..:: 499. The One With Being Unlucky ::..

My laptop was ok until i brought it back home... is it due to the lack of strong firewall that i had in school? damn. no internet i felt so out of the world. my com crashed. damn it.

anyway no time to even send for repair. no time to even go back school to pay my hostel fees.

been working till 9pm everyday. rushing for project. even when i applied leave officially, got lectured by my boss for 30 mins. apparently, 'for duty, honour, country'. it was my fault la cos i should have applied under my first boss who is a nice guy and agreed that officer on attachment should enjoy their school life as much. but over here, i am supposed to see through a project. and the quote she want us to abide to... you can die but not fall sick. that is the mentality u shld have. there will never be a good time to apply for leave. i thot if i dun travel now, once i start work, it would be even harder. she thot where my core values have gone to... there is a difference between an official staff with appointment and a project officer on attachment. I just wished sometimes they can give us a breather, cut us some slack. I noe out in the real working life, there is no such thing as breather, keep up or lose it. sometimes when i get caught up in such situation, i really have suck it up.

work must always come first. if u think of taking vacation, pple will think u are not committed. when pple dun leave office for lunch and get take away instead, you are 'supposed' to follow, if not what will others think of u? got time to go eat lunch, no time to do work? working in front of the com all the time does not equate to 100% productivity.

i just feel angry that after i have worked as hard, cant i at least get some rest? I just hate it when pple second guess my intention, or worse, make it seem like i am the heartless guy... Now apply leave for school activities become so much harder. female boss is tough nut to crack.

i just came back from work and now eating my dinner... at 11pm. sleeping soon and waking up at 6am. Same shit different day... Gotta keep pushing on...