:: 303. The One With My fucked-up MSN ::..
kena some kind of virus, so if u guys receive some weird files from me, sorry about that. i cant control it, the window just keeps popping up and send viruses to every contact of mine. but strangely if i delete my history folder, it doesnt happen...
anyway just heard from my senior, camo cream will be my buddy... camo all day long.
haiz. to think i'm already fugly... need to equip myself with facial stuff.BAH!
kena some kind of virus, so if u guys receive some weird files from me, sorry about that. i cant control it, the window just keeps popping up and send viruses to every contact of mine. but strangely if i delete my history folder, it doesnt happen...
anyway just heard from my senior, camo cream will be my buddy... camo all day long.
haiz. to think i'm already fugly... need to equip myself with facial stuff.BAH!
..:: 302. The One With Music To Suit Your Mood ::..
If you are heartbroken from a relationship, brace up to:
Since You've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson
If you met your ex and still have feelings for that person, listen to:
Truth Is by Fantasia Barrino
If two people fall in love with the same person, hear this out:
Yuan Dian by Stephanie Sun and Tanya Chua
If you want more attention from your other half, play this:
Ta Hai Shi Bu Dong by S.H.E
If you dont feel like going home, go with:
Nobody's Home by Avril Lavigne
If you are feeling high, go crazy with:
Do Somethin' by Britney Spears
If you are feeling lame, chant this:
Sweat (A la la la la long) by Inner Circle
If you are angry at someone who did something to you, hum to:
Karma by Alicia Keys
If you are feeling what i am feeling, drown yourself in:
Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day
If you are heartbroken from a relationship, brace up to:
Since You've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson
If you met your ex and still have feelings for that person, listen to:
Truth Is by Fantasia Barrino
If two people fall in love with the same person, hear this out:
Yuan Dian by Stephanie Sun and Tanya Chua
If you want more attention from your other half, play this:
Ta Hai Shi Bu Dong by S.H.E
If you dont feel like going home, go with:
Nobody's Home by Avril Lavigne
If you are feeling high, go crazy with:
Do Somethin' by Britney Spears
If you are feeling lame, chant this:
Sweat (A la la la la long) by Inner Circle
If you are angry at someone who did something to you, hum to:
Karma by Alicia Keys
If you are feeling what i am feeling, drown yourself in:
Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day
..:: 301. The One With Posting ::..
here goes...
Comd SAF BMTC congratulates you for your successful completion of the BMT.
Your Posting Order is listed below:
1. You are posted to SISPEC.
2. Your vocation is INFANTRY LEADER.
3. Your are to report to: Pasir Ris Bus Interchange.
Reporting Date/Time: 21/03/2005 at 0830 hrs.
Person to report to: Chief Clerk
Contact Number: 65467067
You are required to report in smart no.4 uniform (PES E recruits to be in No 3 uniform), except for those assigned to Police Force.
4. Special Instruction: Bring complete SAF issued items. Take SMRT Bus at Pasir Ris at 0830, Fast Craft at SFT at 0845
Oh well, Infantry leader sounds nice... at least i think a lot of pple going SISPEC so wont be that sian. i hope i get a really fun platoon and buddy. At least next time i can book-in in civilian attire. haiz, 2005 is definitely not my year. Firstly results, then this. mmm... i need to be more at peace with myself.
hopefully sentosa tml with my platoon mates better be an enjoyable one...
here goes...
Comd SAF BMTC congratulates you for your successful completion of the BMT.
Your Posting Order is listed below:
1. You are posted to SISPEC.
2. Your vocation is INFANTRY LEADER.
3. Your are to report to: Pasir Ris Bus Interchange.
Reporting Date/Time: 21/03/2005 at 0830 hrs.
Person to report to: Chief Clerk
Contact Number: 65467067
You are required to report in smart no.4 uniform (PES E recruits to be in No 3 uniform), except for those assigned to Police Force.
4. Special Instruction: Bring complete SAF issued items. Take SMRT Bus at Pasir Ris at 0830, Fast Craft at SFT at 0845
Oh well, Infantry leader sounds nice... at least i think a lot of pple going SISPEC so wont be that sian. i hope i get a really fun platoon and buddy. At least next time i can book-in in civilian attire. haiz, 2005 is definitely not my year. Firstly results, then this. mmm... i need to be more at peace with myself.
hopefully sentosa tml with my platoon mates better be an enjoyable one...
..:: 300. The One With Random Thots ::..
tried logging in miw website for my posting but failed several times... damn fed up tried for like 2 hrs liao. kept receiving my friends' smses, quite a lot got into MAN and interesting vocations like naval combat system operator, technician, military police, office hrs job. thinking back, ocs seems far for me, wasnt garang enuff. worse, i got chance to perform after peer appraisal. aiya, shld stop grumbling and accept the fact i going back to tekong for a wonderful vocation called SISPEC. i still feel its low class, yucks. back to that later...
watched mtv: ask yesterday and found that alicia keys is actually a very nice person. always thought she is the 'dao' kind like faye wong. Instead she gave her most honest, personal and detailed answers to her fans' questions unlike avril lavigne who gave like a less-than-10-word answer to every question.
