18.08.04, Wednesday ~ Hyped factor: 4/10

lucky i mastered the motto for national camp - resilience. if not i would have killed
my tutor. lucky today was a short day. was so pissed by him. a few days ago i posted
an apology letter that i wrote? which i removed cos i was thot that i wasnt being
sincere enough. guess wat happens when i gave the letter to my pd tutor? that fucking
(excuse me) tutor opened my letter and closed it instanteously and gave it back to me.

'There's nothing else to explain. you jolly well know what you have done.

I was stunned. after that, he added,
'whats your dad's number? i nid to speak to him. If not, i'm gg to ask him to
come down to school and meet me.'

i was fuming and 'wat the hell' almost came out of my mouth. wah if you were me, how
would u feel? i spent quite some time drafting the letter putting aside my work cos
i'm sincere in apologising to him. but the least he could do is to accept the letter.
if he dun wan to read or throw, i dont care but reject it in front of me and wat i
get in the end? more trouble. gosh. there seem to be nothing i can do to redeem
myself. like i committed some serious sin like dat. think he super bias. one of
my friend got early leave form and she juz put on the table today and wat, nothing
happens. if its me, diff case leh. for my early leave i nid to have MC attached to
it. wah like so many others could get away from skipping sch. seriously some1 pls
slap some sense into him. i feel so unjust.

so frustrated. my apology letter brought me more trouble. If some1 says saying sorry
doesnt hurt, i will be the first to scream 'hell no'.

today everything seemed so wrong. except that i managed to sneak into first aid club
gathering and eat one of their pizza and bitch abt today to shu hui and wei shan.
ronald susilo lost. haiz. somemore kena thrashed. 10-15, 1-15. amazing race, charla
and mirna were last and got eliminated. why the race team lost, cos they tried to get
earlier flight but the flight got delayed. sometimes it doesnt help to do more things
cos u nvr know when u will get messed up.

and AJ wonderful CCA dept had this handover-cum-stepping down ceremony. they say i
had to go. for wat? the cca not going to continue. hand over to who? step down? we
ar not given recognition in the first place wats the nid to step down? seriously,
they are too rigid. everything muz die die follow. i think if death can be pre planned
i think they will do up their death certificates. arghz.

received new timetable. crap. its juz shortened timetable. 145 go home. strangely,
there is still civics... somemore 2 periods. if 1 period for admin matters i understand.
2??? i was wondering if they are going to have revision lectures, why dont they have
slots for lectures and consultation time? die die muz force us wake up so early go
sch and follow the timetable... VJ has slotting thingy and u juz come for those lects
u nid or the tutorials. isnt that more effective? teachers can give stupid answers too.

'why muz we follow the timetable?'
'because we know some pupils cannot be left alone to study'

erm, by forcing them to come for lectures and tutorials, u think they will learn?
waste 45 mins somemore. they should give us time to practise and explore our area
of weaknesses then we can clarify our doubts. going thru everything as a mainstream,
not only slow down our revision but we are not giving priorities to the weaker topics.
and different pple have diff priorities. juz like this fri bio practice test. like
as if every1 start revising from the j1 topics. -_-

ok. let off my steam le. now can sleep better. tml got more things to handle.
got 2 tests. well at least GP test i can finally stop hearing the fat arse talk for
2 periods. *claps* and AJ is the only kuku college to have wat. make-up PE. and
i have to clear one tml.