26.05.04, Wednesday ~ Hyped factor: 4/10

Haiz... today pay fat arse 2 bucks for not bringing tie.. cldnt find it. bio
test i took only less than a period to study... thot got 2 periods... in the
end study for little while then fell asleep in the library. bell rang, it was
my test liao. -_-. brudder said i pass i treat him -_- great. then got back my
maths paper...i think whole class only 4-5 failures... i contribute to the stats
tt our class percentage passes 70+... haiz.. worse is my class is 50+ distinction.
Wat the hell i am doing... -_- really angry wif myself... got slapped, kicked...
ok la all for the sake of fun. my link fun day almost done... went to eat prata.
thx for the 40 cents treat... and making me feel bad 'u really haf no $'... ouch.
i paid for something else k... :( hate days w/o $$... then towards the end... haiz.
nvm... i haf very strange feelings nowadays... dunno y... lol. dunno if its a 2-way
thing... but seriously. life's been different.

oh ya.. today american idol was like at first diana blew me away.. but then, it
became quite obvious tt fantasia will win... somemore she sang the finale song
tt was diana's opening song.. haiz... how can? open attack. tml getting back GP
paper.. hope i wont haf another attack...

seriously, i haf no mood for sch on fri. juz wish to spend it wif ... lol. myself?

25.05.04, Tuesday ~ Hyped factor: 10/10

lol. today happy day. mass civics listen to tang quartet.. which i love...
bio tut was kinda relaxing.. less bitching... fat arse here but kept kinda
quiet. watched video for GP.

then speech day training was arghz. but nvm. cadets love my FD session..
fun but gd.. haha... then went to CP for meeting.. OMG. they laugh till
the burger remains can come out from their noses... played wif food
and stuff... diao... yeah trade fone wif siyun.. kinda cool.

yup. today haf a great day. 10 wat u expect... i could have juz died today.
shack sia... so fun... oh ya. brudder and i share something weird...
lol... great minds think alike.. seriously... i think we are long lost bros...

Angels Brought Me Here
-dedicate to my brudder.. hu has been sad for quite some time.
sad to see him moody...
and to all, who needs comfort :)

It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
And walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams come true
When I found you
I found you
My miracle...

Chorus:

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know it would be clear
That angels brought me here

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreans came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle...

If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know it would be clear
That angels brought me here

Bridge:

They brought me here to be with you
I'll be forever greatful
Oh forever faithful
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

24.05.04, Monday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

I am still coughing and feeling sick. haiz... today the moment i heard my
pd tutor not in sch, i almost wanted to leave the sch... we were joking
ard like asking him ' u better produce MC, i wont accept parent's letter.'
lol. cos my pd tutor a bit like mummy's boy. we always tease him for getting
allowance frm his mum. lol.

today decided to run at 1.45pm. was coughing so bad even the bio tutor ask
me go toilet... last week of school... i'm awaiting for the hell-lidays to
come... this whole week got dance. arghz... HQ like becoming my second home..
settling link fun day stuff. catch up on gossip. teasing pple. today i learnt
the password to zap things. lol.

then went to watch shrek wif my brudder... kinda funny.. he was 'vibrating'
while laughing... hump. got a lot of cheesy lines and corny resemblence.
really happy these days... but come to think... my chn retest this coming mon.
and my As is like 5 months away... sianz... cant wait for july to come. i wanna
eat wif NYPians. lol. they are a butch of hard-rock suckers. lol.

23.05.04, Sunday ~ Hyped factor: 9/10

today started of having meeting.. had a lot of fun. and juz couldnt keep
laughing. and did something meaningful.. went to beach road and check
out all the prices and compare among the shops... so i know the prices
at beach road the best!! lol.. a lot of politics and backstabbing going
on.. all for the sake of lowering their prices and badmouthing pple. haiz

then at night wanted to watch shrek but only left front seats.. some1 says
not much to see... then ask 830pm? too late.. but in the end we still erm
ya... hang out so late.. but really today relive the daring acts... ya
i won! bleahz.

tml long day. nvr do work. but today was fun and worth it la. i am still
sick. gosh. hope every1 is fine n happy. find me if u r not, i shall make
u smile :)