Health Bytes: eat more curry guys! the curcumin in tumeric can prevent Alzheimer's Disease. curcumin is the part of tumeric (a spice) its distinct yellow colour.
TV Bytes: Have you watch the recent Amazing Race? Its the 7th season and this promises to be the best season. Why? Survivor couple Rob and Amber is in the house. They have (actually is just Rob) so many tatics under their sleeves. Some may be so scheming that you wanna shout fuck u but yet you'll still love em' for their smart moves.
1. They always do research. Instead of taking the earliest bus available, they went to search for an express bus which leaves later but arrives earlier due to lesser stops.
2. They bribed the security officer not to reveal the information to other teams.
3. When they are at the front part of the bus, they paid the driver to open only the front door of the bus. This is crucial for catching a cab.
4. They get even with teams that found fault wif them. They stole a taxi from one of the team when they were in the hotel asking for directions.
5. When Rob cant finish eating 4 pounds of cow parts and had to suffer a 4hr handicap, he was smart enough to persuade other teams that they couldnt do it so in the end they too gave up and had to wait for 4 hrs. By that time, he was assured that he wont be eliminated. [best trick ever]
6. more to come...
back to my posting... still couldnt log in and my friend helped me check and told me its SISPEC... mmm... totally agree with
Suffer
In
Silence
Plus
Extra
Confinement
5 reasons why i should hate going SISPEC:
1. Angry with my performance
2. will be getting same rank as my commander who obviously cant give clear instructions
3. will be getting lower rank as my buddy who is 'louder' than me. does more chin ups. thats it. [ok, i sound like a sore loser]
4. vocation as a MAN is definitely more interesting
5. going back TEKONG... arghz!!!
5 reasons why i should like going SISPEC:
1. Its still a command school
2. Like my commander said, i still may cross over to OCS after 10 weeks
3. I cant think of any
4. I really cant think of any
5. I give up
now i feel like playing vball and whacking the ball... any1?
tried logging in miw website for my posting but failed several times... damn fed up tried for like 2 hrs liao. kept receiving my friends' smses, quite a lot got into MAN and interesting vocations like naval combat system operator, technician, military police, office hrs job. thinking back, ocs seems far for me, wasnt garang enuff. worse, i got chance to perform after peer appraisal. aiya, shld stop grumbling and accept the fact i going back to tekong for a wonderful vocation called SISPEC. i still feel its low class, yucks. back to that later...
watched mtv: ask yesterday and found that alicia keys is actually a very nice person. always thought she is the 'dao' kind like faye wong. Instead she gave her most honest, personal and detailed answers to her fans' questions unlike avril lavigne who gave like a less-than-10-word answer to every question.
Health Bytes: eat more curry guys! the curcumin in tumeric can prevent Alzheimer's Disease. curcumin is the part of tumeric (a spice) its distinct yellow colour.
TV Bytes: Have you watch the recent Amazing Race? Its the 7th season and this promises to be the best season. Why? Survivor couple Rob and Amber is in the house. They have (actually is just Rob) so many tatics under their sleeves. Some may be so scheming that you wanna shout fuck u but yet you'll still love em' for their smart moves.
1. They always do research. Instead of taking the earliest bus available, they went to search for an express bus which leaves later but arrives earlier due to lesser stops.
2. They bribed the security officer not to reveal the information to other teams.
3. When they are at the front part of the bus, they paid the driver to open only the front door of the bus. This is crucial for catching a cab.
4. They get even with teams that found fault wif them. They stole a taxi from one of the team when they were in the hotel asking for directions.
5. When Rob cant finish eating 4 pounds of cow parts and had to suffer a 4hr handicap, he was smart enough to persuade other teams that they couldnt do it so in the end they too gave up and had to wait for 4 hrs. By that time, he was assured that he wont be eliminated. [best trick ever]
6. more to come...
back to my posting... still couldnt log in and my friend helped me check and told me its SISPEC... mmm... totally agree with
Suffer
In
Silence
Plus
Extra
Confinement
5 reasons why i should hate going SISPEC:
1. Angry with my performance
2. will be getting same rank as my commander who obviously cant give clear instructions
3. will be getting lower rank as my buddy who is 'louder' than me. does more chin ups. thats it. [ok, i sound like a sore loser]
4. vocation as a MAN is definitely more interesting
5. going back TEKONG... arghz!!!
5 reasons why i should like going SISPEC:
1. Its still a command school
2. Like my commander said, i still may cross over to OCS after 10 weeks
3. I cant think of any
4. I really cant think of any
5. I give up
now i feel like playing vball and whacking the ball... any1?
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
..:: 299. The One With Lion's Trail ::..
oh man. the trail ard changi was so... boring and waste of time. the tour guide was just repeating whatever i had learnt about japanese occupation...
2 take-aways from the trip:
Changi Village food is damn gd... nasi lemak, mutton soup, ipoh hor fun...
