11.02.04, Wednesday ~ Hyped factor: 4/10

haiz.. i think today is my worst wednesday of the year. a lot of stuff
today do like for nothing. first newspaper articles, today first time nvr
chase us for it. then rushed home to get the videotape for vibes, in the
end so sucky all the dance steps. haiz. wasted my trip. then fat lips
reminded me tt the P impatient liao, cos say i keep putting the whole
'see my parent' thingy on hold. wah like i want to, also nid to wait for
off day ma... very reluctant also, cos i really scared my activities will
be cut. but then again i wont be tt afraid to face him on talentime. And
speaking of talentime, 10q so much, siu... for staying back n help me
out wif choreography... the steps were cool... but haven finish. haiz.
i still nt in the mood of choreographing... as for joining talentime, i wan
to, but there is a part of me saying no... i dun wan to sit in the hall
later regretting i didnt join too... very vexed. hopefully by tml, my
directions will be clearer. haiz, like dat where got mood to celebrate
V-dae. gosh.. still muz edit music. haiz. y am i so hard on myself?
i think the audition date is kinda early. songs cat can prac within a week
but dance? u still nid to choreograph and prac. haiz. worst thing is haven
thot of the costume...

btw do guys go through menopause? my dad starting be like my mum
keep nagging and chanting... arghz. cant stand em'. yaya my room is
messy but i go home so late everyday, btw i do my stuff already very
sleepy where got time to pack... i haf a weird bedroom set.. change one
and i will keep my stuff tidy and neat. now dad like having bad temper,
angry wif me... so if he were to speak to the P. i wonder wat will happen
to me :) wah very troubled. dunno y i become so problematic since i
step into ajc. hope this will be the last episode of my trauma... think
most imptly now, i muz still smile and take one step at a time.

yawnz... tml got another round of reece to fort canning park at abt 6.
then its fri lo :) hehe.