21.05.04, Friday ~ Hyped factor:8/10

lol. now blogging at 3.22am. cool sia. today clarence was rather shocked. cos
i told him i came school for PE... specifically for volleyball... had a math
lect, chem tut, PE played for three periods then head for HQ le. had lunch wif
the rest... too bad ee ling nt there today. haiz. lol. then settled my link fun
day stuff... helped to type the unit leader programme nominal roll... only abt
54 cadets going... mmm... how come amkss nvr send pple? compassvale? nan chiau?
Then help to be human shredder... had office politics.. lol. wrestling in the office... shiok rite? brudder... did u get high? lol. and ya my oyster omelette
... -_-" dun understand ya rationale... not saying i inconsiderate... but then
... if u view it as helping a friend to order... so long i not cutting queue.
its ok wat. diao. sporeans are (quite) civilised. they wont curse and swear...
you didnt cut queue wat.. juz order another one ma... :(

'auntie, sorry i forgot.. 1 more plate of ... "
cos got 3 pple cooking diff stuff.. got one juz cook for omelette, diao again
-_-

but nvm... at least jorin's brownie saved the day... so nice.. yum... lol.

and ya done up a lot of stuff for rck... pretty happy wif myself... hehe... OA
also almost settled... mmm... i believe i got more time to study liao :)

later got college day. Ha. i on 3 day MC.bleahz
LD meeting here i come. lol. but before that got unit training at nine...

diaoz.

20.05.04, Thursday ~ Hyped factor: 7/10

Today went to see doc... got dunno wat infection. chim name.
medicine cost a bomb, but the doctor rocks.. gave me 3 days MC. lol.
*runs away* dun ask me where i see doc. haha. but i still going sch
tml to show fat arse tt i not a sch pon-er... also tml got vball n no GP
lesson = no fat arse. yeah. Somemore sat can get excused from college day.
So weird, forcing classes to go attend college day. Gee. i settled to go
for LD meeting liao. bleahz.

Yeah, cue cards for link fun day done. load off my shoulders. phew... i feel
at home when i am at HQ... chatting wif shannen aka *cannot say here*, angeline
ee ling aka *cant say 2...* Today had fun... office politics. even working is
more fun than studying :( gave names to pple (lol my fave hobby) and listen to
gossip... See the progress of my project... I wore the mask ard to prevent
spreading... but they so cool. say no nid la. poor brudder, think he got it
from me... but anyway he's already sick. in the mind. lol.

Ok the medication is starting to exert its effects. i'm getting drowsy...
Gee.. so happy yesterday, despite being sick, i think i can pass my math test.
lol. i didnt study much for it... :) ya its an ez topic... Hey pple, one more
week to hell-lidays... exams in july. arghz... got to study in camps. haha.

18.05.04, Tuesday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

lol. i think my brudder noes me best liao. i didnt even realise i
sounded different and he knew from my sms that i am no feeling ok.
wah. power. :)

Ok tml math test.. sucks. and today bio test i flunked. but its ok.
i haven really started studying... muz jia you le.

today went to hq... buttons still not ready after 2 mths -_-
then sat down wif shannen and discussed abt CAC wif simon-peter lum.
finally letter can send out tml.. phew.. thot gonna delay.. cant wait
CAC to come... no more lecture liao.. juz administer tests...

Oh today attended an interesting talk on study skills.. nothing new but
coach jiow juz got tt power of influence... i shall draw up my priority
table liao...

then crapped a lot in the office... knew more gossip... and more office
affairs... now i noe more abt shannen... lol.. and eng kee... mmm...
ok now i have to go back to study for math test tml... cant afford to
fail liao... :)

16.05.04, Sunday ~ Hyped factor: 4/10

14.05.04, Friday ~ Hyped factor: 2/10
Fun thing most probably came from playing vball for sooo... long.
missed my break so had to eat at 145... but my brudder mentioned
abt treating me but i wasnt sure i saw the sms correctly... so
i rushed down to PS. Luckily bio remedial was cancelled but still
got CCA. then @ PS i juz stoned... dunno y i had this weird feeling
if i ask my friends for money... so i asked brudder to help me buy.
and he said i treat him like slave :( ok la. maybe u misread my intentions.
i nvr meant tt. dunno whether i too hungry + frustrated tt i
forgot wat i wanna eat or wat. cos we all juz stone there. super awkward
so i left. Almost fainted in the train. had to stand, so many pple. in my
heart i was worried tt the canteen stalls all closed, then i wld really
die of hunger cos it was 330 when i went back.

Then i went to the library and slept till 5pm. haiz. alone. sian. wat
a way to spend my fri, when i released at 145...

then at night, watched survivor... enjoyed the moments but not when rupert
won :( i juz dun like him. lol. And the day sucked knowing that sat got
test...