Selarang Camp... i got story to tell to my cadets next time i teach RCK...
oh, i got tempted to join the prisons career... firstly, its part of civil service. secondly, i get to work with people which is my type of work. thirdly, its a fulfilling career... mmm... thats provided i cant be a teacher first.
ok off to watch the repeat telecast of amazing race le...
tml busy day man. morning ktv, afternoon gym, night vball...
drink more water guys! i just got throat infection... sobs...
oh man. the trail ard changi was so... boring and waste of time. the tour guide was just repeating whatever i had learnt about japanese occupation...
2 take-aways from the trip:
Changi Village food is damn gd... nasi lemak, mutton soup, ipoh hor fun...
Selarang Camp... i got story to tell to my cadets next time i teach RCK...
oh, i got tempted to join the prisons career... firstly, its part of civil service. secondly, i get to work with people which is my type of work. thirdly, its a fulfilling career... mmm... thats provided i cant be a teacher first.
ok off to watch the repeat telecast of amazing race le...
tml busy day man. morning ktv, afternoon gym, night vball...
drink more water guys! i just got throat infection... sobs...
Sunday, March 13, 2005
..:: 298. The One With Home Alone ::..
well, i was forced to stay at home now... so my chiong-ing days are almost over.
anyway, sat went to bendemeer sec for some red cross workshops, apparently the volunteers there were more than enough. Me being there only could eye-power even though i tried to help whenever i could. oh btw the new batch of instructors was pretty disciplined. i was shocked when they greeted me sir. i was just one rank higher only :(
then went for my platoon bbq at my platoon sergeant's condo. Saw a few of my platoon mates drove to the condo, i was so jealous... at the same time envied their cars. All the instructors came and prepared some food, there were liquor and lots of fruits courtesy of our health-conscious sgt peter. we had fun calling them juz by their names though, cos no confinement for calling that:]
then my section mates played dare-or-dare. had to pinch my officer and my PS's butt! kinda childish la but seeing the instructors smiling, i bet they must have enjoyed it. lol.
Sentosa was more packed than any other sundays cos today they had some 'family day' activities. Wanted to go ntu but no one wanted to accompany me...
oh was surfing ard and saw photographs of my sk red cross cadets. I must say they have grown up so much... cant wait to go back one day to see them. from being blur cadets to what they are now, i'm so proud of them. even though they dont have much guidance, they still remained united.
well, i was forced to stay at home now... so my chiong-ing days are almost over.
anyway, sat went to bendemeer sec for some red cross workshops, apparently the volunteers there were more than enough. Me being there only could eye-power even though i tried to help whenever i could. oh btw the new batch of instructors was pretty disciplined. i was shocked when they greeted me sir. i was just one rank higher only :(
then went for my platoon bbq at my platoon sergeant's condo. Saw a few of my platoon mates drove to the condo, i was so jealous... at the same time envied their cars. All the instructors came and prepared some food, there were liquor and lots of fruits courtesy of our health-conscious sgt peter. we had fun calling them juz by their names though, cos no confinement for calling that:]
then my section mates played dare-or-dare. had to pinch my officer and my PS's butt! kinda childish la but seeing the instructors smiling, i bet they must have enjoyed it. lol.
Sentosa was more packed than any other sundays cos today they had some 'family day' activities. Wanted to go ntu but no one wanted to accompany me...
oh was surfing ard and saw photographs of my sk red cross cadets. I must say they have grown up so much... cant wait to go back one day to see them. from being blur cadets to what they are now, i'm so proud of them. even though they dont have much guidance, they still remained united.
Friday, March 11, 2005
..:: 297. The One With Piazza ::..
mmm... realised quite a lot of people so must be careful of what i bitch...
oh must thank shannen, ee ling and angeline for giving me a shirt for my birthday
as usual, bitch a lot during dinner but today got special guest! OMG. i was dumbfounded... shannen has found her match! at some point i was already -_- but it was interesting to see people argue.
My appetite is back!
i'm back to my normal life le... red cross on sat and bbq at night.
mmm... i think my parents gonna throw my bed out. soon.
mmm... realised quite a lot of people so must be careful of what i bitch...
oh must thank shannen, ee ling and angeline for giving me a shirt for my birthday
as usual, bitch a lot during dinner but today got special guest! OMG. i was dumbfounded... shannen has found her match! at some point i was already -_- but it was interesting to see people argue.
My appetite is back!
i'm back to my normal life le... red cross on sat and bbq at night.
mmm... i think my parents gonna throw my bed out. soon.
..:: 296. The One With POP ::..
yeah finally POP... now for the flashback...
dreaded going back to camp cos everyone will be talking about nothing except results. my bunk only 3 guys didnt get As but the more i hear from other platoons the lesser the chance i am going into university. well heck. ok ya, one of my infamous bunk mate got A1 for his GP. He was commenting how bad my english was when reading my autobiography. Anyway i meant it to be a casual writing just like in blog or msn. So if any of you guys reading my blog now, please beware.
the final SOC evaluation was on monday and i thought i would fail my low rope obstacle. but alas, i passed it with a pretty good timing of 9:31. fastest in my section and second fastest in my platoon. surprisingly i did better than my other 2 section mates who were, wah, damn fit. My buddy said i could do better because i can run and he's not good in running. Conclusion: Talk so much in the end i still win him in SOC no matter what.
Then came the most dreaded event: 24km route march. We started at 1500 and ended at 2356. Had to wear my parade boots which were not seasoned cos i left my other boots at home. Same old abrasions at the thighs but still i cant believe i had done it.
Packing to go home was hard. I didnt bring any stuff home during the last book out so i got lots to carry. threw away a lot of stuff though :(
9th March. My mum put on my jockey cap for me and some of my army friends drooled at my sis which i thought they might be blind. :P
Felt elated that i do not need to go back to tekong for any re-test. whole company only about 30 do not need to come back cos many have to re-do their SOC.
was pretty angry the day before POP... had a debrief session with my section commander. He was evaluating each of us in the section and he said i probably go SISPEC!!! arghz. whats worse, 'you still can have the chance to go OCS even if you get posted to SISPEC'. though i find it hard to accept but if i cant make it to OCS, i guess it must be my peer appraisal. The peer appraisal was done before i was made the platoon IC so didnt have much chance to perform. somemore i not the kind who wayang so not many took notice. Well, but my platoon sergeant said i got the chance to go OCS so i still keep my fingers crossed. My buddy, bloody hell, while queuing for dinner, was telling me 'aiya, dun be so mad. I'll may see you here when u come back as a specialist'. wah i was fuming, deep inside i was thinking, 'you think you confirm can go OCS big deal ar? ' Actually leadership skills, i dare say he havent proved that he is better than me. His relationship with platoon definitely better than me cos i have this habit of being selective with people i talk to. Thats my biggest drawback. IPPT i think i can only win in 2.4km and definitely SOC. Running is no doubt most important thing in army. i hope they focus more on running and endurance :] and those military skills, like technical handling, first aid, marksmanship, camouflage, drawing of range card, i am slightly better.
anyway the criteria to go OCS are getting so incoherent just like choosing the platoon best. my platoon best cant work with his own platoon and almost the whole platoon hated him. Seeing a few who are confirmed going OCS, i wondered what they are looking for in OCS. Someone who got screwed by an officer for not being able to account for his men? Someone who leads passively? Someone who is well-liked by his platoon?
Anyway, i am just happy that i had done my best in BMT. Especially when a few of the sergeants had given me their trust and support. I was given the right to pump recruits... :P
oh yeah, i got my ipod shuffle. its really cool but apple really know how to earn money. i had to buy the usb charger for 54 bucks... arghz. ipod shuffle had an internal battery that is non-replaceable. but still its sleek and cool :] quality gd. i can shuffle or un-shuffle the songs. :]
yeah finally POP... now for the flashback...
dreaded going back to camp cos everyone will be talking about nothing except results. my bunk only 3 guys didnt get As but the more i hear from other platoons the lesser the chance i am going into university. well heck. ok ya, one of my infamous bunk mate got A1 for his GP. He was commenting how bad my english was when reading my autobiography. Anyway i meant it to be a casual writing just like in blog or msn. So if any of you guys reading my blog now, please beware.
the final SOC evaluation was on monday and i thought i would fail my low rope obstacle. but alas, i passed it with a pretty good timing of 9:31. fastest in my section and second fastest in my platoon. surprisingly i did better than my other 2 section mates who were, wah, damn fit. My buddy said i could do better because i can run and he's not good in running. Conclusion: Talk so much in the end i still win him in SOC no matter what.
Then came the most dreaded event: 24km route march. We started at 1500 and ended at 2356. Had to wear my parade boots which were not seasoned cos i left my other boots at home. Same old abrasions at the thighs but still i cant believe i had done it.
Packing to go home was hard. I didnt bring any stuff home during the last book out so i got lots to carry. threw away a lot of stuff though :(
9th March. My mum put on my jockey cap for me and some of my army friends drooled at my sis which i thought they might be blind. :P
Felt elated that i do not need to go back to tekong for any re-test. whole company only about 30 do not need to come back cos many have to re-do their SOC.
was pretty angry the day before POP... had a debrief session with my section commander. He was evaluating each of us in the section and he said i probably go SISPEC!!! arghz. whats worse, 'you still can have the chance to go OCS even if you get posted to SISPEC'. though i find it hard to accept but if i cant make it to OCS, i guess it must be my peer appraisal. The peer appraisal was done before i was made the platoon IC so didnt have much chance to perform. somemore i not the kind who wayang so not many took notice. Well, but my platoon sergeant said i got the chance to go OCS so i still keep my fingers crossed. My buddy, bloody hell, while queuing for dinner, was telling me 'aiya, dun be so mad. I'll may see you here when u come back as a specialist'. wah i was fuming, deep inside i was thinking, 'you think you confirm can go OCS big deal ar? ' Actually leadership skills, i dare say he havent proved that he is better than me. His relationship with platoon definitely better than me cos i have this habit of being selective with people i talk to. Thats my biggest drawback. IPPT i think i can only win in 2.4km and definitely SOC. Running is no doubt most important thing in army. i hope they focus more on running and endurance :] and those military skills, like technical handling, first aid, marksmanship, camouflage, drawing of range card, i am slightly better.
anyway the criteria to go OCS are getting so incoherent just like choosing the platoon best. my platoon best cant work with his own platoon and almost the whole platoon hated him. Seeing a few who are confirmed going OCS, i wondered what they are looking for in OCS. Someone who got screwed by an officer for not being able to account for his men? Someone who leads passively? Someone who is well-liked by his platoon?