15.05.04, Saturday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10
woke up kinda early... wanted to borrow dictionary but cant find. then in
the end almost late. so decided not to go la. i almost wasnt informed of
the test. aiya shldnt haf asked... i also didnt study for it so in the end
didnt go... instead went to sk. surpised miao ling n brudder. sec 1 cadets
still as cute.Was kinda tired after the thing. Luckily rem haf to meet
shirley regarding link fun day reece. walked the fort canning park for the
6th time. sianz. then loiter ard town wif ys n daniel n brudder. and ya
i sort of wanting to 'treat' my brudder and bought for him food cos he
not feeling well... and i really hope to show that our friendship goes
beyond 'slave' or anything like dat. maybe it was a slip of the tongue but
... anyway, bygones liao. the day was fun but i had to go home earlier
to study.

today
only went for NDC AOP. in the morning saw brudder's blog and i became
kinda sorry... i was juz kidding but it triggered mood swings... haiz.
i think we both very tired... he has enuff things on his hands. well,
hope u wont burn out. i think u wont let yaself to also... sorry today
u kena attacked... hope u didnt sprain ya back. lol. at least it keeps
the three of us awake. lol. but seriously i think i am very childish.
*clap*

haiz.. i got link fun day cover cue card to re design.. which i wont
be able to do such a gd job as brudder... nid to develop photos...
nid to come up wif OA manual... nid to learn dance for my dance comp.
lucky maths teacher wont be here on wed, thur and fri... but tml
human histology prac leh... haven study. sian. die.

Hope this week pass quickly. i cant wait for the holidays. i nid a boost.

This is a little tribute to my favourite idol, LaToYa LoNdoN...

I'll be missing all her songs... they're my all-time favourite.
She never shed a tear. Her smile... so angelic. she's humble,
she's fabulous. she made paula abdul cry for her. And i almost did.

Aint Nobody
Aint Going Down Till The Sun Goes Up
All The Time
All By Myself
Oh Baby Baby
Someone Saved My Life Tonight
Somewhere
Rhythm Is Gonna Get You
Too Close For My Comfort
Dont Rain On My Parade

13.05.04, Thursday ~ Hyped factor: 5/10

Yeah, mon went fort canning to re take some pictures.. tiring walk.
i dread fort canning now. been there 5 times. this sat? 6. arghz...
then tue took early leave cos my contacts giving prob... haiz shld
haf left after tt fat arse's period. but juz couldnt la, my eyes
hurt to even open.

In the end, wed fat arse ask me see him after class... which i didnt.
then this morning after assembly, he asked me to stay back...
keep harassing me for the MC when i took early leave and ask y i didnt
see him after class. i mean, so bloody obvious, i wld wan to avoid
seeing u... u still 'arse'... then his parting words was...

'if u keep up like this, there wont be any testimonial to write abt'

do i look as if i care? anyway, if i be a gd boy now, u also got
nothing much to write... so lame lo.. how to fake sore eyes? i juz saw
doctor a week ago for the eye drop, ask me go again... wat i nid is
a change of my contacts... not doctor...sickening... other pple pon
sch, nvr ask mc from them... not even parent's letter.

today had GP test... phew, dun haf to hear him talk for 2 periods.
ooo... math tutor counselled me today... seriously i got math phobia.
do halfway will get stumped and forget all my formula... psychological
barrier i think.

well current affairs comp progressing well... link fun day not really
dien not really helpful lo. my pics haven upload... she wans the cam
back -_- outdoor activties haven done the manual... oh ya mdm pok so
gd, treat us dinner... mmm.. brudder's sausage speg taste nice.
reminded me of the jokes at the mrt and OP :X

Fri is gonna be a sucky day. first bio remedial falls on an unearthly
time: 5pm when my cca starts. how? i think haf to give the remedial a
miss... if not my cca teacher will kill me :(

yawnz.. i'm so tired... peace out.

09.05.04, Sunday ~ Hyped factor: 5/10

Today was basically spent slacking... i didnt noe why my net speed so fast that i
keep downloading charmed and watching them... then went ard evening time to hunt
for garnishing for the cake for mother's day. lol. it was so fun making the cake wif
my sis... too bad the cream melted too fast. but hey i can try it again during father's
day :) forgot strawberries come in seasons... so today no strawberries... but had a
self-made fruit cake. yummy. cream. i love it. my sis and i were suggesting to buy
a can and spray and eat... yaya.. sick.. but it tasted really gd...