Anyway, i am just happy that i had done my best in BMT. Especially when a few of the sergeants had given me their trust and support. I was given the right to pump recruits... :P
oh yeah, i got my ipod shuffle. its really cool but apple really know how to earn money. i had to buy the usb charger for 54 bucks... arghz. ipod shuffle had an internal battery that is non-replaceable. but still its sleek and cool :] quality gd. i can shuffle or un-shuffle the songs. :]
Saturday, March 05, 2005
..:: 295. The One With Results ::..
Oh well, the day i dreaded came. i was fully prepared... totally didnt think of it at all as you can see from my last few entries. I was hoping i pass my maths and i am happy.
things werent that simple after all...
i got the luxury to rot my time off cos results are out at 230pm. so i have to trouble poor joan, smsing her cos i was idling ard. Waiting for my friend so we can go lunch.
Our batch did better than the previous and whats more, the previous batch had the best results like in 20 yrs... what more to say? mickey mouse was grinning all the way (if u noe who i'm talking abt)
Looking at the list of distinctions, i realised dun haf any names from my class... i began to worry and panic...
my pd tutor had to 'dao' me before i get my results... some students from other class had to cut in and thank him for his guidance and blah blah blah. i had to freeze and wait in horror.
when i saw my result slip, i saw the first grade and it was maths. mmm... something i wish to see but definitely something not i hoped for. confusing huh? nvm. i saw my GP grade i almost jumped for joy. i got B3. u may say 'chey' but to a person who failed GP most of the time and with comments from my pd-cum-gp tutor 'what the hell have you been doing for the past 2 yrs?' 'i think you seriously need to buck up if not you will fail A lvl'... With that dont u think getting b3 is like a feat to me?
But overall, i didnt do as well. kinda expected cos my prelim was trashy... got E8 for GP somemore failed overall. ugliest report ever. i did what i could savage and i improved for all my subjects. My testimonial was kinda well written.
my plan: apply for uni courses and also retake as private.
If my admission is successful, i can always redraw and get refund for my A lvls.
I know myself i definitely can do better cos i wasted my J1 dreading on my wrong choice to change JC and wasted lots of time crying over spilled milk.
i have planned what i wanna do but somehow somewhere there are bound to have people who will ask me my results. i mean if they are concerned about me, i dont mind. But not all.
'hows your results?'
'har? how? what you gonna do next?'
insensitive tone. so what if i tell u what i'm gonna do? only invite more questions.
'hows your results?'
'what happened?'
so tempted to ans 'like dat lo'. 2 ways to ans. 1st is to say u screwed up. 2nd is to say you didnt put in enough effort. but whatever the reason, they can only feel bad for you.
for my case, it was a sad one. when i told my uncle the 2nd reason, he mocked at me. 'see i told you to put in effort, now i think you can go study chinese medicine'
*ouch* i am back in spore so i cant curse and swear. with that i broke down... had to call my closest friend and find some comfort.
Its not easy to find peace with yourself, telling yourself to take things postively. i wasnt that sad about my results and its not the end of the world. but irritating people have to come along and either make me feel worse or make me feel that i have disappointed them.
Why must people dwell about what had happened? For me, i know which areas i am weak in cos right before i went for my exams i knew i did not have time to fully comprehend them.
Finding a space to reflect on where to improve is definitely very hard especially these few days when everybody is so interested in how each other is doing.
Plus my pillar of support is not here, i hope i can last the 24km route march...
strange thing is that whats occupying my mind now is more of my posting after bmt.
oh must thank my sweet red cross senior cynthia who offered to tutor me maths cos she got like all As? lol.
Oh well, the day i dreaded came. i was fully prepared... totally didnt think of it at all as you can see from my last few entries. I was hoping i pass my maths and i am happy.
things werent that simple after all...
i got the luxury to rot my time off cos results are out at 230pm. so i have to trouble poor joan, smsing her cos i was idling ard. Waiting for my friend so we can go lunch.
Our batch did better than the previous and whats more, the previous batch had the best results like in 20 yrs... what more to say? mickey mouse was grinning all the way (if u noe who i'm talking abt)
Looking at the list of distinctions, i realised dun haf any names from my class... i began to worry and panic...
my pd tutor had to 'dao' me before i get my results... some students from other class had to cut in and thank him for his guidance and blah blah blah. i had to freeze and wait in horror.
when i saw my result slip, i saw the first grade and it was maths. mmm... something i wish to see but definitely something not i hoped for. confusing huh? nvm. i saw my GP grade i almost jumped for joy. i got B3. u may say 'chey' but to a person who failed GP most of the time and with comments from my pd-cum-gp tutor 'what the hell have you been doing for the past 2 yrs?' 'i think you seriously need to buck up if not you will fail A lvl'... With that dont u think getting b3 is like a feat to me?
But overall, i didnt do as well. kinda expected cos my prelim was trashy... got E8 for GP somemore failed overall. ugliest report ever. i did what i could savage and i improved for all my subjects. My testimonial was kinda well written.
my plan: apply for uni courses and also retake as private.
If my admission is successful, i can always redraw and get refund for my A lvls.
I know myself i definitely can do better cos i wasted my J1 dreading on my wrong choice to change JC and wasted lots of time crying over spilled milk.
i have planned what i wanna do but somehow somewhere there are bound to have people who will ask me my results. i mean if they are concerned about me, i dont mind. But not all.
'hows your results?'
'har? how? what you gonna do next?'
insensitive tone. so what if i tell u what i'm gonna do? only invite more questions.
'hows your results?'
'what happened?'
so tempted to ans 'like dat lo'. 2 ways to ans. 1st is to say u screwed up. 2nd is to say you didnt put in enough effort. but whatever the reason, they can only feel bad for you.
for my case, it was a sad one. when i told my uncle the 2nd reason, he mocked at me. 'see i told you to put in effort, now i think you can go study chinese medicine'
*ouch* i am back in spore so i cant curse and swear. with that i broke down... had to call my closest friend and find some comfort.
Its not easy to find peace with yourself, telling yourself to take things postively. i wasnt that sad about my results and its not the end of the world. but irritating people have to come along and either make me feel worse or make me feel that i have disappointed them.
Why must people dwell about what had happened? For me, i know which areas i am weak in cos right before i went for my exams i knew i did not have time to fully comprehend them.
Finding a space to reflect on where to improve is definitely very hard especially these few days when everybody is so interested in how each other is doing.
Plus my pillar of support is not here, i hope i can last the 24km route march...
strange thing is that whats occupying my mind now is more of my posting after bmt.
oh must thank my sweet red cross senior cynthia who offered to tutor me maths cos she got like all As? lol.
..:: 294. The One With Platoon Best ::..
Friday morning went to whitesands to wait for my army buddies to book out cos i need to get the parade tickets and some stuff from my buddy. Saw a few of them face as dark as charcoal. i wondered what happened...
In the end, the sergeants announced the platoon best and platoon top 10 names. Some feel that the platoon best was not deserving cos the platoon cant work with him. Some find him wayang.(talk a lot action very little)
My buddy was platoon 2nd. Parents of platoon best get to sit at the grand stand so my buddy was a bit pissed cos it was one of the rare chance he could make his parents proud and i can fully understand.
One of my other friend was pissed cos not only he's not in the top 10 but a person who didnt perform much got into top 10. the more angry he was, the more amusing i found. i mean, IMO, you should know your own performance, how good your leadership and stuff... there's no need for such useless ranking to demean yourself. Just by looking at the top 10, i can comfortably say i can only look up to a few, those who really have leadership qualities and great personality, well liked by peers.
pple in top 10, there are those who got screwed by officers for not able to account for their men properly. those with muscles but lack of brain power, not spontaneous enough. those who are popular and well-liked (in limelight) but got no substance. those who only know how to shout at others, but not showing standard themselves.
Disclaimer: 'those' may be an overstatement. I may be referring to only one particular person.
With that, do u still think the top 10 stands? Not trying to console myself or what, but if you still have the logic and eyes to see, you will know it yourself, why let such lame ranking bother you?
There are also some blur cocks living in their own world, they would vote for people whom they see or hear a lot. In the end, they sure vote for those 'wayang' pple. I realised this when i chatted with a few of them and they are seriously so innocent that they dunno what is actually happening behind the scene.
Not being arrogant or what, but for those who know me well, based on my own leadership, those i can look up to with real leadership, i can count with one hand. :]
Friday morning went to whitesands to wait for my army buddies to book out cos i need to get the parade tickets and some stuff from my buddy. Saw a few of them face as dark as charcoal. i wondered what happened...
In the end, the sergeants announced the platoon best and platoon top 10 names. Some feel that the platoon best was not deserving cos the platoon cant work with him. Some find him wayang.(talk a lot action very little)
My buddy was platoon 2nd. Parents of platoon best get to sit at the grand stand so my buddy was a bit pissed cos it was one of the rare chance he could make his parents proud and i can fully understand.
One of my other friend was pissed cos not only he's not in the top 10 but a person who didnt perform much got into top 10. the more angry he was, the more amusing i found. i mean, IMO, you should know your own performance, how good your leadership and stuff... there's no need for such useless ranking to demean yourself. Just by looking at the top 10, i can comfortably say i can only look up to a few, those who really have leadership qualities and great personality, well liked by peers.
pple in top 10, there are those who got screwed by officers for not able to account for their men properly. those with muscles but lack of brain power, not spontaneous enough. those who are popular and well-liked (in limelight) but got no substance. those who only know how to shout at others, but not showing standard themselves.
Disclaimer: 'those' may be an overstatement. I may be referring to only one particular person.
With that, do u still think the top 10 stands? Not trying to console myself or what, but if you still have the logic and eyes to see, you will know it yourself, why let such lame ranking bother you?
There are also some blur cocks living in their own world, they would vote for people whom they see or hear a lot. In the end, they sure vote for those 'wayang' pple. I realised this when i chatted with a few of them and they are seriously so innocent that they dunno what is actually happening behind the scene.