Hi shirley, Happy Mothers' Day. lol. ya not tt young :X
Hi Mizael, Happy Mothers' Day. rem to breastfeed me as u promised. Ewww...
To all the mums out there, thanks for ya love all of us. Naggy as u may be, we haf
mastered the art of one-ear-in-N-one-ear-out. So try something new from today.
bleahz :X

I read the NewPaper dated on 8/5, i was overwhelmed by empathy. Not by the
amount of financial burden that the IMH aka Woodbridge had to carry. Instead, it was
the number of old people staying there who were abandoned by their children. It
saddened to see how educated people nowadays can be so heartless. Well those who
left them there for healthcare, paid their medical fees and visited them can be pardoned,
but nothing beats bringing the Elders home. Some Elders were left permanently with
no one to visit or talk to them. Now i understand why MOE wanted students to do at
least 6 hrs CIP, juz to ensure or rather force students to have at least a bit of humanity
in them. Some Singaporeans have the ugly sides... whenever they nid to queue, they
cut or rush to queue. Got free or discounted stuff, needless to say. S'pore has become
so competitive even in the non-economical sense.

And it's always the NKF raising such huge sums of money, claiming that some are for
reserves for dialysis as it is expensive. But how about the rest of the needy organisations.
IMH has been incurring millions to cover the medical costs of those Elders who have no1
to rely on...

And really, Some Singaporeans especially the teens are so lazy to even use their brain to
think or their heart to feel. For example, during Flag Day, some of them returned with only
a few coins inside the tins. I asked them to go and try harder and come back half an hour
later.

'Aiya, dun wan la. tired leh. we went so far come back then u wan us go back and
come back again?'

Think this sentence would provoke some thoughts but i guess u know wat i wanna say.

Then there's this big group returning together, same thing. tins were near empty.

'We went orchard then PS, so many people doing flag day also... all of them got
stickers so dun wan to donate'

Mind you, they are sec 3/4s. Worse, they are not the minority.

1. Such a big group how to collect donations?
2. Why go such crowded places?
3. If your shift ends at 12, u come back before 12 or exactly at 12?
4. Most imptly, how do u feel coming back with a near empty tin? Have u done ur best?

Personally, i went for 4 yrs of flag day. My first time i was reserved as i was sec 1 and
shy so didnt dare to approach people. And with my partner, we moved around places...
But for the next 3 years is full tin. And i changed partner... lol. pair up wif my best friend,
peihuan. Not a full tin, we wont report back. For three years we stood at the same spot
@ amk. always full tin. except our last year, we got 1 full tin each before the shift ends and
we went back to take a second one. It really warmed my heart to see that during flag day,
it was Elders who formed the majority in donating to us. Some dun haf change but went
to buy stuff and came back later. Most of the ten dollar notes also came from the Elders.
Flag day can be fun, if you want it to be. For my friend and I, it was nice to observe pple,
chat up wif the residents there when they donated. We didnt really care about the hours.
There are no such thing as shifts to us.

But now at jc level, people rush to do flag day... why? cos they got 6 hrs of CIP but
dunno what to do so a madrush to sign up. Yes, not much time to hunt for alternative
projects, but when u are involved in the flag day, at least put your utmost effort. I see
people just holding the tins standing or just thrust the tin forward when they see people.

Ya. enough of nagging liao. this had been in my mind for so long... so might as well say it
now. Its high time more pple should know that heart does more than juz pumping blood. :)

08.05.04, Saturday ~ Hyped factor: 1/10

Yesterday? i dun wish to talk about it cos nothing beats today.
Today? I failed my maths test today.for sure.
What could be worse? Having meeting later to clear up mess.

06.05.04, Thursday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

Phew... can heave a sigh of relief... today did a make up PE. well tt can keep the PE
teachers' mouths shut for quite some time. i hope tml will rain... haiz.. today got
my 100 bucks.. i now left wif 35 :( but hey... i spent majority to print notes so i
guess i'll be able to get my $$$ back for food. lolx. print the notes already 16 bucks.
binding 6 bucks. and i'm gonna claim back money for my headphones from my sis...
+ she still owed me $$$... ooo.. i'll be rich again. i love $$$. haha. sorry going nutZ
cos i think i'm gonna fail my sat stats test. today got called out during math to
solve and check concepts.. sadly, i malu-ed myself... today brudder so good 'treated'
me food. haha. well.. back to study maths... yeah jasmine's safe this week. puffer fish
out.

i was bored during GP so i wrote this to irritate my friend who support diana degarmo.

i am diana degarmo,
i am free for you to muo.(touch)
I try to sing while u shriek at my boobies.
I am fat and i cant dance,
lest u see whobbling lipids.