Not being arrogant or what, but for those who know me well, based on my own leadership, those i can look up to with real leadership, i can count with one hand. :]
Thursday, March 03, 2005
[ 293. The One With arghz.. fuck it. ]
its been such a long time... had a great time during my birthday book out. i was so glad i could hold back my confinement for one more week.
i think my BMT i haf experienced quite a lot. perhaps no guard duty... got confined because of stupid IMT misfiring. quite unfair, computers may not be 100% correct but no chance to argue. quite a few of us experienced rifle probs but heck it, at least 7 other pple confining wif me.
Range
oh, super sian when u are waiting for ur turn to shoot. initially thot live rounds were scary but after the first few, my ears got quite numb and its a lot easier to shoot compared to the 'arcade shooting'. first day shooting ended around 1230am.
2nd day even later... cos got night shooting test. we ended ard 1am +
wat made me angrier was that some M2 guys misfired during live range and they got only 1 confinement like us. live range VS arcade shooting.. how can they be equal...
Another thing that pissed me off was that they told us we were confined and not allowed to book out on fri night. so last minute but hey cant blame SAF... they have their own SOPs...
sat got some remedial training for those who failed IPPT.... thats the reason why we cant book out, cos we need to clock more than 22 hrs...
i wasnt tt sad cos tt week i was the platoon IC and i received feedback that i did a great job :] i think i might have surprised some and even the instructors... tt week very lucky for me... even though we were the last platoon to fall in but somehow i managed to make the platoon fall in the place the activity was going to be conducted and frm there i conducted water parade... sometimes have to OTOT drink up so pple wont noe we are the last... we came down last but in the end get to send arms first... aww.. i love myself. last time instructors have to rush the ICs... but for me, i kept going to the office and calling them. Caught a few of my sgts eating, sleeping in the office sia.I still think that red cross trained me well... compared to others who were from NPCC or NCC... no nid to say la. :] i'm now more motivated to train my cadets to be as polished.
280205, Mon
After getting confined, i had IPPT in the morning... i dreaded it cos i nvr passed. i trained hard on sat and slept thru'out sun to rest my muscles. The IPPT was kinda cool cos all were computerised... all with sensors and stuff... sit up u have a voice counting for u... and when i reached the chin up station i froze...
but when i pulled once, i got that feeling i could do it, wif my buddy cheering for me, i managed a 7. but had to minus one cos the instructor said i kicked. oh well i still passed! when i came down, i was elated cos i knew i had a chance to go command school... IPPT was my only hurdle. lucky me, i only decided to change my grip: from overgrasp to undergrasp... if not i think i still cant pull...
oh well... nuting much, had a very last min drill competition prelim round, only practised for 2 hrs and dun think got chance. today is games day. i spent the day at sick bay cos of sore eyes. the doc gave me and the rest of the 7 guys who got sore eyes attend C.
tml getting results and obviously i'm scared... watever it is, i will remain optimistic cos i have pple who support me :]
POP soon in like 5 days time?
hopefully i get posted to OCS...
its been such a long time... had a great time during my birthday book out. i was so glad i could hold back my confinement for one more week.
i think my BMT i haf experienced quite a lot. perhaps no guard duty... got confined because of stupid IMT misfiring. quite unfair, computers may not be 100% correct but no chance to argue. quite a few of us experienced rifle probs but heck it, at least 7 other pple confining wif me.
Range
oh, super sian when u are waiting for ur turn to shoot. initially thot live rounds were scary but after the first few, my ears got quite numb and its a lot easier to shoot compared to the 'arcade shooting'. first day shooting ended around 1230am.
2nd day even later... cos got night shooting test. we ended ard 1am +
wat made me angrier was that some M2 guys misfired during live range and they got only 1 confinement like us. live range VS arcade shooting.. how can they be equal...
Another thing that pissed me off was that they told us we were confined and not allowed to book out on fri night. so last minute but hey cant blame SAF... they have their own SOPs...
sat got some remedial training for those who failed IPPT.... thats the reason why we cant book out, cos we need to clock more than 22 hrs...
i wasnt tt sad cos tt week i was the platoon IC and i received feedback that i did a great job :] i think i might have surprised some and even the instructors... tt week very lucky for me... even though we were the last platoon to fall in but somehow i managed to make the platoon fall in the place the activity was going to be conducted and frm there i conducted water parade... sometimes have to OTOT drink up so pple wont noe we are the last... we came down last but in the end get to send arms first... aww.. i love myself. last time instructors have to rush the ICs... but for me, i kept going to the office and calling them. Caught a few of my sgts eating, sleeping in the office sia.I still think that red cross trained me well... compared to others who were from NPCC or NCC... no nid to say la. :] i'm now more motivated to train my cadets to be as polished.
280205, Mon
After getting confined, i had IPPT in the morning... i dreaded it cos i nvr passed. i trained hard on sat and slept thru'out sun to rest my muscles. The IPPT was kinda cool cos all were computerised... all with sensors and stuff... sit up u have a voice counting for u... and when i reached the chin up station i froze...
but when i pulled once, i got that feeling i could do it, wif my buddy cheering for me, i managed a 7. but had to minus one cos the instructor said i kicked. oh well i still passed! when i came down, i was elated cos i knew i had a chance to go command school... IPPT was my only hurdle. lucky me, i only decided to change my grip: from overgrasp to undergrasp... if not i think i still cant pull...
oh well... nuting much, had a very last min drill competition prelim round, only practised for 2 hrs and dun think got chance. today is games day. i spent the day at sick bay cos of sore eyes. the doc gave me and the rest of the 7 guys who got sore eyes attend C.
tml getting results and obviously i'm scared... watever it is, i will remain optimistic cos i have pple who support me :]
POP soon in like 5 days time?
hopefully i get posted to OCS...
Saturday, February 12, 2005
[ 292. The One With My 8th Book Out ]
oh well. sun is coming, my holiday is ending, back to training.
today went for lunch with red cross friends. they said i look funny. mmm... maybe without my hair, my head looks smaller? went to china square the village. didnt know got such a place so similar to marche...
then finally went shopping spree... at wisma atria and taka. dunno what to buy so walk abt and see watever fancies me then i buy. saw quite a lot of pple and a few maggot recruits like me. bought a chain for my army buddy for his birthday. bought something for vdae too...
went to UK fun fair at woodlands. damn fun but ex.
haiz. sunday's gonna be boring... for the first time. mmm...
oh well. sun is coming, my holiday is ending, back to training.
today went for lunch with red cross friends. they said i look funny. mmm... maybe without my hair, my head looks smaller? went to china square the village. didnt know got such a place so similar to marche...
then finally went shopping spree... at wisma atria and taka. dunno what to buy so walk abt and see watever fancies me then i buy. saw quite a lot of pple and a few maggot recruits like me. bought a chain for my army buddy for his birthday. bought something for vdae too...
went to UK fun fair at woodlands. damn fun but ex.
haiz. sunday's gonna be boring... for the first time. mmm...
Friday, February 11, 2005
[ 291. The One With KBox Madness ]
.The Eve.
had a great dinner... lots of GOOD food like abalone, lobster, crab, scallop, sea cucumber, etc. even better than wat buddha jumps over the wall. forced to play mahjong wif my parents and my sis. absolutely no luck, never won once.
.Day 1.
just cant help but feel that CNY has lost its meaning... maybe long ago. today i went to visit my paternal relatives. maybe its the dialect. maybe its the generation gap. i find my sisters and i nothing to say to our relatives. as for the children of our relatives, we had nothing to say to each other. firstly they were either too young. If not, there were this two girls who were super hiao. You can see them touching up their make up or look into their cosmetic mirror every 5 mins. i think they kinda overdo their make-up. so thick that if i slap them, the powder would come off.
strangely all my relatives are 'strategically located'. i just need to travel from pasir ris to tampines. my maternal relatives are located at amk/bishan area.
after that, my sisters and i went to kbox. sang from 3-7pm. the bill came up to be 81 bucks!
haha. some1 so sweet accompany for dinner. orchard road was haunted that night. you can cross the roads without having to wait for the green light. it was a wonderful night. i wont beg for anything less! lol.
.Day 2.
this time i get to talk to my relatives cos i meet them often and they at least speak mandarin. managed to convince my stingy mum that a taxi ride is worth it from amk to bishan. end the day wif singing again. i'm addicted. enuff said.
it was a good night sleep. partly because of a $50 hongbao. partly shant disclosed.
.Day 3.
today the streets are empty again cos pple are either schooling or working. left NS guys like us wandering aimlessly.
high tea at some place wif my vball frenz.
vball game at night.
for now. adieu.
.The Eve.
had a great dinner... lots of GOOD food like abalone, lobster, crab, scallop, sea cucumber, etc. even better than wat buddha jumps over the wall. forced to play mahjong wif my parents and my sis. absolutely no luck, never won once.
.Day 1.
just cant help but feel that CNY has lost its meaning... maybe long ago. today i went to visit my paternal relatives. maybe its the dialect. maybe its the generation gap. i find my sisters and i nothing to say to our relatives. as for the children of our relatives, we had nothing to say to each other. firstly they were either too young. If not, there were this two girls who were super hiao. You can see them touching up their make up or look into their cosmetic mirror every 5 mins. i think they kinda overdo their make-up. so thick that if i slap them, the powder would come off.
strangely all my relatives are 'strategically located'. i just need to travel from pasir ris to tampines. my maternal relatives are located at amk/bishan area.
after that, my sisters and i went to kbox. sang from 3-7pm. the bill came up to be 81 bucks!
haha. some1 so sweet accompany for dinner. orchard road was haunted that night. you can cross the roads without having to wait for the green light. it was a wonderful night. i wont beg for anything less! lol.
.Day 2.
this time i get to talk to my relatives cos i meet them often and they at least speak mandarin. managed to convince my stingy mum that a taxi ride is worth it from amk to bishan. end the day wif singing again. i'm addicted. enuff said.
it was a good night sleep. partly because of a $50 hongbao. partly shant disclosed.
.Day 3.
today the streets are empty again cos pple are either schooling or working. left NS guys like us wandering aimlessly.
high tea at some place wif my vball frenz.
vball game at night.
for now. adieu.
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