I need no mike stand, i have a boob-mike stand.
I think i'm juz another chain of fools
who join AMI knowing that i am CMI.
My heart wont go on cos i got fats
i'm still standing at the audience area in weeks to come.
i have a broken wing cos i broke mine when i try to fly,
always forgetting that i got high CG.
No1 ever asked do u love me and i know why.
There's always this one voice telling me,
i got the music in mebut when i try to
turn the beat around and wear a red dress,
audience turn around too... to puke at my thighs.

I should go out earlier... to end this misery.

bold words- songs she sang throughout AMI...
LOLX. sorry i dun haf anything against you... but wrote to spite my friend.
chill~ you gotta be in the final two... ya. but no more of tt red dress. lolx

04.05.04, Tuesday ~ Hyped factor: 5/10

nerd low, nerd low *waves hi* haha... so early stressed liao? drink more brands
ya can understand.. wif cmi teachers, learning gets tough... they make us even more
confused... my bio tutor kinda sucked... today scolded my group for not reading up
resources for our tutorial... when we asked her questions, she went one big round, yet
nvr ans our questions... i think she kinda lazy also. first said wan us to stay back and see
her. then in the end say wat, she gif us another chance... see that we are still kids... wtf?

then today double GP period double the arse time. lolx. gif us hw, sian, sat got test how i
gonna prac my maths? then mass civics got student forum session. tok to the P n VP
can vomit blood... i wondered why they speak up. should juz kept quiet and let em
waste time ma... tok abt air con la, student lounge... i so tired of sch politics... watever
they gonna say sure back up wif a lot of crap... i only noe the school cant break away from
their rigid way of doing things, stifle students' creativity, old fashioned school. super bo
liao PE dept. think only aj got make up PE. diao... and keep making us run. shld train our
chin up wat. very -_-

VP: "i heard that some of u celebrate your birthday in the school canteen, but you all
played with the cake by throwing it around. I find it very childish... also a waste of food...
the cleaners also haf to clean up after you guys."

duh -_-". was wat i cld think of.

the students did clean up lo... i think the teachers who reported muz be jealous
that they got no1 to celebrate their birthdays. after civics went nyp eat. come back for chem
and didnt go for PE.

Then met brudder for supper? lolx. cheers. peace out.

03.05.04, Monday ~ Hyped factor: 5/10

today kinda sucked... so many breaks.. screwed up for math test... careless then
all wrong -_-: then very bothered and vexed abt whether shld do make up PE. now i
didnt do... then tml cannot go afternoon PE... if not, sure get screwed upside down.
haiz. then today the class didnt have the chem notes... was feeling guilty didnt collect
cos fri sports day then my asst chem rep we both overlooked... chem first period so
bkshop nvr open... but then.. if i were to collect, the class fund now no $$... means
how am i gonna spend my weekends? well hope the class dun juz blame me for
not collecting the notes. the system sucked. i took abt a week to claim back my
30 bucks for the notes and tutorials... ya then after sch thot i cld redraw $$$, in the
end cant.. haiz. so pissed. wanted to get the $ then go hdb hub. haiz... nvm...

well did a lot of dips and push ups... now arms super tired... shall retire now ~
tml... haiz.. shld i pon afternoon pe? i very vexed...

02.05.04, Sunday ~ Hyped factor: 6/10

shit, my previous entry didnt load. had to retype. arghz. well was saying tt today
looking at the bright side, it was quite well spent. since no tutorial is meeting the dateline
i managed to do some questions, not bad le. then attended an enrichment evac course,
from 2-5pm. went to HQ like 9am to support my frenz who are taking bronze/silver
accred today. well, learnt a lot today... i've been learning new stuff every week. last week
was public first aid, this week was evacuation. then did a fireman's lift on my brudder...
so scared i injure him, cos he landed on the floor when i was swinging him ard. mmm...
but he can survive the hardest knocks, not mentioning being rammed by people. ^o)
happy for shanz and van, they passed their silver...the rest dun worry, next time sure
can!

Then bo liao ME went to meet brudder since he so ke lian... had to work tml and went to
collect $ for tomolo... then we had pudding and shared cool and funny experiences... ya.
feel paiseh making him and daniel tired.. and joan n junqing? i volunteered to be casualty...
and they said my head and butt very heavy... do stretcher drills and hand seats super
tiring... oops. sorry. well i bet real life casualties definitely heavier than me...

some crap:

veins of glacier eternal flow...to the shear white mountain forever cold.....
torriential blizzards,tempestuous blow...etched in the darkness of time despair...
lost in the depth of sorrowful hope...an everlasting pain embeded within...
how to resurrect a human soul...mi soul